Alonmendez

  just like everyone else, i have my own joys and my pains. i go through the same things everyone else goes through but i try hard not to wallow in my sadness. 'things without all remedy should be without regard' i have my own perspective of reality and my world is unique just like everyone else's. i have no need to pretend. sometimes i'm a loner but there are times when i need to indulge myself in a company of petty acquaintances. i exist in the extremes; i thrive in two worlds. i am a slave of my own past and at the same time, heir to an uncertain future. i am lost in unspoken promises but i am happy that i have already forgotten some. i am bound by a single fragile thread to a bittersweet past, wallowing in the figments of a girl whom i met, love, and left. i am heavily burdened by the bitter curse of an undying hope, desperately striving to be liked by someone who pulls away from me. it stings sometimes but one gets used to it eventually. i love sleeping but i'm deprived of sweet slumber my notion of God is different from that of conventional Christianity. questions dominate my mind. i ask people sometimes but their replies are always one-sided and obstinately founded upon blind faith, which i find 'lost'. i don't eat KFC anymore; i blatantly refuse to support animal abusers. don't argue; it's just me and my principles. i love animals but i'm not a vegetarian. ok, i used to be when i was little. i am a walking comedy, a concoction of lame jokes, childish mannerisms, and a hint of occasional wit... occasional, ok? so don't expect much i am infantile, clinging to the last few fragments of my fading youth that i will soon lose to my studies and dreams. i have great friends. n_n i have a home back in the Philippines and i'm satisfied with the life i left behind even though i know that i cannot really go back. a friend once told me: "everything will be all right in the end; if not, then it's not the end."

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