Promise of Love (Ch.10)

After hours in the hospital, I wept million of the tears into a flood that could never bring to the end. I was rubbing my belly as I still hoped if my baby was alive. I didn’t want her to die. As my heart kept going to pound harder and harder than before, but it hurt so horrific. I still waited for my doctor to reply me if anything was wrong with me. I still hanged on to hope if my sweet darling to be alive. I was holding myself around me with my tears leaving on my face waterless to stare at down on the floor without Jake.

If Jake was with me, I’d be fine and I could, I could tell him that I was pregnant with him. I loved him but he’s gone forever. Every memory on my mind was making me cry once more with fill of our sounds of laughter, smiles, talks, kisses, and everything else we shared. There was nothing I could do but just let him go. I wish there was a shooting star to rewind the past before it happened but it was too late. Never, never again would I see him, nor would I kiss him. I still miss him but it was the past I have to tell the story. It was the worst terrible night I ever had.

Someone entered the room where I was in. I saw her straight, pale hair falling over the forehead when it was cut square above the eyes with layers to pull into a ponytail by my best friend, Stephanie Jonas, Stephie. I was still miserable on the deep inside and outside also. She saw me in a pale white, hospital gown under the clover on the bed and I could realize her wounded, baby blue eyes in the tears. There was nothing I could do but smiled for her to come seeing her. "Lynn, Lynn, I am so glad to see you alive!" As she rushed to hug me without my permission around me. I grunted. She backed off quickly and whispered, "Sorry." I nodded as I forgave her with my heart beating hard. I loved her as much as we stayed together for long time before I met Jake. It was our best bond as best friends for years.

Anyway, I smattered as I tripped my tongue over and over again, "I…I…I-I want to tell you something that I never share one secret with you. Please promise me not to tell anyone. Nobody." As she nodded. "Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone. Nobody else." She promised. My heart kept beating and whispered in muted, "I am pregnant with him." I looked at the ground with the tears falling out once more, as I wrapped around me and turned my eyes away from her. She didn’t say anything in short silence after for few minutes, as I knew that she was surprised or maybe… shocked. I felt her arms around me to hug me and breathed her words against my cold, icy cheeks, "It’s okay, it’s okay. Your secret will be safe with me. I will always be there for you no matter what. I will always help u with your child." She comforted me as well as I relaxed little back on the bed. I took a breather to lay on my bed and then I unhurriedly closed my eyes. The memories. It killed me.

I slept long enough in half day until the doctor was going to tell me something. He smiled afar on his face. It made me wonder why he smiled and then I smiled for the first time. He said in a polite, "Your baby is healthy and alive." I smiled far and wide as my soul was coming back into a happiness once again. I thanked him over and over again but warned him not to say a word to my parents yet until I was ready to talk to my parents.

After my doctor left, I waited for my parents and Stephanie to come in a room again because I knew I had to admit my truth to my parents. I heard the wordless voices outside of the halls. I was getting myself curious. I didn’t know why and what happened out there. Suddenly, someone entered my room without noticing her. Her ponytail in her dark, blackish-brown hair was waging behind her head, I noticed. She was excited to see me as the same time as her drop of fluid from her eyes fell. I could believe she came. My close friend, Amanda Lewis, Mandy. She wrapped around me to comfort me, and I leaned my head against her shoulder to cry on. "Thank you for coming." I showed gratitude.

I observed other friends again in my room. They were my Jake’s friends, Anthony and Joe. Anthony, Tony, walked slowly just before me with the gift with a card, ‘Get Well Soon!’ I was graceful to be thanked them so much. Joe was standing near the door and stared at me with fill of the tears but he looked away to make sure that he didn’t want me to cry also. I whispered, "Joe, come here." I looked at his dark, beautiful brown skin on his face with the tears in his black eyes. I threw my arms in an air to him, and he leaned to hug me. "Everything will be okay, Joe." In my miserable, breaking voice cracked.

I was happy to see my friends again but it wasn’t enough at all. It made my heart to fall in a black hole where it didn’t have sunshine but I was wrong. I was waiting for my baby to grow in my belly to make me smile once again.

I saw a pure, sallow angel sitting on the chair to smile at me and I wondered who was it. I saw…I saw, oh my gosh, it was my dear Jake. He smiled but he walked toward me. He leaned down on my belly and kissed it. He whispered, "I love you and our daughter," as he faded away. I screamed, "No, don’t leave us!"