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Dear Buba,

I miss you so much! I can't believe it's been 4 years since I last saw you. I hope you like it there. Mom really misses you and so does Chad. I miss you, too. For a while I thought it was my fault. That god was punishing me because I was a brat to you when we were younger. Why did you have to die so young! It's not fair! You would be 10 this June. Mom is getting married on your birthday you know. Then after everyone is going to Fireman's Park. Remember when we went on that pic-nic? We had so much fun. I miss those good times. Uncle Dick thinks it's mom's fault that you died. That she killed you. But, it's not the truth. It was respriatory failure ,huh? He was really rude to her. Called her a bitch and said that he was going to take her to court for killing you. Get her locked away. I couldn't take it anymore. I screamed and yelled at him until I couldn't anymore. He hasn't talked to us since. But, he emailed mom telling her that our house catching on fire was you saying that mom will pay for what happened. :( I wish you were here. I may not of shown it all the time like I should have but I love you with all my heart. I helped raise you. It wasn't fair that you couldn't walk but, to take you away so soon?! You didn't get to see the world at it's worst and best. Didn't meet the amazing people that you could have. And most of all did brighten everyones life like you did to mine and moms.

In 6th grade, we moved to Columbia Falls. You would have loved it there. They actually had a KFC ;) So instead of just Rinky-Dink Mickie Ds. You would have loved my friends. Christina Steffen was my best. She thought of as her own brother you know. Kayla too. Me and Kayla sat and cried for hours after looking at some of your stuff mom saved. There was one time at lunch where I just mentioned your name and this girl named Caitline freaked out and said "Why the f**k do you always have to talk about him? He's dead get over it!" I was so shocked all I could do was bawl. I felt stupid. But, I really couldn't help it. Thankfully, Christina stood up for me and threatened to bash her head in if she ever said anything like that about her brother to her sister. (We pretty much adopted her into the family). 

But, I just wanted to write this to say I love and miss you very much. I hope you like it in Heaven. If you meet God please tell Him I said Hello. Oh and maybe come and see me sometime. I know your here in spirit. I've seen your face in the picture of our cousins...Scared me at first. But, you should come back again. I really wish I could talk to you. Just one last time is all.I love you with all my heart and soul. God bless. Rest in peace baby brother.