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my story

my story

NonFiction Created on 3-30-07 Views(881) Story Rating G

Its hard for me to explain how I feel. Im a very blank person. Well you see, oce you get to know me its all god but at first I may come off as someone who you cant open up to,but its definetly not true.

Well this is exactly why I think people should come and talk to me when they are having problems.

In the third grade I was a normal girl, didnt cause any problems, didnt give anybody any trouble. So I thought it was all good, but i was wrong. Things changed. People started looking down on me and my friends wouldn't stand up for me when some radnom person walked up to me and punched me in the face. Litteraly. Everyday i would be slapped, punched, kicked, scratched, spit on, and anything else they could think of. Needless to say I wasn't a happy child.

In the forth grade it became to the point where people would make fun of me because I was different. I was called freak and retard. Well now they wherent really harsh names but they still hurt. The beating became worse and i would bleed every where from my head to my feet. Bruises formed over my knees and shins. I still didnt understand, "why me?" "what did i do?"

In the fifth grade, all my friends couldnt stand to be around me. I was called freak reject retard stupid ugly fat worthless. I was even told "nobody wants you here, why dont you go ahead and leave". And oh boy did I believe them

In the sixth grade, thats where it ALL began. I met some "new" friends. Gothic friends. Suprisingly they excepted me with open arms. Kind of a shock. Well I turned bad, distanced myself alot. Things changed. I started acting darker and badder. I was a bad girl. When people would punch me, hell id punch them harder. I was a pain. I didnt take there crap anymore,but they wouldnt take no for an answer. It was daily riots everyday. I got harrasing notes in my locker. And guys started hitting on me for money. I was so bad that I couldnt take it. I called me ex bestfriend and said Im sorry. I went to my medicine cabnet and said "God Im Coming home". I took any random pill that i could without making it obvious to my mother. I was to die a slow death by overdose. When I thought it was working it made me sick, but didnt kill me. I gave up.

In 7th grade I started getting in trouble, skipping school, getting in fights, dropping by school and mouthing off my teachers. Then the whole school including the closest ones to me wouldnt even speak to me. I hated it. It was like being a ghost that noone could here or feel. My head was smashed into lockers. I was tripped. My mother couldnt take it any more. She put me in a "different" school. It was full of kickouts and drop outs. You know, the kids who had no where else to go. But they excepted me, I had a new start and I will never forget this one life lesson. But Ive gone up to 8th and im still doin good.

*EVERY THING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND EVEN TJOUGH IT MAY SUCK, IT WILL ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER. (OR KILL YOU)*

 

please if you ever have suicidal thoughts, come to me 

 

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On June 26th 2008 xX1ncINalifeXx Said :
xX1ncINalifeXx i liked your story and i relate to it alot, im gladed it all worked out.
On June 11th 2008 taybay214 Said :
taybay214 In 8th grade word got out about me having depression and it went a bit like yours... High school was like a new start... its great
On June 8th 2008 LovisaJoy Said :
LovisaJoy wow! my story has never gone to that extent but i'm the kid no one even thinks to acnolge unless their picking on me. i laugh at them and it seems to work though.
On February 25th 2008 blucamogal Said :
blucamogal that was a good story that almost made me cry.
On February 3rd 2008 wiccan210queen Said :
wiccan210queen how come ur mom didnt care if you came home "bloody"? but ya im kinda the ione no 1 likes too
On February 2nd 2008 brc93 Said :
brc93 Loved the story by the way
On February 2nd 2008 brc93 Said :
brc93 Hey, I have suicidal thought everyday. It sucks and I hate it. I need someone to go to.
On December 31st 2007 WiCCanCreaTure Said :
WiCCanCreaTure damn that sux major balls. -_- why did they hate u tho?
On December 19th 2007 tat0705 Said :
tat0705 except = preposition: with the exsclusion of accept = verb: to receive willingly youre thirteen newsflash middle school sucks for everyone but the popular people in middle school either end up being lame in high school or pregnant drop outs there's a difference between being suicidal and deprived of positive attention you'll grow out of it
On October 6th 2007 brittanyeagle Said :
brittanyeagle i love this.. it makes me want to cry.. im inthe 8th too.. and i never knew people could be that mean.. like i have been called every name in tha dictionary, from nerd all the way to whore. but thats as far as its ever went..im srry you had to go thru that, and i strongly believe that everything in life just makes me stronger.
On October 5th 2007 xlollipopgurlx Said :
xlollipopgurlx those idiots who harass ppl should go to hell
On July 16th 2007 princejoey Said :
princejoey very very good are u single lol
On June 24th 2007 Aegle Said :
Aegle dude thats just mean how people treated you like shit. I went through kinda the same thing, I was a bit fat, long ratty hair and buck teeth with a huge gap. Kinda a nerd. Than turned gothic. I than got skinny as hell and kicked a few ass' and than I became nicer because i picked up skateboarding and took my anger out on my board. Who knows where my story will go now, i'm going into 9th
On June 20th 2007 hickey8ashlee Said :
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well that story is kind of like mine
On June 20th 2007 Alexaluvshim Said :
Alexaluvshim i like your story
On June 16th 2007 BillysGirl2005 Said :
BillysGirl2005 I liked your story alot.. I can relate. I also tried to kill myself with pills. It didn't work because my family got me to the hospital, and I'm so glad now that it did. I also have a personal story I wrote on here, if you want to check it out it's called Jamie's Story. And I'm so happy that everything worked out good for you. If you ever want to talk, I'm here. ~Jamie
On May 22nd 2007 emorocker2198 Said :
emorocker2198 dude why were u made fun of that makes no scence wat so ever.its good but theres no way u can help me
On May 18th 2007 jbutler42591 Said :
jbutler42591 yo i go to a skol thats full of kickouts son well then again i was kicked out but still i have mad awesum friends there n everyone luvs me i had trouble in regular skols to with the kids hittin me n makikn fun of me n then u just get so frustrated u beat the shit outta of em yeah happened to me but sum kids just cant deal with a regular skol n me n u r apparently 2 of those kids i luv my skol
On April 30th 2007 pink23fairie Said :
pink23fairie AWESOME JOB =)
On April 6th 2007 T1angel4u Said :
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Hey reading this it reminded me of how my daughter has prob felt in the last few weeks....good story and good way of putting it into words...
On April 6th 2007 blondemoment22 Said :
blondemoment22 that's powerful, nice job
On April 5th 2007 apostledanII Said :
apostledanII hey i like the last line"everythin happens...." cos thats what i always say to people lol
On March 31st 2007 starblaze88 Said :
starblaze88 its pretty good except it needs to be written better. but i'll give you a heads up because its a good story. dana
On March 30th 2007 pinkpanther93 Said :
pinkpanther93 well this is my first