He was her first love.............{ LETTER FROM HER}

HIS NAME IS JAKE ,

AND HE IS THE MOST WONDERFUL GUY IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!

I COULD NEVER LOVE ANYONE LIKE I DO HIM, NEVER.

IT ALL STARTED ONE DAY IN A LITTLE STORE IN A TOWN NEAR CEDARTOWN . OH MY NAME IS LEANNE AND THE PEOPLE IN THIS LETTER YOU WILL HEAR ABOUT IS STEFANI MY ADOPTED MOTHERS DAUGHTER AND BEVERLY MY ADOPTED MOTHER, AND OF COURSE THE WONDERFUL JAKE.

SO IT STARTED ONE DAY BY WHEN I WENT INTO THE STORE WITH MY SISTER

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 WE  ENDED UP CHANGING EMAILS AND TALKIN LIKE THAT FOR AWHILE AND I WOULD GO UP THERE JUST TO SEE HIM.WE HAD LITTLE  THINGS THAT WE DID I CALLED HIM BENDAHO OR HOW EVER YOU SPELL IT, AND AND WE WOULD FLICK EACH OTHER OFF BUT IN A PLAYFUL WAY THOUGH.

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I WOULD GET OUT OF CLASS TO GO TO THE LIBRARY JUST TO GET HIS EMAILS AND TO TALK TO HIM . ONE DAY HE GAVE ME HIS NUMBER AND I MEMORIZED IT I STILL KNOW IT RIGHT NOW BY HEART, BUT IT NEVER OCCURED TO ME TO CALL HIM. ONE DAY I HAD GOTTEN PICS FROM MY SCHOOL AND I TOOK ONE OF THEM UP TO HIMAND HE LIKED IT.

WELL ONE DAY AFTER MY SISTER FINDING OUT AND BEING A BIG MOUTH MY MOTHER FOUND OUT AND SHE WENT OFF ON ME AND HIM SHE THREATENED HIS LIFE AND CALLED ME A SL*T AND ALL KINDS OF BAD NAMES AND SHE MADE FUN OF HIM BECAUSE SEE HE ISNT WHITE LIKE ME HE IS FROM INDIA AND SHE DIDNT LIKE THAT SHE DIDNT WANT ME TALKING TO ANYONE IF THEY WERENT WHITE AND LEANNE DIDNT CARE, SHE LOVED HIM.OH YOU DONT KNOE THIS BUT HE WAS A LITTLE TOO OLD FOR ME AT THAT TIME BUT THAT IS WHY WHEN MY MOTHER CALLED THE POLICE AND THE CAME TO MY HOUSE  AND TO MY SCHOOL

 THEY COULDNT FIND ANYTHING BAD ON HIM AT ALL. FOR THE SIMPLE FACT AT THAT TIME NOTHING HAD HAPPENED THEY HAD ONLY BEEN TALKING FOR ABOUT 4 MONTHS. WELL WHEN THE COPS CAME TO MY HOME THEY HAD A TALK WITH ME .  THE WHOLE TIME I  WAS CRYING TRYING TO TELL THEM HE DID NOTHING WRONG AND ALL HE DID WAS BEFRIEND ME. WELL AFTER THE COPS   LEFT BEVERLY GOT A SO CALLED PHONE CALL FROM ONE OF THE OFFICERS AND SHE SAID HE TOLD HER THAT HE HAD LIED TO ME ABOUT HIS AGE THAT UPSET ME AND THAT HE BLAMED IT ALL ON ME THAT I WOULDNT LEAVE HIM ALONE.AND THAT MADE ME CRY EVEN MORE . EVRYTIME I WENT BY THE STORE I WANTED TO CRY.WELL ON HIS BIRTHDAY  I HAD WENT TO THE POST OFFICE AND HE WAS THERE HE TRIED TO TALK TO ME AND THERE WAS LIKE 5 PEOPLE AROUND THAT KNEW MY MOTHER AND I HAD TO IGNORE HIM AND I STILL THOUGHT HE HAD LIED TO ME SO I HAD TO TELL MY MOTHER WHAT HAD HAPPENED OR ELSE THEY MIGHT BE CALLED AGAIN AND SO I DID .

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THERE WAS A TIME THAT I WAS GOING TO A GYM  AND I HAD TO RIDE THE CITY BUS AND HE TRIED TO TALK TO ME ALL THE TIME AND FINALYY ONE DAY HE SENT HIS WORKER TO GIVE ME A MESSAGE AND I SENT ONE BACK BUT WE DIDNT ACTUALLY START TALKING AGAIN .

AND THEN ONE DAY I WAS ON THE COMPUTER AGAIN AND I WANTED TO KNOW JUST WHY HE WOULD LIE TO ME SO I SENT HIM A MESSAGE TO ASK WHY IT WAS RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS AND WHEN I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL I HAD GOTTEN A MESSAGE FROM HIM SAYING HE DIDNT LIE AND BY THAT TIME I HAD GOTTEN A JOB AND A CELL PHONE SO I CALLED HIM AND WE STARTED TALKING AGAIN AND BY THAT TIME HE KNEW I LIKED HIM AND HE LIKED ME BUT I WAS STILL KINDA YOUNG.SO WE TALKED OFTEN EVERYDAY ON THE PHONE AND EVEN RIGHT INFRONT OF BEVERLY  LOL!!!!!

WELL ONE DAY STEFANI ASKED ME WHO I WAS TALKING TO AND I SAID AMY ONE OF MY FRIENDS . WELL AFTER THAT I JUST STOPPED ALL TO GETHER COMUNICAITING WITH HIM CAUSE I DID NOT WANT THERE TO BE A CHANCE THAT THEY MIGHT KNOW .

THEN ONE DAY I HAD TO GO INTO THE STORE AND HE WAS THERE AND IT WAS WITH MY PAPA AND WE COULDNT STOP SMILING AT EACH OTHER I HAD TO TURN AROUND TO KEEP PAPA FROM REALIZING.

AND THAT NIGHT I CALLED HIM AND EXPLAINED EVERYTHING AND HE WAS OK. I REMEMBER AT LUNCH TIME I WOULD GO BEHIND THE LUNCH ROOM  JUST SO I COULD TALK TO HIM. WELL YET AGAIN I HAD TO STOP BUT HE DIDNT WANT TO HE SAID HE DIDNT CARE SO JUST TO MAKE HIM I TOLD HIM I HATED HIM AND THAT I NEVER WANTED TO TALK TO HIM AGAIN. AND AFTER I DID THAT I CRIED STRAIGTH FOR TWO DAYZ AND FINALLY I CALLED HIM AGAIN AND TOLD HIM WHY I DID THAT AND THAT I WAS SORRY AND THAT I LOVED HIM I JUST DIDNT WANT HIM IN TROUBLE.................

AND YET AGAIN HE UNDERSTOOD ...........

HE ALWAYS DID THAT IS WHY I LOVE HIM.WELL THE LAST TIME IT AHPPENED WE DIDNT TALK FOR AWHILE.

MY ADOPTED MOTHER HAD HIT ME AND I RANAWAY AND I DIDNT KNOW WHERE ELSE TO GO SO I WENT TO HIM .

{OH DURING THIS TIME MY FRIEND TIFFANY HAD TOLD ME HE WAS ASKING ABOUT ME ALL THE TIME}

YET AGAIN HE HELPED ME . WE SAT AND TALKED FOR 2 HOURS AND THEN WE WNET AND GOT SOMETHING TO EAT AND I WENT TO MY FRIENDS HOUSE CAUSE WE KNEW THEY WOULD LOOK THERE. THAT NIGHT WAS THE FIRST TIME WE HAD EVER BEEN ALONE WITH EACH OTHER AND THE FIRST TIME WE EVER KISSED!!!!!!!!

WELL WHEN I WENT TO MY FRIENDS HOUSE HER MOM CALLED THE POLICE{ ALL MY STUFF WAS STILL AT HIS HOUSE LOL WE DIDNT KNOW WHAT WE WERE GOING TO DO UNTIL IT HAPPENED}AND THE POLICE TOOK ME INSTEAD BECAUSE WHEN SHE HIT ME AND WENT TO AGAIN  I GRABBED HER ARM AND SHE SNATCHED IAWAY AND GOT A SCRATCH. SO I SPENT 3 WEEKS IN JAIL FOR THAT  FIRST TIME IN TROUBLE  EVER.

ALL I COULD THIMK ABOUT WAS HIM THE WHOLE TIME ...... WELL WHEN I GOT OUT THE WAS THIS FAIR AND I HAD GOTTEN DRESSED UP CAUSE IT WAS 4TH OF JULY AND WE WNET ...... WELL AS SOON AS WE WALKED THROUGH THE DOOR THEY SAW HIM AND I DID TO AND ME AND HIM MADE EYE CONTACT I WENT TOTALLY WHITE CAUSE ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS HUG HIM . WELL HE HAD TWO CHICKS WITH HIM AND PAMELA MY MOMS FRIEND DRUG ME OUT OF THERE AND I WAS CRYING AND EVERYTHING ......[ OH MY STUFF THAT WAS AT HIS HOUSE WAS RETREIVED BY MY MOTHER WHO TOLD ME THAT HE SAID THAT HE DIDNT WNT TO HELP ME AND THAT I WOULD NOT LEAVE HIM ALONE BUT HE FELT BAD SO HE DID AND THAT HE HAD A GIRLFRIEND AND THEY WERE SERIOUS] AND SO I HAD COMMUNITY SERVICE HOURS TO DO AND THE LADY LEFT ME IN A ROOM WITH A PHONE AND I CALLED HIM TO TELL HIM HE DIDNT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME ANYOMRE BUT HE TOLD ME THAT HE DIDNT SAY THOSE THINGS AND THAT THEY MADE IT UP.AND THE NEXT DAY I CALLED HIM AGAIN AND HE CAME TO SEE ME AND I GAVE HIM THIS BRACELET THINGY IT WAS PURPLE.AND HE GAVE ME THIS COLOGNE IT WAS TOMMY H. AND HE WOULD RIDE BY MY HOUSE PLAYING BEAUTIFUL GIRLS BY SEAN KINGSTON .......

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I ENDED UP IN A SHELTER ABOUT A MONTH LATER AND I CALLED HIM FROM THERE MY FRIEND MADE IT SO I COULD AND HE TOLD ME HE LOVED ME .SO WITH KNOWING THAT I I WAS HAPPY. AND  I ENDED UP RUNNING AWAY FROM THERE  SEE I CALLED HIM THE NIGHT THAT I WAS GOING TO RUNAWAY AND HE HUNG UP ON ME SO I WAS MAD AND DECIDED TO GO AHEAD AND DO IT  SEE I WAS HOPING THAT HE WOULD STOP ME BUT YEA.SO I RAN AND I WAS GONE FOR 2 OR 3 WEEKS AND DURING THAT TIME I CALLED HIM AND ONE OF THE TIMES I DID I ASKED HIM WHY HE DIDNT TELL ME HE LOVED ME ANYMORE AND HE SAID THAT IF HE MEANT IT HE WOULD SAY IT AND THAT BROKE MY HEART IN TINY LITTLE PIECES....... BUT HE CAME TO SEE ME AND WE WENT TO ARBYS TO EAT AND THE WE WENT TO HIS HOUSE , YOU CAN PICTURE THE REST. WELL NOT LONG AFTER THAT I WENT TO MY GOD MOTHERS HOUSE .{DURING THE LAST PART OF THIS HE KEPT ON TELLING ME THAT HE COULDNT BE WITH ME AND THAT ONE DAY HE WOULD TELL ME WHY ONE DAY} HE DID EVERYTHING FOR ME NO MATTER WHAT IT WAS . THE LAST TIME I SEEN HIM HE CAME TO WAL-MART FOR ME TO GIVE ME SOME MONEY HE DID THAT  IF I NEEDED HIM TO . I CALLED HIM  FREQUENTLYTHEN ONE DAY HE FINALLY TOLD ME WHY HE COULDNT BE WITH ME AND IT BROKE MY MENDED A THOUSAND TIMES HEART INTO EVEN MORE PIECES. HE TOLD ME HE WAS GETTING MARRIED. WOW SHOCKER HUH?YEA IT WAS FOR ME TOO.

I JUST THOUGHT HE DIDNT WANT TO BE WITH ME BUT NOPE.

SO HE TOLD ME THAT DURING ONE OF THE TIMES ME AND HIM WASNT TALKING AND  HE WASNT SURE OF OUR RELATIONSHIP HIS PARENTS HAD CALLED HIM AND ASKED HIM TO MARRY THIS GIRL AND HE SAID YES. AND HE TOLD ME THAT HE LOVED ME AND THAT HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME BUT HE HAD TO DO THIS.THAT IT WAS ALREADY HAPPENING. BUT HE SAID I HAD LIKE 2 OR 3 YEARS BEFORE IT HAPPENED.AND DURING THIS WHOLE TIME HE WAS SAYING THIS I WAS CRYING AND TRYING NOT TO LET HIM KNOW BUT HE KNEW ANYWAYZ.HE TOLD ME THAT NO MATTER WHAT HE WOULD BE THERE FOR ME . [ ABOUT HER HE MET HER BEFORE HE CAME TO AMERICA AND THE DATED THEN BUT HE CAME HERE} WELL THEN I THOUGHT I WAS UM........ PREGO AND I TOLD HIM WELL THAT WASNT NOTHING GOOD AND I CALLED HIM TO TELL HIM THAT WE DIDNT HAVE TO TALK ANYMORE THOUGH I KNEW THAT I COULDNT DO THAT I LOVE HIM I HATE TO GO A DAY WITH OUT HEARING HIS VOICE.BUT HE NOTICED MY VOICE WAS DIFFERENT AND HE STARTED TO TELL ME ABOUT THE THINGS HE REMEMBERED AND I ASKED QUESTIONS AND HE ANSWERED THEM . HE REMEMBERED SO MUCH IT WASNT EVEN FUNNY HE REMEMBERED WHAT I WAS WEARING THE FIRST DAY HE MET ME AND ALL KINDS OF STUFF.SOME STUFF I AHD NOT THOUGHT ABOUT SINCE IT HAPPENED.AND JUST THE OTHER DAY HE CALLED ME BY MY MIDDLE NAME AND I DIDNT KNOW HE REMEMBERED  IT . I DONT WANT HIM TO MARRY HER I WANT TO MARRY HIM !!!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM !!!!!!!!!! AND YES I HAVE TRIED  TALKING TO OTHER GUYS BUT IT DOESNT WORK  I JUST CANT . I STILL LOVE HIM AND THE OTHER GUYZ JUST DONT MATCH UP TO HIM THERE IS NO COMPARISON I MEAN  ITS NOT NICE   TO COMPARE TWO PEOPLE THAT COULD NEVER BE EQUAL. I FEEL THAT IT IS MY FAULT THAT WE CANT BE TOGETHER BECAUSE IF HE HAD BEEN SURE OF ME AND HIM  THEN HE MIGHT NOT HAVE SAID YES!!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM AND I CANT HELP IT I FEEL SO DAMN CRAZY. BUT ABOUT THE OTHER GUYZ I JUST DONT SEE A FURTURE WITH THEM AND I COULD NEVER PICTURE KISSING THEM . ALL I WANT IS HIM !!!!!!!!  

I LOVE YOU AND I ALWAYZ WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH SOME OF THE NAMES AND NAMES OF PLACES HAVE BEEN CHANGED SO THAT WELL I DONT KNOW IT JUST SEEMED LIKE A GOOD THING TO DO!!!!!!!!!

THIS STARTED WHEN I WAS 16 I AM 3MONTHS 9 DAYS AND 5 HOURS AWAY FROM BEING 18 AND I HAVE LOVED HIM SINCEHE FIRST TIME I MET HIM AND I STILL DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!