Be My Baby part 15

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The night was long and I couldn't break myself away from Chris. I knew Shane needed me too, but after he admitted his love for Stacy, I just couldn't look at him. Thankfully, my little sister was curled up in his lap, fast asleep. All of the parents pretty much crashed out on the patio and Rachel and Dylan were already asleep on the couch, which left Shane, Chris, and I awake.

It wasn't that we were mad at each other, it was just that we didn't know what to say. There wasn't anything left to say after my breakdown. In about an hour or so, we would get to go say our goodbyes to Stacy. I knew how hard it would be for everyone else. Yet, it would probably be the hardest on me for being the cold hearted bitch that I was.

"I'm going to go start the coffee."Chris says as he gets up."I know we'll need a whole lot more."

 

 

"K."I whispered.

"Maybe if you cry some more, it will help."Shane suddenly says."That's what my mom used to do when she was upset and it worked like a charm."

"Would if I could."I stare blankly at him. My eyes feel wired open and I can't seem to stop looking at him as if he hurt Stacy somehow.

"I'm sorry about what I said earlier. I know you've been thinking about it all night long."he sighs.

 

 

"No I haven't. I've been thinking about what to tell Stacy. You're honestly at the back of my mind."I say and yawn.

 

 

"Maybe you should get some sleep. I'll wake you when it's time to go see her."he suggests.

 

 

"I'm not tired."I lie."I'd rather wait."Maybe I should go help Chris with the coffee. He's been gone for a while."

 

 

Shane nods in agreement as I make my way to the kitchen. When I get there, I'm surprised to find Chris curled up into a ball beneath the counter. When I hear a whimper, I know he's crying.

 

 

"Uh, Chris?"I furrow my brow."What's wrong?"

 

 

He practically jumps up when he realizes I'm there. He doesn't turn around but instead continuesmaking the coffee.

 

 

"You can talk to you me, you know? Is it about Stacy? Tell me?"I demand.

 

 

"Just leave me alone!"he yells.

 

 

"No I'm not going to leave you alone."

 

 

"Just go away, just get away from me. All you've done is make everything worse!"

I knew hearing the truth would hurt but I didn't know it would hurt this bad. He must've woken up half of the house from how loud he yelled at me. I couldn't stand the truth and so I ran out the door, up the street, until I actually broke down right on the street pavement.

It took me a few minutes to regain control of myself and walk back home. I had hoped no one was aware of the fact that I ran down the street like a lunatic. But when I got back inside, everyone was in the living room having some sort of talk. When they saw me, they looked at me for some reason. 

"It's time to go see her."my mother says.

I turn and meet every gaze in the room. What surprised me was that Chris had an icepack to his eye. I wasn't too sure, but I had an idea that maybe Shane had something to do with it.

"Okay, one at a time."Serena says to us. I feel bad because her eyes have the darkest circles around them that I'd ever seen."And please don't be surprised at what you see."

We all agree and one by one, everyone goes in. I decide to be last because I don't have enough courage. But as each of them come out, tears and all, they all have weak smiles on their faces.

"You're turn."Shane says."She's been asking for you too."

"Okay."I agree and slowly make my way to her room.

This had to be the longest walk of my life. I had never seen a person who was about to die and I never wanted to. Now, I'd have to come clean and tell her about how I used to hate her.

I heard a giggle and raised my eyebrows when I got in her room. There she was, reading a letter and just laughing away. But, she didn't look the same. She looked like one of the Cullens from the Twilight movie except she was laying almost limp in her bed.

 

 

"Hey Stacy."I mutter."It's me."

"Well of course it is."she smiles.

How could a person be connected to so many tubes? And how could a person even be a living person looking the way she did.

"Come sit with me."she says and pats her bed."I wanna talk to you."

"Sure."I gulp, wondering if one of the others told her what I admitted to last night.

 

 

"Honestly, can you just lay with me?"she asks when I sit down."Like a best friend would."

 

 

I follow what she says and lay next to her. It hurts so bad being here that I wished I hadn't came. She lays the letter aside and turns so that she's facing me.

 

 

"So apparently, Shane is in love with me and Chris is in love with you."she smiles."Isn't that strange?"

 

 

"Yeah."I agree."Listen Stacy, there's something I need to tell you."

 

 

"Don't."she shakes her head."No matter what it is I already know. The truth is, I was considering telling you the same thing. I know we hated each other before and I'm pretty sure the guys had everything to do with it."

 

 

"Are you psychic?"I joke. I'm actually quite relieved.

 

 

"No, I'm a teenage girl just like you."

 

 

When she says that, I can't help but cry. Yes, she is a teenage girl like me right now. But soon, she won't be. It would be just me.

 

 

"I'm so sorry Stacy."I choke out."I wish you didn't have to die. I really meant what I said about being best friends before. You and I are so much alike in so many ways and now, now I won't have anyone to talk to. You're going to die Stacy. Why aren't you upset?"

 

 

"Honey, I've known about this since I was a little girl. At first it was hard but then it got so much easier. I've got to live such a great life with so many great people...you included. I can't say that I'm not afraid, but I know everything will be okay."she lets out a short giggle." I do remember that kiss Stacy. I wanted to do it because I liked you so much. It wasn't in a lesbian way or anything, it was just who you were. I wanted to see what it was like kissing such a beautiful person."

 

 

"Please don't die."I begged."If you could just try to live a little longer, I know things would be perfect. We could go to high school together and prom and do things that girlfriends do."

 

 

"You'll get to do that."she began to cry."I'll miss it, but I know I'll get to watch all of you have a great time together. You'll know I'll be there."

 

 

"But it won't be the same."I say and move closer to her. 

 

 

"Shh, everything will be fine bestie."

 

 

Not sleeping for a whole night had taken it's toll on me and I had apparently fallen asleep. When I woke up, someone was shaking me. As incoherent as I was, I made out the beeping noise coming from the monitor. I turned to look at Stacy who looked as though she were asleep too. That was the last I saw of her before one of the nurses edged me out of the room.

 

 

Serena had already made it past me when I made it to the hallway where everyone was waiting. They were all looking at me for what they'd been waiting for....a sign that she was dead.

 

 

I didn't know for sure if she was but knew she was about to be. I couldn't stop for any of them. I walked out of the hospital and went to sit in the grass beside of the building. It was pure sunlight out, and even though it was extremely hot, I still sat there. I pulled out a piece of the grass and began fiddling with it. I must've played with it for at least an hour before I felt a drop of rain hit my arm. How strange. Now it appeared as though it was going to storm.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"I know you have questions and stuff but there's more coming up in the next chapter. You'll just have to wait and see. Thanks for reading and commenting, I appreciate it. Enjoy......."

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