unwanted love. part 1

My mom had just died of cancer and now I was going to have to live with my dad, that I haven't talked to in all most 2 years and his new wife, Sara, who has two sons from her previous marriage.

My dad just marred Sara this year, so I haven't even meet her and her two kids. So I would be living in a house 3 complete strangers (not including my dad) but the bright side is that my older brother Justin has been living with my dad for the 4 years that our parents have been divorced. And we have stayed in contact, through Myspace. In fact a bout 8 months ago win my dad got married, Justin had told me all a bout my new step mom and brothers.

FLASH BACK, 8 MONTHS AGO.

Me> *Broken tears of joy*: so tell me a bout this Sara lady that dad married?

Justin> #soccer Head#: shes pretty cool. Shes real nice like mom. And she lets u get a way with all most any thing.

*Broken tears of joy*: that's cool I guess. What a bout my new step bros?

#soccer Head#: well, theres Mat, who's my age, so he's 17. And then theres Zack, who's a year older then u, so he's 15.

And there cool I guess. But there both like really emo like u!! Lol.

*broken tears of joy*: WHATEVER MAN!!! I'm so not emo! Lol jk. Well g2g. Moms taking me and Hanna to the movies.

#soccer Head#: all rite. Oh wait! Do u think your going to come visit any time soon?

*Broken tears of joy*: idk? After what happened last year. I don't think so.

#soccer Head#: Oh all rite then. <3 u sis.

*Broken tears of joy*: <3 u 2.

Both signed out. 

BACK TO NOW.

I watched as we pasted Midtown, were all the shops and restraints were in town. I remember win I came to visit a couple of years a go my dad took me and Justin to Midtown and we went to the movies and went shopping. I have a picture of us standing in front of the big water fountain in the middle of town. That's win we all got a long.

Then as we pasted the river a smile spread a cross my face. I remembered last year win I spent the summer here and one day it got so hot that you could fry eggs on the side walk. So me Justin and his friend Criss went down to the river and swam most of the day and win it got time to go home Justin and Criss hoped in the truck and drove off with out me, leaving me to walk all the way home.

I laughed under my breath as I thought a bout this. Of how much fun we had last summer.

But then a frown crossed my face and I remembered that last week I was here.

I came home late with Justin one night because the truck broke down, so we had to hitch a ride. And win we got home our dad was drunk. It wasn't a surprise to us, he got drunk pretty often, so we didn't think to much a bout it.

But this time it was different. I remember him yelling at me for some stuiped reason and telling me that he was an idiot for claming me as a daughter. And then the next thing I new he was hitting me in the face with his fists.

I kept thinking a bout what had happened that night, in till my thoughts were interrupted.

"Jackie." I heard my dad say. I turned my head and faced him.

"What." I said in an uncaring voice. I still hadn't forgive him for what he did to me. And I probably never would.

"Jackie, I want to let you know, that I'm so sorry for what I did to you last summer." he said in a shaky voice.

I just looked at him. Waiting for what he was going to say next.

"I want you to know that I don't drink any more. After that night, I stopped completely." it all most looked like he was a bout to cry.

"I'm so sorry, for hurting you Jackie. I really am. And I under stand if you don't forgive me."

The was a Long pause before I could finally say some thing. Part of me wanted to tell me that I hate him and wish he would die. And a part of me wanted to tell him that I forgive him. But I couldn't say ether.

"Dad." I said with a long sigh. "I believe you win you win you say your sorry. And I except the apology. But you need to know that I will never be able to forgive you. I want things to be diforent with us. Can we just try to pretind that night never happened?"

I choked as I got the last words out.

He noded his head with out a word. Sniffaling a little bit. Trying not to cry.

The rest of the ride was died quit. In tell we pulled up to a big old fashined white house with blue shutters on the windows.

I sighed, as I rememberd all the good and bad mimorse that went on in that house.

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