our lives...to kaz:

my parents always fighted even before i was born, but it felt like me being born was the cherry ontop of a crappy made sundae.... My dad would come home drunk, i know i was probably too young to remember much, but i do. hed yell and scream at my mom while he tore up the house....id wait patiently in the hall for him to tip over the coffee table so i could go play row row row your boat in it. lol. i wasnt very bright. finally when i was around 6, they got devoursed...or however you spell it....i didnt understand at first the seriousness of it, i thought it would be cool, well, its not. when i was 7, my mom started dating a guy named chris, i liked him at first, he was nice, and he had a kitten named bufford i liked to play with, then, they got married, and everything changed. he started acting like a jerk and taunting me whenever i got upset. if i ever cried, hed make howling noises to make it worse. then we moved to safford. that tipped me off! i hated everyone and everything in sight! i met maegan ( kaz the wofl ) finally my mom started getting sick of me and put me in counceling, she put me on these " happy " pills. that wasnt so bad. but i learned not to give kaz any. lol.today, im happy to live in safford but not happy to live in this mad house! he still taunts me, everytime i do something wrong i get threatened to have my mom call my dad! and im yelled at for every little thing. my stupid lil sis is on a pedistel while i clean it!  my mom is going to college again and is cranky about everything!the only time im happy is at school! with my friends. ive got the coolest boyfriend and the greatest best friend a girl could ask for!shes like my sister, a sister that i actually love! but her and my boyfriend fight constantly and it makes me feel bad because im afraid oneday im gonna have to choose between them....and i cant do that. last year, in 7th grade, oneday i had my mind made up, i was gonna jump in the river and kill myself when i got home, bit right befroe i left maegan called and asked if i wanted to sleep over. and i did. we had soooo much fun that night! if she hadnt called i wouldnt be here. and i figured, they can taunt all they want  but nothings gonna bring me down! my mom constantly tells me how pathetic and retarded i am. she jokes in a mean way and when i tell her to stopshe gets worse, but with my friends and maegan, no one can stop me now! one day, im gonna move out. and right before i walk out that door, im gonna turn around look them in the eye, and say every thought about them that has crossed my mind scince i was 7, and trust me.... There not gonna like it.