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My mind seemed to slow to a stop, and my heart froze, as did my face. My eyes widened in shock and suddenly the moment was broken. "What the hell?!?!" I cried disbelievingly. "I can't have leukemia! That's impossible!" My heart began to beat again, but at a much faster pace. It thumped so hard I thought it would fly out of my body.

“I'm so sorry,” the doctor said gently. “But it's true. You’ll just have to accept-“ "I can't accept anything!" I yelled. “This is so unfair! First Dad, now this!” Stinging tears burned my eyes, but I fought them back. Now was not the time to be weak. Doctor Baldwin said, “I’m sorry about that, but I must tell you the risk you face here. Leukemia can be fatal-” “I know that,” I said bitterly. “I know its gonna screw up my life. Just like when dad…was …he was…” I couldn’t finish my sentence.

I slumped back down on my pillow and blinked my eyes to keep my tears from spilling out. Doctor Baldwin looked at me concernedly. “Maybe I’m not the right person to be telling you this,” he said worriedly. “I think I’ll have your mother come in and talk to you about your situation. I had no idea that this would bring back…unpleasant memories.” He got up with a sigh and went out the door.

I groaned and closed my eyes tightly, but still the tears leaked out. And even though my eyes were closed, I could still see the white shocked face of my mother as she answered that horrible phone call from the police, and then I recalled how blurry everything had seemed after that, how time seemed to pass in slow motion even as we drove frantically, and how dreamlike and unreal the scene of the car accident had been, with all the hypnotic blue and red lights flashing. Until I had seen my father’s body. And after that, I had fainted, and it was like heaven, spiraling away into the darkness, where there was no pain, no terrible feeling.

At this unbearable memory, still more tears ran down from my eyes, and they tingled as they dripped down my cheeks, leaving thin tracks upon my face. Oh, how could I be imagining this now? I didn’t need more dreadful memories, but I could just tell that another dreadful memory was in the making, right now.

My mother burst through the hospital door suddenly, bringing me out of my reverie. “I’m so sorry, honey,” She said, sitting in the chair and looking at me with concerned eyes. “I was going to tell you the news myself, but the doctor wanted to do it.” Her eyes closed and she frowned, then said, “The doctor said you became upset about your…father.” “Yeah, I was,” I said, wiping off my tears. I didn’t need to say any more than that. My mom sighed and opened her eyes. She gave me a sad look. “I know, it was a painful thing for me to go through, too. It still is.”

She stared off into space for a moment, then turned to me and said briskly, “But enough of that, let’s talk about your situation.” “I’d rather not.” I mumbled. “Oh, come on now, it’s really not as bad as it seems-” “Yes it is!” I cried. “The doctor said it was a life-threatening disease! It’s CANCER, for crying out loud!”

“That’s not really the way I wanted to break it to you,” my mom said, looking worried again. “I’ll explain it to you. I think you’d be less nervous about it if you just understood leukemia.” I gave a tiny sigh and closed my eyes once more. In school, I’d read about leukemia in my textbooks, and glanced at the pictures of miserable cancer-infected children, but never once had I imagined that it could happen to me.  

**Guys I’m so sorry it took me forever to write this one, but I still have and probably will always have a whole bunch of homework to do. It looks like I’m only going to be able to write on the weekends. I’m so sorry about that, but it’s difficult for me! Please comment and rate, I want at least 15 votes so I know people appreciate my work! Thanks!**