Daddy Please 11

Mystery person was still holding my hair, and I still didn’t bother to turn around and see who it was. I didn’t care. Nothing mattered to me anymore. Nothing except my sister and mom. And pretty soon, I’m sure, only my sister. Why must my life be so dysfunctional. I know there were people less fortunate and even people starving out there, but they weren’t of my concern.

Tears started flowing in streams down my pale cheeks. I rested my head on my shaking arm, and I turned my face toward the blue curtain of the shower. My hair was now being stroked, and I could feel them kneeling down to the right of me, away from where my face was turned.

“Ayzolenn, what’s wrong?” Nell.

I was still angry, but couldn’t bring myself to yell or rant at him. I wearily faced him and saw the concern and worry on his beautiful face.

I closed my eyes and sighed. “Everything” I whispered.

He was still brushing my hair back, and soon I could fell the stroke of his thumb across my cheek.

“Talk to me. You can trust me.” I snorted, and when I opened my eyes and faced him, I could tell I had hurt him.

“You didn’t tell me you had a girlfriend.” I spat back, and he dropped his hands, sighing heavily.

“I TOLD you she’s not my girlfriend. I broke up with her right before I came here and she apparently doesn’t get the point. I don’t like her anymore. I would never lie to you.” Sincerity and pleading radiated from his soothing voice, and I found myself getting reeled into his eyes, and the sound of his voice. We stared at each other quietly until I broke the silence.

“My dad’s a serial killer. I saw him kill a little girl, and stopped him from doing the same to an old man. I’m failing algebra, my mom is in the hospital. I’m alone, all except my sister. I finally thought with you back I might have someone , even for a while, and not be so lonely. Then you supposedly lied to me and I couldn’t take it.” My shoulders started shaking, and despite the shock of my confession, he hugged me tightly to his chest. I sobbed into his black t-shirt until I’m sure I was dehydrated.

Without warning I hopped up off the white tiled floor and took to steps to the marble sink. This taste in my mouth was NOT helping matters. I brushed my teeth vigorously for about 5 minutes while Nell flushed the toilet, and sat on the edge of the tub facing me. I could tell he was thinking about everything I had told him moments ago. I rinsed my mouth with Listerine one last time, and then leaned my hip against the sink, turning towards Nell.

He had his hands clasped in front of him, and his elbows rested on his clue jean clad legs. You could see his eyebrow ring protruding out of his white-blonde bangs, and he looked trouble.

“Nell, listen. You can’t tell anybody ok? I have a plan, so there won’t be any need to worry about it.” I said, breaking the silence.

He stared up at me incredulously and I cringed at the skeptical gleam emancipating from his orange eyes. That skepticism, though, soon turned to frustration.

“Ayzolenn! What in the HELL do you think you can do about a damn serial killer?!?! I don’t give a fuck if he is your father!” After having his little burst out he was standing, pointing a long finger at me, and his face was a perfect form of rage.

“You don‘t know what the fuck he could do to you! You can‘t put yourself in harms way like this. I won‘t let you if I can help it, either.!” Nell stopped lecturing, and half yelling, to push his hands through his hair, turning towards the shower.

I was now standing speechless under the light of the bathroom, gripping the sink harshly.

“No.” He said in a weak voice. “I won’t let you get hurt.”

I snapped back to attention and realized he was worried about my safety.

“Nell, I swear to you I won’t get hurt. I really don’t think my own father would hurt me. I know he’s sick in the head, and all, but really. I’m pretty sure he cares about me.” I said softly. I slowly stepped around to face him, and grabbed his arms. He looked up at me with troubled eyes.

“No. Why Don’t we go to the police?” He asked.

“That was part of my plan. It’s just, I have a hard time betraying him, even if he is a mad man.”

“What’s your plan?” He asked.

I told him about tonight, and how I was going with Brian. About how I would warn the police once it had happened so they could be sure, and it could be newly done, not giving Brian time to hide the evidence. I would feel guilty about letting someone die, if I actually go through with it, but it was really the only way. Who would believe a sixteen year old troubled girl. Without evidence, and I had none yet, they would just believe that I wanted attention. My dad would get pissed and probably kill me too, and there would be no hope after that. Catch my drift?

I also explained to him about the old man, why I was at the hospital. I could tell he was mad over me not telling him why I was REALLY at the hospital, but he said nothing more about it.

By time I was done with my story, Nell had a hold of my hands and was watching me intently.

“I’m really glad that you can take care of yourself and all.” Nell said with a lopsided half smile, referring to me kicking my dad AAASSSSSS… “but Ayzolenn, your plan is too risky. Let’s just go to the police. I’ll be there with you.” He pushed.

“No!!” I said harshly. “Please Nell. I have to stick with my plan. They won’t believe ME or YOU. My father has been doing this for months now, and still hasn’t gotten caught. That means they haven’t found any evidence it was him, and they won’t now. There’s no point.”

He averted his eyes and paced around the confining space of my bathroom.

“I’m going to follow you. I can be sneaky If I really want to. I’ll try not to stop him from killing whatever victim it is at the time, but if it’s a child, I can’t help but stop him. If he tries to harm you, I’ll have a gun. I know how to work one. I WILL shoot him Ayz! Once it’s done I’ll call the police from my cell phone and let them know there was a murder, and I couldn’t stop him.”

He said this facing away from me, and I sighed in relief that he agreed. Then a thought came to me.

“He’ll tell them that I was helping him. If he gets caught I will too.”

“You tell them that he threatened to kill you if you didn’t come, and if you tried to stop him from murdering. I’ll say I heard him threaten you, and say that you had no choice.” He turned around and embraced me in a bear hug.

“I’m only doing this for you.” He whispered into my hair, right before his mouth descended on mine with a sweet kind of gentle. Only for a second, though. One dreamy second…..