Rain isn't always clear 31

Weeks went by; Ronda sat in the baby’s room looking out the window:

Since what April said to me Ive had been stressing my self about the baby and if I should really be having more then one. I can’t even stand to be in the same room as April any more!

Over time ive been fighting with my self to ask Matt or go up to Aprils face and ask if there was something wrong with me. But knowing Matt he probably thinks I pushed it out of my mind. " Im tired of this" I whispered moving my fingers over the light blue curtains.

" I need to ask Matt?" I whispered, moving my fingers to the sides of my face; rubbing my temples once my right eye started to act up. Turning once the sound of hinges rubbing together; telling me that someone was entering.

" Ok, Mom and Dad just lift and Page went with them; since she knows we need some time to are self" Matt sighed a smile on his face.

Faking a smile back I couldn’t help but to turn back to the window. Rain/ snow mixer was falling on to the grass.

" What mouth is it?" I asked glancing back at Matt who was now setting in my rocking chair.

"November I think" he sighed his breath ridged.

" So the due date is either late December or early January" not believing how close it was.

" Yea" he answered. Turning to look at him before glancing around the room.

" Do you think where ready?" I asked walking over to him slowly.

" Well if we’re not its to late to back down know" he pointed out not under standing where I was going. " Ronda, are you sure your ok" he asked holding his hand out to me.

" Yea, im just worried" faking another smile.

" I know what you mean" he cracked his voice low.

Sighing; my hands slid across the wooden bars of Conner’s crib.

" Come one Ronda, lets go for a dive or something." Matt asked making me smile alittle.

" Ok… it would be good to get out of the house; just let me go change" kissing his cheek.

Walking in to the bedroom only to grab some day clothing. Hurrying to the bathroom I changed in to whatever I could find that would be ok.

****

"My shoes?" I whispered not remembering where I placed them. Looking every where in the bedroom but with no sign of them.

" Matt!" I cried binding down the best I could to look under the bed.

" There in the kitchen by the door mat" he called walking in to the room.

" Oh good!" Smiling at him.

" Help me" I whispered noticing I couldn’t get off my knees like I used to.

" Baby you kneed to take it slow" Matt laughed pulling me up.

" I have been" brushing off my knee’s the best I could since I couldn’t see them.

" That also means not getting on all fours" he sighed helping me out.

Nodding not really knowing what to say. We headed out of the bedroom.

" Do you think I need a coat?" heading over to the closet.

" Yes dear, its cold out side" he pointed out grabbing his coat which was toss on the couch.

Trying my best to pull my coat around me; I found it was best to toss it on with one fast movement.

" So where are we going?" the question has been bugging me since the shoe hunt.

" Well… Theirs a family meeting" he sighed his body and face turned to me.

My face went white at the idea of being around the pack. " You’re joking right?" Glaring at him alittle.

" No" he sighed.

" Don’t tell me I have to go?" eyeing him.

" No, but ill tell you now even thought you fell fat right now; when your in wolf form you wont fell that way… and since its only one child it wont feel that bad. And I don’t want to go alone" he sighed giving me his puppy dog eyes.

" Fine but ill bitch!" smirking at the idea of being such; since I wasn’t one to do that before… I can’t say I wont now.

" As long as you’re there" he cracked kissing my forehead.

Watching him grab my car keys; I followed him out.

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Two hours later:

" Are we there yet?" I asked feeling the need to go to the bathroom.

" All most… they have been planning it for weeks know" he cracked pulling down a gravel road.

" Why?" knowing that they normally pop up with out being planned.

" I don’t know really" he answered his voice hiding something… maybe happiness.

Nodding I looked out at the landscape.

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We pulled up to what looked like a campsite on that had really large cabins standing in the background. Only one of the cabins had their lights on along with music sounding from within.

" This is odd" I whispered turning to look at Matt.

" Well it’s a indoor thing" he cracked opening the car door before hurrying to my side. Pushing my self out of the car; following Matt closely not under standing what kind of meeting this was?

*****

We headed up to the front door:

Watching Matt push the door open only to see the whole pack setting everywhere they could; there faces changing to large smiles once I entered.

" What’s going on?" not under standing anything.

" Baby shower" April cried popping out of the crowed.

" What?" Shocked alittle, my eyes moved fast to all the faces in the room.

" We have to welcome the new member" Page laughed; looking to her noticing Kayla was in her lap, eating a party hat. Smile I couldn’t help but fell the urge to pee.

" Bathroom?" I asked out of no where only to hear laugher vibrate all around the room.

" Down the hall dear" April answered pointing to the area.

" Matt I told you to take it easy on those bumps" Rob laughed behind me.

Hurrying down the hall only to find it. Pushing the door open…

******

Five minutes later:

Heading back through the hall only to hear everyone still chatting up a storm.

" Sorry about that," walking though the large living room.

" Don’t worry about it dear" A woman laughed a large smile on her face. " Im Willow by the way." Nodding at her before setting next to Page.

" You could have told me" I whispered to Page.

" But then it wouldn’t be a surprise now would it?" she cracked hugging me.

" Im not big for surprises though" I answered under my breath watching everyone moving there chairs closer to the middle of the room. Thank good im not afraid of smile spaces.

" Cake" April asked everyone walking around the room handing out plates and forks.

" Know Chris you have to have some cake" April laughed calling me by my so-called pack name.

Faking a smile I took the peace she handed to me. Digging in slowly I couldn’t help but to look at everyone’s faces. Studying how different everyone was.

" Don’t stare" Matt whispered in my ear making me jump.

" Don’t do that?" Growling at him for scaring the shit out of me.

" I was only telling you not to stare" he whispered a smile moving across his face.

" Well don’t come out of no where" I mumbled stuffing the rest of the cake in my mouth.

******

At lest and hour passed:

" Gifts" April screeched hurrying over to where I was setting.

" Open mine first dear" she laughed handing me a really large box; she sat it down beside me. Sighing I opened in only to find a dipper Jeanie.

" That’s what we forget" I pointed out looking to Matt.

" It’s just a trash can" he laughed looking to his mother.

" Its not just a trash can son!" she growled moving her present over.

" Looks like it to me" he growled under his breath.

" Mine next" Page pointed out passing a bag over to me.

Opening it only to fine a nice worm blanket along with some under garments and little socks.

****

Time passed after 20 presents:

My fingers where starting to hurt. Its not because of how many there was its how they made sure there was now crease not taped. It was like a mined field one made of tape and there wasn’t anywhere to run. Sighing I ripped it open to find more baby clothing some a light blue others black and red.

Well I don’t have to worry about shopping much I thought. My eyes moved to the others where there was also at lest 15 packages of dippers. God that dipper Jeanie is going to have fun. But that wasn’t all they gave me some had letters which had at lest 3000 each telling me that its for the little ones collage and all. That’s when it hit me I needed to go to collage.

After all this that’s one thing I had planned since I first saw one. Which was on TV; but still I always wanted to go. Sighing I wanted to cry… but I couldn’t not in front of the pack and not at my baby shower. Sucking it up I unwrapped another present this one had a stuffed cat one that I knew came from hot topic… its bones where showing along with its heart. Smiling I sat that closer to me then the other gifts.

" But this is for you!" Willow whispered handing me a yellow envelope; looking at her oddly. Nodding I opened it for only I could see in to it. There was at lest about five checks each with the numbers 25,000 on them.

" No I cant" closing it fast trying to hand it back.

" It’s for your collage" she whispered hugging me.

" How…" only to be cut off by some one handing me another gift.

" I know things" she laughed hugging me once more. " Just don’t be stupid and not go" her words made me smile.

Nodding, I turned to look at Matt who was trying to put everything together. Laughing I opened the gift that enter upped Willow and I.

" A dipper bag" I said looking at the other four in the room.

" Its desired" The woman laughed smiling at me.

Nodding I didn’t want to say anything other then why do they think I need so many bags.

" Well did everyone give there gifts" Aprils voice sounded.

No one answered in protest so they all went back to there sets before eating more cake. Sighing, moving my head to rest on the back of the chair.

" Don’t worry it will be over soon" Matt whispered when he was walking past me to get the stuff I just opened.

Sighing once more I couldn’t help but hold the yellow envelop close to me knowing it was the only way I could pay for collage with out Matt finding out. But how will I be able to go with a child I thought letting my mind wonder. The Internet! The Idea popped in my head in lights. That’s the only way to do both things at once along with hiding it from Matt.

Opening my eyes to look at Willow her eyes where starring back. Smiling at her I couldn’t help but feel like I had a friend one that wouldn’t betray me.

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Ronda fell asleep ten minutes later:

" I think its best to call it a night" Rob’s voice sounded waking me up. Setting my head up fast only to notice the place was clean and all the gifts wasn’t in the room.

" Come on Ronda lets go home" Matt laughed helping me out of the chair. Slipping my coat back on the same way I did when we lift the house.

" How did you get everything in the car?" Looking at him puzzled.

" With the help of Page’s car" he laughed opening my door for me.

Pulling my legs to me I studied my fingers only to find them alittle sore from pulling paper apart.

" Next time tell me to get my fingers used to that" I whispered looking to Matt who was laughing to him self. I couldn’t help but smile to my self-knowing that everything was going to be ok; even if it didn’t go the way I planned.