Dear Journal since you..........

dear journal since you can't tell anyone..i have a secret ... i was hurt again...my soul cannot possibly love another when so many people have hurt it and darkened it, all my life i have been used........abused........and tormented, so thats why i was fucked up in the head......i thought that if thats how my family treated me, when i felt like i was a failure....i would cut myself or try to kill myself, and now that i take this medicine.......i see so clearly.....i see through people, and why they do what they do....i mean i see from my soul, and i have had a lifetime experience!!! I am thinking again.........hmmmmmm....