its what i get for being me (2)

 warning maybe alot of spelling mistakes...sorry ill fix them later

i looked up form my book and looked at jacob,my boyfriend for going on 3 months now.hewas sitting across form me watching me read.it was 5 o clock on a friday and the food court at the mall was semi busy

"you are always reading"he said and it was ture whenever i was waiting for him i was reading

"is that good or bad"i asked in my tease voice

"good"

"you are late again"in a i cant belive you type of tone

"yeah sorry do you forgive me?"he asked putting on his baby face

"yes.i love your baby face"i said staring at his face

"i love your face"he said smiling

"why"i asked and right after i did i regert it

"here we go again"he said rolling his eyes

"no really why do you love it it ugly"

"no you're not you are beautiful"he said looking me right in the eyes trying to show he wasnt lieing but i still didnt belive him

"but too thin"i said in my smart ass tone

"yes you are way too thin"he said in his stern voice

"am not im too fat"i said try to make him see

"god damn it zoe"he semi yelled

"what?"

"when will you see you arent fat?"he sounded so hurt.i wanted so bad to make his pain go away.but i couldnt cause i was fat weater he tought so or not.

"i dont know"i said softly

"hey"ray said walking up to the table we were sitting at.oh and so you know ray is in a band with jacob i guess i should have told you jacob was in a band before.

"hi ray" i said

jacob just nodded

"i didnt know you 2 were gonna be at the mall"

"yeah sorry dude kinda last mintue"jacob said

"well anyways good thing you're here i got good news"

"what?" jacob said sitting up alittle

"we got a gig"

"where" i asked why jacob sat there smiling and gripping my hand

"jessica marks party"ray said looking at jacob

i looked over at jacob and he let go of my hand and said

"WHAT!" i didnt know what was wrong

"i wont do it" jacob said

"why not?" i asked

the both didnt hear me i guess cause neither one of them answered me

"come on man it pay plus its our first gig in along time with all our new songs the ones zoey wrote"ray said smiling at me it was ture i wrote songs for them

"NO!"jacob said

"why not?" i asked again

"she's an ex girlfriend" ray said and jacob gave him a push

"so" i said

"she still likes him"

"so" i said again

"and well they were all in love and jacob broke up with her cause she cheated on him"

"bitch"i said

"see she has no problem with it why do you"

"cause if she still likes me she might start something with zoe"jacob said looking up at me

"let her try" i said all pissed at him for not thinking i could take her but at the same time wondering if she could

"see zoey could take her so come on man please"ray said in a annoy beggeing tone

and i looked at him too with my baby face and he caved

"fine but at the first sign of trouble we are leaving ok zoe"

i nodded then me and ray hugged him

"get off" he said

so we both got off then he grabbed me but the wist and pulled me on his lap
"i meant him not you"

i laughed and ray said "fine i see how it is" in a joking tone

we all cracked up laughing

"well its tomorrow night you already know where she lives be there at 4"ray said

"ok zoe will be with me" jacob said

"of course" ray said smiling at me "well ill let you 2 be remember use protection"

"SHUT UP" i said

"oh and jacob get the flavored kind"ray said walking away

me and jacob just laughed

"is she pretty" i asked once ray was out of site

"who"he said looking up at me

"her..um whats her name"

"jessica?"

"yeah her"

"kinda i guess not even close to how beautiful you are"he said kissing my neck

"ok" i said them we started making out right there in the food court not caring who saw.

after awhile of making out and talking my cell goes off

"hello" i say answering it

"hey mom and me will be there to pick you up in a few being waiting outside"april said

"yeah ok"

"bye"

i dont brother to say bye back and hang up

"who was that?"

"sister"

"witch one"

"april" i say trying not to show my hate for her

"what did she want?" he asked knowing how much i hate her

"to let me know her and maryann are going to be here to pick me up in a few and i need to be waiting outside"

"oh ok"

"well talk to you tomorrow"i say getting up and grabbing my bag

"wait ill wait with you"he said getting up too

"you dont have to"i say

"yes i do"he said walking with me to the front door of the food court

"ok"i say and smile

"are you scared about playing tomorrow"i ask when we get to the parking lot

"not really"

"thats good you really dont need to worry you guys are so good"i said rubbing my arms trying to keep warm it was so cold my hoodie didnt make me warm

"you think"he said looking over at me from the bench he was sitting on

"yeah" i answered as i shivered

"you cold?" he asked getting up and walking over to me

"yes" i say still shaking

he pulls me in to his arms "does this warm you up any?" pulling my tight against his chest

"yes' i say more warmer then before

"do you really love me" i ask looking up at him

"yes i love you more then anything" he says and kisses the top of my head

i smile a big smile "i love you too i would die without"

"well you will never be without me"he says and i look up at him again and we kiss

after a few mintues of just standing there in each other arms i hear a horn and know its my step mom.

"see you tomorrow" i say and start to walk to the car

"yeah ill pick you up at 2"he say smiling at me

"ok night"

"night" he says and walks back into the mall

i smile to myslef and get in the car