Summer of the Broken part 12

I didn't even know what Mr.Jacob's initial reaction was when I hurried up the stairs. All I know is that I had the feeling it wasn't too good. This was going to be one sure turn of events for me. Option one, if I was pregnant, I had absolutely no idea in the world what I would do. Two, if I wasn't, I was going to remain a secondary virgin forever. 

"Everything will be okay?"I reassured myself."I know my life isn't meant to always be in the wrong."

Luckily, I really did have to pee so the easy part would happen fast. After I had done my business, I set the thermometer thing on the sink and washed my hands. I actually washed them four times just to pass the time and because I was stalling.

"Breathe."I told myself as I picked it up. Looking down, I caught glimpse of the results....

"Becca! Lunch is ready!"Jane shouted from downstairs. 

I concealed the test and hid it underneath sheets of toilet paper. I washed my hands again before going downstairs and looked at myself in the mirror. The person looking back at me didn't look like me at all. It was somehow surreal. 

When I sat down at the table, I felt more than one pair of eyes on me. Sam must've been anticipating my results while Mr.Jacobs was just staring at me. Probably because of Brooke. I gulped and started on the plate of spaghetti. It wasn't easy to get down either. After the fourth bite, I gave up altogether.

"Is there something the matter with your food?"Jane asked.

"N-no."I stuttered."I'm just not very hungry."I heard a sigh and knew all too well who's it was. Sam's.

"I'm not mad at you."Mr.Jacobs interrupted."In fact, I'm sort of proud of you."

"What? Why?"For once, I looked up to meet his expression. His smile was light but warm too.

"Even though you didn't tell me about your mother, I understand your reasoning. There's no need to worry any more. When she comes back, we will all have a little chat."

"Uh...okay."I forced a smile. If only he knew what happened between Brooke and I."Can I please be excused?"

"Alright."Jane answered quickly. I was certain she was anticipating just as much as Sam."But tomorrow is your night for dishes."she reminded me. I nodded and went upstairs to my room.

Not long after, I heard another pair of footsteps. I knew who it was but I was too tired to get up from my bed. A whole day's worth of worrying was enough for me. And no matter what happened now, I promised myself that I would do the right thing, no matter what. The only big issue I had was with Brooke.

"Beck."Sam whispered and I laughed a little. Beck?"We need to talk."

Instead of arguing, I continued off into my dreamy stupor. Of course I would talk to him, but I wasn't going to waste anymore of my energy by stressing out.

Sam plopped down next to me and sighed deeply."I'm going to get a good job and buy us a house and I'm going to-"

"Wait a sec-"

"And I'm going to build a treehouse and we'll have a white picket fence and-"

"Stop!"I yelled."I'm not pregnant."

"But...you looked so afraid downstairs."

"That's because I was. Just because I'm not pregnant, doesn't mean I'm not freaked out. Do you know all of the weird things that kept running through my mind? Honestly, I don't know if I ever want to have sex again."

"Wow."Sam sighed."I've thought about kids before, but I never really thought about it, ya know? Don't get me wrong, if you were pregnant now, I'd still take care of you both. But it's pretty relieving to know we still have time to be kids."

"Kids?"I scoffed and turned over to face him."Sam, you're not a kid anymore. And I, I am. I love you with all of my heart but we're missing out on the world. You should be getting ready for college or finding a great job to get you started in life. And I should be back at school, meeting new people and.....getting help with my problems."

He was silent, yet deep in thought. I thought he'd be hurt but he seemed to be thinking critically. I sort of felt like he did downstairs when he was impatient with me.

"You're right."he smiled. It took me about a second to lunge forward, gripping him into a tight hug. 

We both knew what would happen soon and even though it was hard to think about, it gave us peace of mind too. I didn't want to be the girl to hold him back from what he wanted to do. Sam was somewhat grounded and I was free spirited. Getting caught up in this whole relationship was my downfall. Making it happen was worse than letting it happen on it's own.

"Uh oh."Sam said as I backed away. I heard what he heard. Brooke pulled into the driveway and things were about to go crazy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"So I just wanted to say that next chapter is going to be really sad. You can guess all you want but I'm not going to tell you what happens lol. Also, this isn't almost finished if that's what you are thinking. Oh, and last chapter I accidentally titled it wrong and it wouldn't let me edit it...my bad... Leave me lovely comments."

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