Thugdesolation

  I basically possess a strong and attractive personality that falls into two principle types: one shy, sensitive, gentle and patient; the other exuberant, lively and exhibitionist, sometimes hiding the considerable depths of my character under a cloak of frivolity. Both types are strong willed and forceful in their different ways and have strong convictions, though as they seek truth above all things, they are usually honest enough to change their opinions, however firmly held, if evidence comes to light which persuades me that I have been mistaken. I have a breadth of vision that brings diverse factors into a whole, and can see both sides of an argument without shilly-shallying as to which side to take. Consequently I am unprejudiced and tolerant of other points of view. This is because I can see the validity of the argument, even if I do not accept it myself. I obey the Quaker exhortation to "Be open to truth, from whatever source it comes," and am prepared to learn from everyone. I’m humane, frank, serious minded, genial, refined, sometimes ethereal, and idealistic, though this last quality is tempered with a sensible practicality. I’m quick, active and persevering without being self-assertive, and express myself with reason, moderation and sometimes, a dry humor. I’m intelligent, concise, clear, logical, imaginative and psychically intuitive. I find that I need to retire from the world at times and to become a temporary loner. I appreciate opportunities for meditation or, if they are religious, of retreats. Even in company I am fiercely independent, refusing to follow the crowd. I dislike interference by others, however helpfully intended, and will accept it only on my own terms. I have an intensely magnetic, forthcoming and open personality and a strong desire to help humanity as a whole, but don’t make friends easily. I sometimes appear to condescend to others and take too little trouble to cultivate the acquaintance of people who do not particularly appeal to me. I do not give myself easily and am sometimes accounted cold. But once I decide that someone is worthy of my friendship or love, I can exert an almost hypnotic and irresistible mental attraction on them and will myself become a tenacious friend or lover, ready to sacrifice everything for my partner and be faithful to them for life. However, I’m sometimes disappointed emotionally because my own high personal ideals cause me to demand more of others than is reasonable. And if I’m deceived my anger is terrible. If disillusioned, I do not forgive. I work best in group projects, provided that I am recognized as having a leading part in them. I have a feeling of unity with nature and a desire for knowledge and truth. Among the faults to which I am liable are fanatical eccentricity, wayward egotism, excessive detachment and an inclination to retreat from life and society, and a tendency to be extremely dogmatic in my opinions. I can be a threat to all I survey or a great boon for humanity in general. Circumstances - for example, continuous opposition to a cause I hold dear - may cause the atrophy of the openness of mind that is one of my most attractive traits. I may express a lack of integrity in broken promises, secretiveness or cunning. Simmering anger and resentment, rudeness or, worse, a tense, threatening silence which may suddenly burst out in eruptions of extreme temper, these are all part of the negative side of myself. This can also reveal itself in a sustained hatred for enemies that is capable of enlarging itself into misanthropy toward the whole of mankind.

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