its what i get for being me (1)

i am zoey,zoey carson aka good for nothing worthless ugly dumb freshman at millfield high.

14 years old 5' 5" short black hair green eyes and pale white skin...not to pretty if you ask me.as of today my weight is 109.everyone keeps saying im so thin too thin. i have to disargee im not thin enough...not yet.

i live with my dad and step mom maryann and her 2 perfect kids max 16and april 14 plus my half sister jade 11.funny just 3 months after my mom real mom that is died my dad was remarried and about to have his second child well he like to say he has 4 kids i guess he see maryann's kids as his i would to if i had a daughter like me.

let me tell you alittle about my"family".

my dad is a lawery and my step mom is a home maker.max is a smart football player gets all As.april is an all As too but she is also one of the prettiest girls at school.never gets in trouble show off.jade well jade is smart all As too pretty funny girl that causes trouble and blames it on me or gets away with it.and me im nothing like any of them.i may be like my mom but i dont know i was so little when she died only 2 almost 3 sometimes i think my dad wishes i died in the crash not my mom to tell you the truth i wish that too and i almost did die but sadly i lived.

i really dont or should i say didnt have many friends.i had people that say hi to me but no one i really talk to intil about 3 month ago.i kinda liked it that way but sometimes i just wished i had someone to talk to.but now i have someone.someone who likes me and i can trust.his name is jacob.and he is my best friend/boyfriend.

i cant remember ever being kinda happy but now i am.he makes me happy.he says he loves me and wants me to stop "hurting myself".not that he has any room to talk.but he says he just wants me to eat he told me cause he cuts he cant make me stop cutting even though he want me too.and for him i really want to stop but to tell you the truth i cant stop.im not sure ill ever be able to stop.