Happysneaks

  hey, my names Courtney. the photo to your left is a picture of me and my favourite horse pewee, 4 years ago. i was 11 in this photo. pewee was 15. Pewee died later that year. He ran into a fence and had to be put down. i cried all day. I Used this perticular photo as my defult because he is my insperation.
Im the kind of girl you meet and dont quite know what shes about. somedays im the happinest, funniest person you will every meet, other days i hardly say a word and find it hard to smile. i guess the reason for this is that i guess im still trying to figure it (it being my life) all out. I get upset over the smallest things, but i laugh at almost everything. I do hold grudges, against people who have hurt me in the past, people i dont think deserve my forgiveness. When i am tired and not feeling my best, i get a lazy eye, which means my left eye goes to right. Last year i got teased alot for it, even by my so called friends. But this year i learnt that a lazy eye isnt the worst thing in the world. i see adds on TV of kids who are fighting for their lives against cancer and other horrible dieseases. If people are that shallow to tease someone about the smallest matter int he world, they surely arnt worth my time and friendship. for instance, i used to be best friends with this girl, i told her everything, absolutly everything. but after i soon realised that she was never realy thre for me. sure, she sent a few encouraging text message. but in person, she was very distant. Im not close to her anymore, she is still my friend, but i keep my secrets to myself now, and my other friends who i know will always be there for me.
I Live in the Country, But im a girly girl. I like fashion, but i find it hard to stay up to date. I wear glasses more or less 24/7, but im planning on getting laser surgery for my 18 birthday. Im quite around guys, i find it hard to talk to them, expecially the ones i like. (but most girls do!). People say i act false on MSN and MYSPACE, but thats who i really am, i think im false in reality. Im not an EMO, GOTH or SELF HURTER, although it may seem thatby the way im talking about my faults, im actually a very FUN LOVING, ADVENTUREOUS girl who absolutly loves her life. ....
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