Lost in my agony

Lost in my agony

I go back there sometimes. I picked out that spot just for her. Her spirit will now roam forever free. In that area to where she fell to her knees. And as she took her first flight it was that monster who took the night. He shot her. That sound rings forever in my ear. I look from afar and watch the moon rise above the mountain. I howl aloud. And sing that forever implanted song. Hers. The one she sang to me that night she moved along. No words passed her lips. It was her soul that gave me the words. She loved me in all it’s worth. I sing her soul asleep almost every night. I see her running through the night. Bewitched by the moonlight she became intoxicated with the night. She is beautiful still. Gone, she’s really gone I have to tell myself. Because it’s as if she never left. As if I didn’t hold her during her last breath. Whispering in my words that there’s something that she left. I can’t understand. What she’s telling me. She’s calling me through my dreams. I tried so hard that night. No use. Already gone. Lost in the light of the moon goddess’ song. Timber. I gave her that name. Only she took it to the grave. Timber her true self released. She guards my heart and those woods for which she sleeps. I never got the chance to even share our last dance. The moon goddess how lovely is she. She took away her very daughter from me. Numb. Is all I’ll ever fee. Sick to my stomach. I may never heal. I just can’t get over the way I feel. I got lost in her eyes. The first time she ever saw me fly. She gave me my true wings. She got me to this high. Intoxicated I became with her. In every way. I held her every time she cried. Now it’s me. My time to say goodbye. As hard as it is I can never leave. I just might end this agony. But I can’t. They need me. My pack. My only family. STOP! Who is there. For this is scared ground for which you walk. Be careful for this may be the very last time you talk. Damn. Just a lost pup. Who are you. I didn’t mean to shake you up. It’s just that I’m living alone lost as you can see inside all of my agony. Who are you and why are you here. WAIT! Those eyes. Their hers. Those eyes in which I could just disappear. But who. But how. OH! DAMN! HOLY SHIT! I remember now. She never said a thing. Maybe she just felt a bit ashamed. Come now my daughter. Let me introduce myself, dear Luna. For it is me. I’m your father.