Man, now I know I screwed up. Man, I know he said he wanted me out of his life, && hated me, but I didn't think it would go this far. He don't talk to me, && he deleted me. Man, I'm in tears right now. I just noticed. He says I ruined his life? That was a break up. && he's over it && hates my guts. He's just making everyday that I lost him, a living hell. Man, I'm trying to be happy, I really am, but WHY IS IT ALWAYS THAT ONE PERSON HAS TO TAKE IT ALL AWAY?? Man, my life is fucking screwed. I wanna kill myself. So bad. I not only ruined my life, but I guess I ruined his, since he hates me so much. Someone told me today, "If he hates you the way he does right now, he && you weren't meant to be. Y'all both deserve to find the right person. If he truly ever loved you, then he would take you as you are, if not, he never really cared. He just said he did." And man, I understood what that person said. And it got to me. I busted out in tears. I've lost him for life, && it's all because of my mistake. I guess I mean nothing to him, yet, he means almost everything to me, still. Man, but I got one question: Doesn't everything in life happen for a reason? By (Alexis Baeza) I'm sorry for all the things I ever said all I ever wanted was to make you glad again, I'm heart broken the same as you.. your wounds are open mine are to,.. I've listened to everything you've said and it all makes since up inside of my head,.. I understand you cuz I feel the way you do,.. I know whats it's like to have your heart torn in 2,.. to have everything you stand for shattered into bits and pieces,.. and even though u say ur okay I know it's a lie, I've lied 2 I've said things like I'll be fine wen I'm really not,.... saying I'll get over it,.. well thats easier said than done,.. than theres that day when it all fades away maybe for a moment just that moment.... [Brittany Jones]