Reminding you of who

You see it in your phone list , you wish it wouldn't be , not because you hate , because its difficulty.

You see it in the cards ,you see it on the screen , Keno at the Bar and places never been.

It haunts you like no other , because their not to be . You try to hide it Deep in something Uninteresting , to never see again , because their not for me.

I know it wasn't right , but now I see no wrong , My eyes are Blind to see ,what disappointed me. The un- relentless bond that tore me to my Knee, He strayed me from the right & showed me horribly what I could never have Because I wasn't worthy . Not because I lacked anything she could ever need , because the love they shared wouldn't Die with me.

 She never went Astray but couldn't leave him be .So now I am Alone because it ate at me, until I couldn't ask the simple truth to set her free. I left her all Alone and now look at me. All because I couldn't say what I was feeling. Because of other things . Because of all the lies that hide beneath of he .The one who broke our hearts without even caring, Proud of what he caused just to see her be, Alone & missing …And now here I breathe these words of difficulty. Jealousy , For not whos gone ,but only for he, the one who strayed the hearts of two or maybe three.

I hope this goes away to places never seen , because it hurts me now , one day I'll see clearly that all this happens to many just like me.

I know its not the end , but just the beginning , of something much more than I can never see coming .That's just fine , its called Destiny,The one thing that we all have , that keeps life Intresting.

What ever gets you down can be whats best for He/She , Not to give False hope but to strengthen hearts for all to see.

Damn , I'm not a poet, but this is clear to see , It happens more & more to people just like me.

 Just when I thought its over , it came right back to me, The first few months away were delt with easily because I was so un clear of what had happened to me . Just another day till She cried out to me of what she led astray that would soon hurt me. The pain to have lost again ,was seen so clearly .When nothing was a lie but the truth to hard to see. I had to be mislead to see her greavery It wasn't to be said until she could not beat , around that stupid bush .She now tells me of who shes missing and all the time I thought she just needed money. Not what I expected but that s how it goes .I guess the pain in my heart cant sink until it swells ,
To heal once again to ride the Bull we call Love.

THIS WAS A STORY FROM A PAST REALATIONSHIP I HAD THAT HASNT GONE AWAY YET . ITS PROBABLY CONFUSING TO ALL WHO READ IT BUT BASICALLY I LEFT A GREAT GIRL BECAUSE SHE COULDNT GET OVER HER PAST AND HER EX 'S COMMENTS SOON GOT TO ME. NOT LONG AFTER I BECAME A CRITIC WHEN IT CAME TO OUR TRUST IN OUR RELATIONSHIP.IT WAS MORE THAN I COULD BARE TO KNOW THAT SHE STILL SPOKE TO HIM AFTER I TOLD HER HOW I FELT AND HOW I COULDNT UNDERSTAND WHY AFTER ALL HE DID TO HER ,SHE STILL TALKS TO HIM THIS VERY DAY.