The Other Side Part Four

I didn't know what to say.

Was Matthew shocked?

Was he disgusted?

I just said,

"I uh just um,"

"That bitch! She wants to steal you from me." said Lana trying to swing at me.

Matthew rolled his eyes at Lana.

I walked off.

I can't believe he didn't say anything for 3 whole minutes.

I started to cry.

All of this for nothing.

I can't believe I wanted to please that jerk.

Jerk.

No he's not a jerk, he's just shocked.

I want to go.

I don't want to stay.

I just want to go to some lake.

Lake.

Yeah that's what I'll do.

After school, I'll go there.

When we hit study hour, I realized I had no homework.

Or anything to study.

So I took out my laptop, and logged into my myspace.

I didn't really want to go on.

I saw that I had another message from Lana.

And she was online just like me.

Why couldn't she come up to me?

And talk to me like the woman she said she was?

For once,

I deleted it.

She sent me 5 more.

I responded to one saying,

I'm going to kick your ass a lunch in a few hours. And if you try to mess with me again, I'll kill you.

Yeah right, I wish I knew how to fight.

And I wouldn't dream of killing anybody.

I went to lunch.

I wanted to stay away from her.

I wanted to make sure that she didn't touch me.

Wait,

Lana couldn't hurt me.

She was a like,

a pacifist.

I'm just joking.

BOOM!

All I heard was a big noise.

BOOM!

BOOM!

BOOM!

I feel to my knees.

I couldn't feel,

or see,

or know,

anything.

It was like I was gone.

Then I saw white.

Nothing but white.

White...

I got up,

and I saw a lot of people that had died earlier.

My grandmother, my cousin, my sister.

I never told but, I had a twin sister.

That died when I was 3.

I never liked to talk about it.

Because I hardly knew her.

We were riding our bikes one day,

and then a man just drove up and shot her 4 times.

Am I dead?

Am I in heaven?

I am.

No, I don't want to die yet.

I saw her walking towards me.

"No." I said.

The words didn't come out.

It was like I wasn't speaking.

Then after some time,

I just disappeared.

When I woke up, I was in a my bed.

What's going on?

"Did I get shot?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!" I screamed and asked at the same time.

"No honey, you just got shocked from the gun shots." said my mom.

Then, why was I in heaven?

I asked my mom if I could go to the lake that I wanted to go to earlier.

She was confused about why I wanted to go but she said yes.

When I got there I felt like I didn't have to worry about anything.

I decided to get totally naked.

I saw no one there.

So I guessed it was OK.

When I did, I jumped into the water.

"Ahhh." I said refreshed.

When I dried my eyes of the water,

I got out.

I looked over at the tree that I had name Betty when I was 5.

I saw Matthew staring at me.

"Eeee!" I yelped.

I was totally in shock.

My first time being seen naked,

by the boy I had a crush on.

He walked over to me.

I quickly grabbed my clothes so he wouldn't see what was exposed of me.

Everything was exposed of me.

Everything.

He pushed the clothes down so he could see me.

"Perfect." he said.

I started to relax.

He didn't make me feel uncomfortable of my body.

I started to giggle a little while asking,

"What's perfect?"

"You,"

"And I supposed you broke up with Lana."

"Yup. She was the one who was shooting at lunch today."

Lana.

Shooting.

School.

Lunch.

Boom.

I remember,

in 7th grade Matthew and I had crushes on each other.

Then we were separated at the end of 8th grade.

I didn't want to remind him.

I just wanted to cherish the moment.

Then he wrapped his arms around me.

Then he started to kiss me.

Down my neck, then before I knew it...

He was just inches away from my womanly feature.

Authors Note: OK I know womanly feature sound weird, but I wanted to keep this as clean as possible.

"No, this is wrong. I'm only in the 11th grade." I said.

"No, it's not wrong." said Matthew.

"Well I'm not having sex with you Matthew!" I said.

"You little whore, Lana told me you were going to do this." said Matthew.

He slapped me in the face.

And then he just walked away.

Tears started to roll down my face.

"I can't believe this." I said crying.

Trying to catch my breath.

I quickly got dressed and ran home.

When I burst into my house,

my mom asked what was wrong.

"Nothing. I don't want to talk." I said.

I ran onto my bed and didn't know why I was still here.

I should be somewhere on a cliff.

About to jump.

Or somewhere with a knife.

Getting ready to kill myself.

But no,

I'm just sitting here crying about some boy that tried to---

I couldn't fall asleep.

Everyone in my house was at the shores of sleep.

But I was oceans away from it.

I cried myself to sleep.

Never again...

I'm not going back.

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