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What he Has Done For Me pt2
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 Created on 4-23-07
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Ok, my whole life I kind of always knew God existed, dispite my mom's advances that He wasn't. I had went to a few different churches with different friends. It was not until Jan, of 2000 that I was baptized. As I told you in the first part, I attended a church with a friend that later betrayed me. It was at this chuch I first felt the true presence of God. I was singing a song in Youth Sunday School. The song goes, "Oh the wonder of it all, that Love should die for me, Oh the wonder of it all, through His death comes life for me, Into the darkness, a precious light has come, to a broken and weary world, GOD gave His only Son." Through all the teaches on the death and resurrection of Christ that I had sat through, it never hit me... the reality of what Christ had done for me did not truly hit me until I sang this song. When the reality hit me, a warm sensation filled my body and tears ran down my face, and i just knew Jesus was real. That was when I desided to get baptized and be born again in Christ. As Christians we all fall short ofthe glory of God and I fell big time. I was in and out of my realtionship with God. i guess i still had alot of doubt in my heart because of the life I lead before Christ. I still sometimes have my doubts, as we all do. There is a song that says it perfect... it goes, "please be patient with my doubt, I'm just trying to figure out Your will." I would go through these times where I would fall away from the Lord and then, in my darkest hour, I would crawl back to God and pour my heart out to Him. Like this one time, when my husband was overseas and I had defiled our marriage and was not sure about my furture. I was just so lost and I had done so much wrong. i just did not want to live anymore, and I pulled a knife out of my kitchen drawer and wanted to end it all. I cut my wrist, but lacked the courage to dig it in there and cause my own death. Disappointed and uncertain I went and took a bath and watched to blood seep into the water, and like veins it spread out and turned the water pink. i was crying hard. my chest was hurting and I prayed to God. Just poured everything out. My slate was wiped clean, and like the sinful human i am, i let the world suck me back in. I can't really pin point when I completely gave myself over to the Lord. Mainly because I fall away, and I believe if you compeletly give yourself over, you won't fall away. I know I haven't fail away for quite awhile. I think the think that broke me was when my husband lost his job and we were homeless. I was about 7 months pregnant. My whole future was rocky and uncertain. i worried and cried more that i ever had in my life. i wondered how I was going to take care ofr my baby if I could not take care of me. One day I was sick of hurting and worrying and I gave all my worries over to the Lord. I know He can take care of things much better than I can. Now, when i worry I go straight to Him... most of the time! Since then, I have really clung to god and I really have given myself over to Him and am dedicated to living for His purpose. i still mess up. I am still human. We all fall short, but the glory of God is that He loves us and forgives us anyway...
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great story God Bless |
