A new world called California Part 29

CHAPTER 29

After spending the entirety of the day with my dad around ten o’ clock Justin and I decided to head out. I hugged my dad and told him I loved him. Justin shook his hand and we made our way out of the hospital.

When we arrived back at Jessi’s house she informed me that she needed to go grocery shopping and asked if I would like to join her. “Go with her.” Justin said, “I think I want to take a nap and you guys should spend some time together.”

“Are you sure babe?” I asked.

“Of course I am sure, just don’t fall in love with any bag boys while you’re gone.”

I laughed, “Ok honey I wont. I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Jessi and I walked outside to her car. We both climbed inside and were on our way. “Thanks for asking me to come with you.” I said hoping she would know why I was thanking her.

“No problem. I figured you wouldn’t want to go with him to take care of your situation.” she replied.

The rest of the ride was in complete silence. I had tried so hard all day not to think about whether or not I was pregnant, that when she brought it up, worries made their way into my mind.

“It’s ok.” Jessi interrupted, obviously noticing the anxious look on my face, “Kate I’m sure he will be ok with it. I think he’ll be happy. If he loves you the way I think he does then this will only make the two of you stronger.”

I smiled. “Thanks Jess.”

She touched my hand reassuringly, “everything will be fine. Try not to worry so much.”

“Ok, I’ll try.”

After our mission of grocery shopping and purchasing a pregnancy test was complete we headed back home. She continued reassuring me that things would work out for me. I was really trying to believe her, but with Justin and I’s past I just wasn’t sure that it would.

When we got home Justin was still sleeping.

“Should I take it now?” I asked Jessi.

“Yeah do it. I’ll be your moral support. Just know that no matter what happens, whether you’re pregnant or not, I will always love you and be here for you.”

“Ok.” I said anxiously as I grabbed the test and headed for the bathroom.

I shut the door behind me and locked it, just in case, and opened the box. I read and followed the directions carefully wanting to make sure that I did everything right.

When I was finished I opened the bathroom door and walked out into the kitchen. Jessi was perched on her barstool looking like she was about to fall off of it. “Now we wait.” I said wringing my hands together.

We tried talking, but we just couldn’t think of anything to say. So instead we sat in complete silence. She must have hugged me twenty times, and it made me feel like she and I were having the baby. After five minutes I decided to head back into the bathroom. I wanted to run, but instead walked slowly back inside. I picked up the white plastic instrument and raised up to my face. “Oh my god.” I said wide eyed looking at Jessi.

“What? What does it say?” She asked excitedly.

I turned it towards her so she could see it. After she saw it I don’t think she knew how to react since I hadn’t yet. I turned the test back towards me and looked it one more time to make sure that my eyes had viewed it correctly. They had. There it was the blue plus sign. I was pregnant.

All the sudden Justin appeared in the doorway.

“What are you two doing?” he asked smiling.

“Um, I, uh we…” I started.

“What’s that?” he asked pointing to the positive test I was holding in my hand.

“Um, Justin we need to talk.” I said near tears.

I grabbed his hand and pulled him into the bedroom Jessi was letting us stay in. “You’d better sit down.” I said after I closed the door behind us.

“What’s going on? What’s wrong?” he asked worried.

“Justin, I’m pregnant.” I said letting a sob break free. I just wanted to get it out. Now it was out and I had to wait to see how he would react.

He didn’t say anything.

“That’s why you’ve been sick isn’t it?”

“Yes.” I said looking down at my hands. “I didn’t know until right before you walked in. I had just taken the test. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for this to happen.” I continued crying more desperately.

He stood up and in that moment I knew in my heart he was going to walk out and leave me there.

He ran his hands through his short hair, but didn’t leave. Instead he started to cry. I didn’t know what to say, so I just sat down on the bed and buried my face in my hands. I felt the bed move as he sat down next to me and his hand run through my hair. “I want you to have this baby. Our baby.” he said finally.