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| About Me |
All the warnings from Jim Morrison's poetry over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating literature along with reading and listening to music for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.
For example when I'm looking at the blank piece of screen and my inspiration dwindles and the pressure from my thousands of fands, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Jack Keroac, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from his senses which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I could think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I post my writing. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I have affected and entertained and confused a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive and insecure. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child.
On my last 3 poems and stories, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and on the internet and as fans of my writing.. but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone, and needlessly falling in love with people I'll never hold. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, paranoid and untrusting Libra, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Harmony becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death writer that I've become.
I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of 16, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and encouragement during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Jake Boz
Harmony and Chel Qute, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Chel, for Harmony.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
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