What it all comes down to |Chapter 6|

When I got into my Calculus class, my friend James was sitting on one of the desk laughing about something, loudly.

“Why are you so loud?” I asked as I walked up behind him and took a seat.

“Your highness…” He bowed his head and then smirked. “We were talking about the party tonight. You’re still coming right?”

“I forgot all about it, actually…”

“Why am I not surprised?”

I rolled my eyes and turned to look at Rick, who was giving me a weird look. “What the hell is wrong with you, Ricky?”

He laughed. I took out my cellphone and texted Courtney.

Party 2nite… u going?

I put my cell phone away and asked Ricky if I had missed anything yesterday.

“Didn’t anyone tell you? We had a pep rally yesterday and pretty much all the classes were cancelled. I mean… we went to homeroom for a little bit, but that was about it.”

I nodded and for a second I felt a great deal of relief. I wouldn’t have been able to handle all the noise yesterday, anyway.”

My cell phone vibrated and I flipped it open.

Do I Ever miss a prty? Don’t think so, girl!

I smiled and shook my head. She was right; I had asked a very stupid question.

I guess im in then… I need to get out for a while.

I slipped my placed my phone on my desk when Mr. Lardner started speaking. No more than a minute later, my cell vibrated again.

Glad to have you back!

I wanted to reply saying, “It’s good to be back…”  But I wasn’t… so I didn’t… instead I didn’t respond.

Courtney and I walked into my house after stopping by her house to get her outfit for the party. She was planning on going to the party and then spending the night at my house like we used to do.

When we walked in, the smell of food immediately filled my nostrils. My mother wasn’t home, so I assumed that Chris was cooking.

“Something smells amazing!” Courtney said while dropping her bag on the floor by the steps and continuing to the kitchen.

We walked into the kitchen together and I rolled my eyes at the sight. “Christina.” I muttered as I walked past her sitting at the table. “Please tell me you aren’t going to make a habit out of coming over here…”

She smiled, bitterly. “Chris wants me here… so I’m here.”

“It’s funny who you can get to stick around when you’re pregnant…” Courtney said with an undeniable smirk plastered on her face.

I laughed, but the laughter was cut short when I glanced over at Chris. He wasn’t looking at me, but it was awkward to be so close to him after we—no! It didn’t happen.

The normal thing to do would be to say something to him, right? Yeah… right.

“Hey Chris… What cha making?”

“Whatever it is, it smells delish!” Courtney added on.

“Christina was craving eggs so I’m making her an omelet.” He replied without even looking my way.

“Exactly… He’s making me an omelet.”

“I don’t remember asking baby mama anything!” I shot toward her.

She flinched at my words and I rolled my eyes. “C’mon Courtney… I need to figure out what I’m wearing.”

“—To your opening act at the circus?” Christina cut in. “That looks fine to me. In fact, you look great.”

I stared her down until she sucked her teeth and looked away. She was such a little Chiwawa; all bark and no bite.

“You need to figure out what you’re wearing where?” Chris asked.

“Party tonight…” I turned to walk out of the kitchen. “Oh… and Courtney’s spending the night.”

I didn’t bother turning around as I added that. I headed up the stairs to my room and when we entered the room I shut the door and locked it.

“So you think I should wear a skirt or a dress?” I asked as I opened my extremely over populated closet.

“It doesn’t matter you look gorgeous in anything…”

I smiled. This was why I loved Courtney. She was always there for me, through the good times and the bad.

“Okay… Let’s see here…”

I began pulling out numerous outfits and I even modeled some of them. Tonight was the night when I would party like I used to, even if all else changed, I was glad that didn’t.

Around six thirty, I was about to get into the shower. I told Courtney that she could use my shower and that I would use the one in the hallway. There were five bathrooms in my house. There were three upstairs (including the main bathroom, my bathroom, and the one in Chris’ bathroom.) and two downstairs (my mother’s bathroom, and the guest bathroom).

I walked into the bathroom and took a long shower. We weren’t planning on leaving for the party until eight or so—I had plenty of time.

When I got out of the shower, I was about to go back to my room, but I heard a strange noise coming from Chris’ room. I walked over to the door quietly and the sound was more audible then.

Christina was obviously still here and the sound was making me sick to my stomach. “Yes… oh God yes!”

Whatever Chris was doing to her, she loved it. She started gasping for air and moaning even louder.

I hate her!

I shook the thought as soon as it entered my head. She’s his girlfriend dumbass… what the fuck are you so angry about?

Because she’s a bitch… he needs something better than that! I answered myself.

Oh… you mean he needs you? I replied harshly.

Ugh!

You are aware that you just had a full blown conversation with yourself, right?

Shut up! I screamed mentally.

You are aware that you’re telling yourself to shut up right?!

I shook my head and ran off to my room as fast as I could. When I walked in, luckily, Courtney was still in the shower.

I sat at my dresser and flat ironed my hair. By the time I was half way through with that, Courtney was coming out of the bathroom.

“I’m starved!” She said while going to sit on the bed.

“Same here… we can eat here or go out… your choice.”

“Here… hey you think your brother could cook for me? That food smelled great.” She said smiling at the thought.

“Doubt it.” I muttered. “He’s a little busy right now, actually.”

She glanced at me and then looked toward the door. Suddenly she was laughing.

“What’s so funny?”

“He’s having sex with her… now?”

“Unfortunately… and my poor ears had to suffer.”

Her laughing picked up and I tuned her out. We both got dressed and headed down the steps about half an hour later. Chris and Christina came down the stairs soon after, casually, as if nothing had happened.

“I’ll see you later baby…” She said before kissing him on the lips.

I couldn’t stand the sight of them. I wasn’t sure what it meant or how I was supposed to confess these strange feelings roaming inside me… but they were really beginning to piss me off!