I look at books in wonder, thinking " If only I could write like they do" or " what will happen if choosing this passion to live by completely throws me down on my face?" My name is Kinzie. and I am choosing to live on fearless. It is so simple to examine the actions of another, the words of another, and apply them to ourselves. Yet this application often goes nowhere. In the book of Matthew, Jesus tells us that the gate to destruction is wide with many passerthrough, while the gate to salvation and a lifelong love is rare with disciples. I have chosen- I want to enter through the narrow gate. Most people will spend just five minutes with me and label me as a radical- the girl who is just a little on the crazy side when it comes to believing in a God. I have news for them. I dont believe in A God. I believe in THE God. And I will go out of my mind and die to myself, for I know dying to myself and losing my life will enable me to find it. My God- Our God is the definition of eternal love, of perfection, and my heart is madly in love with my father. I have spent a good eleven years of my life writing pieces of poetry and narratives, and longing for a career in writing that will carry me along prosperity and passion. My dream will always remain the same with one exception- if a daycomes when God asks me to abandon my writing, leaving behind everything I ever knew and calling me to something greater, then my pecil is as good as broken and I am as good as gone. I was a writer standing at the platform of a Barnes and Noble, reading from a printed paper on school days- my first masterpiece. Now I examine myself facedown on the floor, writing about a life that has been radically changed. i have a testimony. OHHHHH do i have a testimony. I sometimes I have to stop, step back, and thank God that I'm even alive. I could have killed myself and I lived in fear for nine years. But i am HERE. standing in his presence, as the same innocent gap toothed girl who used to run around the house and settle into her mothers arms. You will see many aspects of my life on here. My spiritual side, my friendsships, self image and inner turmoil, thougts on love, and numerous details of a life that I have learned to adore. But always remember one thing- I write for the one who has gifted me to write. I do it for him.