Coming out...

Two weeks into the semester and Ashley felt as though she hadn’t accomplished anything. Rearranging classes, student loans, everything just seemed to be falling further and further behind. Oh well she thought, at least I’ll make it to my English literature class in time. Running across campus books clinging tightly to her she runs into Allen Hall. Ashley walked down the long narrow hall to her classroom as she approaches the double wide set doors she notices a note on the hard thick wood door stating that class would be held in the library. Oh great she thought to herself, now ill really be late.

As she hurried along to find the library she had only been to once since school started because she had just transferred from a University in San Antonio, and still getting familiar with the campus here in Dallas. Books in one arm slipping out of her grip and her other arm carrying her art supplies she tried to readjust her books, frustrated that she didn’t bring her backpack this semester. She knew she was leaving something vitally important behind at her parents and she just didn’t have the time or the extra money to purchase another one. Shaking her frustrations, she asked herself where had all the time gone, what had she been doing, surely it was time wisely invested. Obviously she’d been keeping up enough to get by, but it seemed that life lately had to be passing her by. If she wasn’t in school, she was studying; if she wasn’t studying she was working at the campus climbing tower, as a climbing instructor. She’d been missing something she knew it. Every time she would go out with her friends and she saw them with their boyfriends, she knew she was missing something. She just couldn’t place her finger on it! She knew that she didn’t have time for a boyfriend. Heck, she hardly noticed boys these days; they all seemed the same, just frat boys wanting to get wasted every night. She just didn’t find that sort of scene interesting if anything she found it annoyingly obnoxious.

Entering the library and not seeing her classmates, she cursed under her breath. “Damn, another thing gone wrong today, what else could happen?”

“Excuse me, but are you talking to me?” Ashley turns around embarrassed, color rushing to her cheeks. Oh no, it was her English Lit professor. “Uh no, Ms. Mathews, I was just, uh, oh nothing, am I late?” Ms. Mathews looked at Ashley a brief moment and indicated that class would be held over in the biogeography section of early poets.

Walking in front of Ms Mathews, Ashley became very aware of how she was walking. One foot in front of the other, Please don’t trip she chanted to herself, don’t make a fool of yourself. “Ouch!”

“Are you okay Honey, that looked rather painful” Ashley looked down at her shin; she could already see it was bruising. She placed her books on the nearest table and took a minute to examine herself. “Ms Mathews I’m so sorry I don’t mean to hold you up.”

“Please Ashley, call me Julie and you aren’t holding me up. Did you not see the note that was posted on the class room door? Class is at 215, its now only 1:45pm.” Ashley looked down at her wrist watch drawing her brows together, so it is she thought.

“Come on, let’s get you some ice for the shin, its going to swell.” Ashley focused on her attention to the throbbing pain as Julie inspected her shin. She was an attractive woman. About 5’8, she’d stand head to head with me if I were standing upright she thought unconsciously. Soaking in her dark brown hair, and emerald green eyes that reminded you of the forest on a cold winter’s morning. Her skin looked so soft. She smelled of lavender and citrus shampoo. Whoa… Where had these thoughts come from? Why was she noticing this woman in such an inappropriate manner. Why was she turning a deeper shade of red and not because of the pain she felt in her shin. A small part of her initiated what was going on but she disregarded the thoughts as soon as they appeared. Ashley hurried off the table and scrambled for her books. “The ice won’t be necessary, I’ll be fine it’s just a little bruise, I’ll see you in class, I mean, you know what I mean. I gotta go”

Rushing off to the women’s room, Ashley splashed her face with cold water. Trying to grasp the events of the last few moments, what was she doing, why did she react this way to this woman? She didn’t understand. She looked up into the mirror while she placed both of her hands on the sides of the sink. Yes you do, her inner voice said. You know exactly what is happening here. You keep denying it. Yet, Ashley still didn’t understand. “Yes you do” a little voice in her screamed. Admit it to yourself, please for you, for the sake of your sanity. Ashley looked up into her own reflection of the mirror, looking past her features past her pride, past her logical understanding. “What is it you want, what are you trying to tell me? I can’t be, I just can’t, it’s not right, I wasn’t raised this way” she said to herself. Sighing she let her head fall; she just couldn’t do this, not now. Ashley loved her parents and knew her parents loved her. She didn’t doubt that, but she remembered once her parents saying how one of her uncles were gay and it tore the family apart. She remembered how judgmental they sounded. So how was she ever going to tell her parents? She also remembered one day when her mother came into her room one late night and told her that no matter what she would always love her and support her in any decisions she made. Definitely confused now she straightened her spine as she looked at herself. her thoughts a mess she grabbed a paper-towel to dry off her face.

Walking back into the library with rest of her classmates, she ran into her roommate Jennifer. “Hey Ashley, where ya been I haven’t seen you all morning. We missed you at lunch and than again in world history, what’s up?”

“Nothings up, ive just been busy, im still trying to get my student loans sorted out in the student aids office. It’s tiresome, I don’t understand it. Obviously there are two Ashley Parkers going here, but they said that it should all be sorted out soon. I just needed to give them my class schedules and my student transcripts for my scholarship”

Finding a place to sit around the huge conference table with two open chairs next to one another was rather easy. Settled into the seat comfortably opening to the chapter they were on and reaching for her notes before class actually started. Ms Mathews states, “Today were going to talk about Edgar Allen Poe, we aren’t going to talk about his writing, but why he wrote the things he did. Was he a good writer, or was he just a drunk who was very dark and twisted. I want everyone to pair up with someone and write a 5000 word paper, as to what made him the writer he became.”

Ashley looked at Jennifer and thought this was going to be an easy project. Jennifer looked at Ashley. “I know what your thinking, but I was thinking maybe we could team up with others. I really wanna team up with Chad Richards. Please, please, I’ll make it up to you.” Ashley rolled her eyes, and mumbled an agreement. “Sure, I’ll find someone”

Class ended some time after 4pm, everyone was headed out of the library but Ashley lingered in the back. When she was saw the library clear out, she approached Julie. “Ms mathews?” Julie” she corrected.

“Julie, I couldn’t find anyone to pair up with for this assignment, and I didn’t want to make a big scene about it. Do you have any suggestions?”

Julie looked over the brim of her reading glasses and looked thoughtful. “Well I guess you can do the project alone, if you like? And if you have any problems, questions, or just need resources, I’d be more than happy to help you.”

Ashley smiled. That would be awesome she thought. “Yes that would be great.”

Walking towards the exit of the library, Julie looked up from her planner and couldn’t help but notice the sway of her students hips. She looked young maybe 22, but very mature and defiantly shy. “Hey Ashley would you care to join me for coffee and talk about this paper?” What was she doing? Julie clasped her hand over her mouth and mentally kicking herself but removed it before the her student turned around with a weary look on her face, but willingly accepted the invite. Gathering her briefcase Julie thought to herself what was she doing asking a student to spend time outside of the class room?

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Pulling up to the campus corner of the coffee shop, Ashley could smell the aroma of coffee, and baked goods from the street. “Hmmmmm smells good.” she said as Julie emerged from her car. “Yes it does, splendid. We should definitely get inside before its all gone.” The professor jokingly said. Once inside the coffee shop, Ashley noticed that there weren’t very many people in here. It was Friday night and everyone was probably already out and here she is with her teacher. How lame could she be? Seriously? Was it obvious that she was here with someone she was attracted to? Did Julie think that’s why she agreed to go out with her because she had an attraction? Feeling flustered with herself she decided she had to put these thoughts aside and just go with the flow.

Standing in line looking over the delicious pastries they both ordered. Trying to decided where to sit Julie pointed to a table by the window which happen to be in the back of the store. Julie started to discuss the development of the paper, and which way she thought Ashley should go.

Julie started to notice that Ashley wasn’t listening as the conversation progressed. Looking into her students dark brown eyes with flecks of gold she came to realize that Ashley Parker was a very attractive girl. Woman she corrected herself. Athletic, toned, bronzed skin, shoulder length hair with carmel highlights in her already darkened brown hair set a fresh look that brought out the gold in her eyes. A heart shaped face that would probably fit into the cup of her hand if she just reached over and kissed her. It had been a little over a year since Julie and her partner split for better reasoning than to be together. And since than Julie hadn’t had much time or energy to invest in another relationship. Hell she didn’t really want another. After what Brooke had put her through Julie didn’t think it was possible to be involved with someone emotionally again. Especially the trust part of a relationship. How could she. She was never one to doubt someone until they gave her reason. But Brooke lied from the start. Brooke invented the person that Julie fell in love with. It was an image; one that she thought was the person inside.

Brooke was perfect in so many ways, loving, and always giving. But who knew she’d be paying the price for it. Even now, anytime she met someone it was always ruined before it even got started. She would find one remotely characteristic similar to Brooke and she would flee the scene. Make any excuse. She always gave the “Its not you, its me speech” and frankly Julie was tired of feeling lonely. Especially last month when she saw Brooke at a local museum with her new partner looking very smug and cozy looking very happy And having seen this, she was outraged. But she couldn’t place the anger, where was it coming from. She was over Brooke. Than it dawned on her, why does she get to be happy, why she gets to love again, why does she get to move on, start a new life, and smile, act as if nothing even happened? As if she never did the things she did. Almost ruined a career Julie tried so hard to build and even harder to keep her private life separate from her work. Starting to feel heat rise from her neck at the annoyance she felt with herself she turned back to her student.

“Ashley something seems to be bothering you, is everything okay, anything I can help with?” Ashley’s eyes looked bewildered; her brown eyes now the size of saucers. “What do you mean, im fine, just a little confused about, oh nothing you’d never understand.”

“Try me:” Julie said.

I couldn’t, it’s almost embarrassing. I wouldn’t know where to begin. Or how to begin, really!”

Reaching across the table, Julie took Ashley’s hands. “its okay honey, you can trust me.” Ashley jerked her hand away just as fast as Julie touched it. “I’m sorry Ms Mathew, I myself don’t understand it.

“Well let’s just drink our coffee, no pressure, but if you ever feel the need to talk my office is always open.”

All of a sudden, Ashley was saying the words before she was able to stop herself.

“Ms mathews, lately, I don’t understand myself, it seems that I want something but once I get it im totally disinterested. For instance, I went out with this guy from my bio class, he seemed smart, intelligent, he was cute, but something was missing. But than its like im not even attracted to these guys ive been meeting. Yet, I have found myself attracted to a few people, but it’s almost as though, it’s sinful, it is sinful, I don’t understand it. I can’t be I just can’t. My mother, my family, it will ruin me. What am I to do?”

Julie glanced at Ashley through empathic eyes. “I’m not a hundred percent sure what your talking about but I can relate to feeling a certain way about my life and not sure how my family would react to it, or even how I would react to it once I admitted it to myself. But I’m fine, and my family has been real supportive.” Ashley looked really eager to know, and Julie could sense it as well. “I really don’t feel that comfortable expressing my personal life here on campus, but if you ever just wanna talk, please feel free to call me at home.’ she handed her a card that had both her home number and cell phone number listed. “Thanks, I just may, but I really have to get started on this paper, especially since im working on it alone.”

Ashley stood up abruptly almost knocking over the cups of coffee, apologized and headed towards the door. Gosh im so clumsy around her. I hope she hasn’t noticed. And out the door she was.

Julie sat there sipping on her luke warm coffee. If im not careful, ill be getting myself involved with his girl. Oh but what fun it would be the thrill of her innocence, to show her that it’s okay. Julie knew in some ways her sexuality was bothering her, she’d find a way to bring up the subject again.

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As the rain came down hard Ashley fought the stinging drops penetrating her skin. Hurrying to make it to her English Class without getting completely drenched she ran into the hall and sprinted down to her room. Opening the classroom door quietly she worked her way to her assigned area rustling causing the entire class to focus their attention on her. Hair matted to her head, stringy, and still dripping, her light make-up now running down her cheeks and her light blue t-shirt hugging her in places that were inevitable to see. Looking down she realized she forgot again to wear a bra. Damnit, she was always doing that.

Trying to ignore the girl as she so absentmindedly covered her chest to hide the fact that she was cold, but not before Julie could soak in the delicious sight of her students harden nipples stretching her wet shirt outwards. Clearing her throat and focusing back on the notes in front of her just continued her lecture. “I was really impressed with everyone’s paper, I was really amazed the way some of you looked deep within Poe and captured the real him. I realized you all had a hard time grasping that he fell in love with his cousins. Both times! Just keep in mind this was late 18 century to early 19 century and it was completely normal to be involved with someone within the same family line. Anyway, that’s another subject. Next week I want to compare modern day literature to ancient literature. See ya all next week”

As class cleared out one of her students pulled her aside. Ashley was just arising from her seat making her way down to the front of the room. A smug smile on her face Julie thought. “Hey Ms. Mathews thanks for the pointers on my paper, they were really helpful. I don’t know what I would have done without your help. Normally my friend Jennifer helps me with all our projects but she wanted to work on it with her new boyfriend and I apologize about disturbing the class earlier.”

Julie looked at Ashley in admiration, lust. Was it obvious? Surely not. Everyone finally seemed to have cleared out of her classroom. She walked around her desk and stood close to Ashley. “I’m sure you will do wonderfully on your next paper, whether you do it alone or with a partner.”

Starring at Julie lips, the fullness of her bottom lip the way it formed every word. Ashley couldn’t remember anything so mouth watering so erotic. Moistening her own lips, she lifted her eyes to meet Julie's beautiful emeralds ones. Julie, looked like she was in her late twenties maybe early thirties. She was beautiful; her olive skin radiated a soft glow. Oh no, she knows, her brain screamed. Ashley felt her heart start to quicken, her breath catching in her chest, her breast rising and falling.

“I must go, I don’t feel so well.”

“What’s wrong sweetie, you do look a little pale.” Julie moved closer to Ashley. She placed a warm hand to Ashley’s cheek. She felt fine, a little flushed, but fine.

She never removed her hand, but only cupped her face even more. Aware of the younger girl’s uneasiness she removed her hand. Before she had her hand back to her side, Ashley grabbed it again and interlocked her fingers with her own. Stepping closer to her, so close she could almost feel her breath on her skin. If she just leaned in she could almost kiss her. Ashley tried to read the expression on Julie's face, but it was masked by something she wasn’t sure she’d ever seen. It looked a bit like heat, passion, maybe anger. Oh she didn’t know, Julie pulled Ashley so close to her that their breasts, pelvis and thighs touched. Ashley’s breath became very ragged. Her heart pounding against her ribs. She never felt like this before, never turned on so much where she’d feel like she was about to die if she didn’t act now.

Ashley leaned in and cupped Julie's face, leaned in just enough where Julie reacted and met her the rest of the way. Lips meeting for the first time, soft, gentle, teasing, tasting. Ashley’s head started to spin, she wasn’t sure what she was doing or how to do it. Yet it felt so natural so right.

Julie didn’t know what exactly she was thinking doing this on campus, she must be out of her mind. Her career was at stake. She stepped back and pulled Ashley to an arms length. “Ashley listen, this cant happen…”

“I am so sorry ms mathews I don’t know what came over me, I didn’t mean… I don’t understand… I am so sorry, I don’t know what happened.” she started to shake her eyes filling with tears, her world was coming down, the ground was slipping from beneath her feet. What was she to do.

Julie, pulled Ashley close, and comforted her “please sweetie, don’t be ashamed, its okay, I was going to say that I couldn’t do this here on campus, that maybe we should get together this weekend and discuss it over dinner?”

With a little reassurance, they both agreed to have dinner the next night at Julie’s apartment. Ashley left the classroom, knees weak, a little scared yet very much anticipating the best to come.

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“Hold on, ill be there in just a sec” Julie rushed to the door. The door flying open, Ashley stood there, dressed in jeans, and a little grey tee hair loose, and sneakers. She looked adorable she thought. “come in Ashley make yourself comfortable, did you find the place okay?

“yes, you gave great directions.” The younger girl took in the sight of Julie’s attire. Khaki shorts and a white linen shirt, and a towel in one hand. “I’ll be done with dinner in just a minute. Can I interest you in some wine?”

A few moments later, Julie emerged from the kitchen with two wine glasses and a bottle of wine. She poured them both a glass. Julie sat on the couch and Ashley followed. Conversation flowed rather easily. They talked about what they both did over the summer break, and how Ashley enjoyed her first semester at University of North Texas. “since moving to Dallas, I don’t get to see my family much, but I do enjoy it here, I mean look at it, its beautiful… so what are we having for dinner?”

Julie laughed, and sat her wine glass down onto the coffee table. Listening intently as Ashley absent mindedly babbled on, Julie pushed back a lock of hair that fell over Ashley’s forehead. The room fell quiet, and all Ashley could hear was the sound of her own breath.

Before she was aware of what she was doing, she literally threw herself at Julie. “hey there sweetie, “Julie sighed heavily. “dinner is about ready, we have all night.”

Now shy, Ashley sat quietly on the couch as Julie attended to dinner. She continued to go over in her head why am I here, what am I doing? Does she know how I feel? What am I going to do?

Dinner went smoothly light conversation, getting to know one another. “So, tell me Ashley, how long have you been questioning your sexuality?” there it was there was the million dollar question. “Well, honestly Julie, I don’t know, I never really thought about it, it was normal for me, to always find girls attractive, its just I never acted upon it, so I pushed it aside, its just now more recently that my desires are stronger, where I just cant ignore them anymore, and I don’t know what to do.”

Julie stood up and took both their plates into the kitchen to the sink, there she stood her back towards the world and just sighed. Ashley followed her in with the salad bowl and sat the dish next to the sink. “Are you okay, you look a little upset, should I go?” Juliee faced Ashley and had this look of pain in her eyes that she couldn’t quiet place but the look vanished just as fast as it appeared.

“Honey, I totally can relate to where your coming from, its just how you handle it. In my profession, I must be careful who I let into my personal life, and whom I share it with. So you must understand… “ the words fell from her mouth and she looked away. She didn’t exactly want to admit it aloud, Ashley knew, why admit it aloud?

Julie grabbed Ashley’s hand and pulled it to her lips kissing her palm gently. Pulling her close Julie realized just how tall Ashley was, only being 5’7 herself , Ashley towered over her by a good inch or so. Instead of feeling intimidated she felt very dominate. Very sexy, very aroused, and very feminine.

Ashley leaned into her and pressed her lips softly to Julie’s. At first very unsure, just teasing and tasting, trying not to make seem to eager. Ashley’s hands found her curve of Julies back and urged her closer, so close she could feel her chest rise and fall every time she breathed. The sensation of her breast pressed against her own skin made her nipples harden, and not wearing a bra it was very visible. Julie reached under Ashley’s shirt and slid her hands up her rib cage. Feeling her hot slick skin beneath the shirt, and the swell of her breast only increased and urge of desire she had been hiding for so long. The kiss deepened more passionately, harder, faster. And hands begun to explore every inch that they possible could standing in the small kitchen. “lets move this some where we can be more comfortable, somewhere I can see all of you.” Julie moaned. Ashley just obliged.

Still clinging on to each other, Julie walked backwards to the bed all the while Ashley was in tow, her shirt coming off, her shoes, starting to unbutton her pants, Julie stopped her. “wait, baby, I wanna get you in bed and undress you myself.”

The moonlight streaked through the window, leaving the room feeling very stylish, very feminine and very seductive. The slay like bed with the white Lenin spread looked so inviting. Ashley sat on the edge of the bed as Julie lit a few candles. No words were exchanged, just the mutual hunger that both women radiated filled the room.

Julie moved to the bed pushing Ashley back down onto the mattress as she climbed on top of her. Looking at her bare chest and erect nipples, Julie leaned down and took one nipple into her mouth and suckled playfully, as she found the other nipple with her hand and teased the harden bud with her thumb and forefinger. Ashley started to moan in pleasure, her body shaking. Julie trailed her tongue along the side of Ashley’s neck to her collar bone and back to her mouth. They kissed so hard it was almost earth shattering. Never before had Julie felt such a need to posess someone, yarn for someone.

Ashley’s senses over powering her, she became aware of every movement, every smell. Every feeling in her soul awaking every nerve ending in her body screaming to be touched. She wanted to explore this, she wanted to know what it felt like to have her hands running along the curves of this woman, she wanted to know what it felt like to her kiss body, what she would taste like, she wanted to hear her moan.

Ashley then sat up catching Julie's hands and placing them behind her, rolling her over unto her back. Julie laughed, “playful are we?” Ashley started to tear off her own clothes and wanted to help Julie out of hers Julie beat her to it she already had her own clothes off. They both layed in the bed together, both breathing heavenly both inching closer and closer to one another. Ashley about spoke when her words were caught inside of Julie's mouth. Completely naked, completely vulnerable, with nothing between them. Julie, kissed Ashley’s nape, as her hand reached for her breast massaging, then reaching towards her flat stomach, around her belly button. Over her thighs, reaching inside, encouraging Ashley to spread her thighs and she does so willingly. Tracing her fingers on her inner thigh, Julie feels the muscles beneath her fingers quiver. The heat radiated from her pussy, she felt the moist slickness of her. One more moment of this torture and Ashley was going into go over the edge. “touch me” she pleaded. Julie drove her finger deep inside her, filling her at first exploring her inner depth, slowly moving her finger in and out of her tight pussy. Ashley archied her back trying to reach for Julie, but Julie didn’t budge she wanted to send this girl over the edge, make her experience something her never felt before. Moving lower on the bed, and kneeling between her thighs, Ashley opened up even more for Julie as she layed between her legs. Kissing up her inner thighs while still inside her very slick pussy, pumping slowly but with force. Driving her to near insanity, Julies tongue found its way to the swollen hard little bud. She was so erect, she could feel the pressure of her clit on her tongue, lavishing away passionately. Ashley started to clentch onto the sheets bucking her hips wildly. Grinding her pussy into Julie’s tongue, Julie, grabs Ashley’s hips with both of her hands on each side and steadies her, driving her tongue into her deep hot wet hole.

On the verge of explosion Julie slides up Ashley’s body and kisses her, making her taste her own love making. This sending her into oblivion, a higher surge of ecstasy Ashley feeling ravished, feeling giving, she wanted to return the pleasure this woman gave her, was giving her just by the way she looked at her. Ashley kissed lightly down Julies neck. “turn around baby, I wanna try something” obligingly she did, she turned onto her stomach. Sliding her tongue down her spine, 0nly to replace it with hot kisses leaving a trail of burning fire behind. Ashley than slide between Julie's legs, hovering over her, pressing her entire body along her, stomach to back, pussy, to ass, thigh to thigh, Ashley starts to grind her pussy into the hump of Julie's ass, digging deeper, pressing harder, grinding faster. Her breath caught, she started to scream with pleasure, her body rocked as she climaxed, to her fullest peek, “I’m cummmmmmming” she moaned, “im cumming”

Catching her breath again, she wasn’t finished, she wanted to feel this woman, she just had to get this desire fulfilled, she just had to or she wouldn’t concentrate. Julie still laying on her stomach, Ashley reaches between her thighs and drives a finger deep into her pussy, pumping hard and fast, “fuck me baby, please, I need you” Julie cried, her moans captured in the pillow. Ashley pumped her finger harder and deeper into her sweet smelling pussy, while her other hand reach underneath her to play with her clit, teasing her, baiting her to an orgasm, she wanted to bring her to orgasm, she never wanted to make anyone feel as good as she wanted to make Julie feel. And she would do everything and anything she had to, to make it happen. Sliding down Julies, legs, she spread apart her thighs further, her tongue urging its way up replacing her fingers with her tongue. Julie's head started to spin, never before had sex felt this way, so intense so right. Her mind wandered and in moments she was cumming hard into Ashley’s mouth.

Out of breath, laying entangled into each others arms not uttering a word and feeling content, they drifted off to sleep.

Standing in the kitchen the morning after, Julie was preparing her usual caffeine fix, as Ashley shuffled in with a smile on her lips. Julie offered her a cup of coffee, but disregarded it and asked for some orange juice. “Good Morning beautiful.” Julie said looking over the rim of her mug.

“Good Morning Professor” Ashley jokingly whispered . A little taken back by Ashleys choice of words, Julie tensed up and turned her back. Regretting what has happened. Ashley sensing that her silly joke wasn’t as funny as she thought. “Im sorry Julie, I was just kidding, I would never do or say anything to jeopardize your career.”

Turning slowly leaning against the counter, Julie looked behind Ashley with a bleak look starring at the time clock hanging above the door way. There was no emotion, no hint as to how Julie was feeling. There was a look of fear, a look of regret. This was not the way Ashley had meant for things to turn out. This was a vast step for Ashley and she was grateful for a woman like Julie to be the one to show her. She was caring, adoring, intelligent, beautiful to the point you would have to be blind not to notice her stunning features.

“Ashley…” the words fell from Julies lips. “ I don’t know if what we did… I-I don’t think that this should continue.” she said dejectedly.

Not sure how to respond Ashley turned on her heels grabbed her shoes and walked out the front door without so much as a good bye.

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“Where the hell have you been?” Jennifer accused with a worried glance as she was coming out of her dorm room “ I have been trying to reach you on your cell phone all night, I thought something happened to you. Why didn’t you call me? Whats wrong Ashley you look terrible, are you coming down with something?” Concerned she approached her friend placing a hand over her shoulder.

“Jennifer, I just want to take a shower right now, I will call you later.” Avoiding to meet Jennifer’s stare, Ashley moved past her into her room. With the door closed she allowed her body to fall against the door and slide down until she was sitting with her knees probed up where she cradled her head in her hands and cried. Never before had she experienced such bliss only to have to taken away from her so abruptly. The one time she ever really wanted someone, they didn’t want her. Maybe she wasn’t good at this new lifestyle. Hell, she didn’t know if she was even that comfortable living a lifestyle with another woman. But how could she just pretend that it never happened. It had happened. She was more confused now than she ever was. What do I do now? Standing up, she moved to her bed and fell into a deep sleep.”

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Preparing a lesson plan for the next two weeks and reading reports Julie dropped her pen on the desk when she came across Ashleys paper. Her thoughts had been so haunted with the thought of this girl, her dreams where vivid of their brief affair, yet restless nights spent awake. Ashley’s scent still lingering in the bedroom even after she washed the sheets. Why wasn’t she able to get her out of her mind. Sex, that was what it was. It was because the sex was so intense, and it had been nearly a year since Julie allowed herself to let loose since her ex girlfriend. Yea, that’s what it was. Just sex. Nothing more. Surely she wouldn’t have developed feelings for her student so soon.

Her thoughts interrupted as her 11:30am class came in. The sound of students laughing and remising over their long weekend. Ashley was the one of the last students to walk in. Busying herself with her planner, she just couldn’t bare the thought of looking at the sweet girl. She left Sunday morning hurt, it was obvious. But what was she to do. This was her career she was risking. How dense could she have been to even have allowed a student to enter her life. She must have had a brief moment of insanity. There just wasn’t any logical explanation to her behavior.

“Good morning class, I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend.” Color reaching Julies cheeks with the mere thought of the events of the weekend. Hoping no one noticed she continued. “I hope everyone has had the chance to look over the material of Edgar Allan Poe you all were paired up and were assigned a specific poem or story, what I want you to do this week is to use the context of his words and write your own interpretation of what he is saying.” Class dismissed, Julie clued to her desk, her nose buried in a book. Obviously Julie didn’t see me come in and if she did she’s just ignoring me. Just great. Ashley thought. Just what she needed. Walking down the isle to the front of the room, Ashley dragged her books in tow and was out of the room.

Julie's head raising from her book, that she was trying to read. She had been on the same sentence for the last ten minutes. She noticed when Ashley walked by, her perfume lingering in the air. God, she smelled heavenly. Maybe she would call Ashley tonight and discuss things civilly.

That night as Julie paced her living room she contemplated whether or not to call. She picked up the phone a dozen times if not more, dialed the number but hung up before it rang. Coward she thought to herself. Just picking up the phone, what do you have to lose? Besides your career, she groaned at the thought. Ashley seemed like a straight and narrow kind of girl. She could be trusted. Couldn’t she? Its not like she was going around asking for something to happen, I didn’t ask for this to happen, it just did. Doubt swarming her mind she flopped down on her sofa and started to cry.

It had been so long since she felt alive, so long since she was able to feel comfortable with someone else. Why couldn’t she just have what she wanted. She knew why, she was emotionally scared because of her ex-girlfriend. Not because of love, but because of trust. How do you trust again when you’ve been burned so badly. How do you build a fire to keep warm if you are terrified of the flame?

Crying the last of her tears, Julie came to the notion. Fuck Brooke, fuck the things she did, fuck her I wont let her win. I wont allow her to ruin me, when she already ruined so much. Pushing aside her anger promising that her past would no longer effect her future. She would allow herself happiness at whatever cost. It wouldn’t be fair to herself to keep living a lie or to be unhappy. It was time she started to make a new path for herself, and she would starting now.

Picking up the phone she dialed Ashley’s number. Waiting for an answer, she realized she hadn’t a clue where to start.

“Hello” Ashley answered.

Julie didn’t respond right away, hesitant she bit her bottom lip.

“Hello?” Ashley said again.

“Hello, Ashley it’s Julie, I was wondering if we may talk? Are you busy around 7:30 tonight?”

Ashley a bit stunned at the callers voice at the end of the other line. “uh…”

“Ashley please allow me to explain, I really need to, its not you, and I don’t want you to think I am walking away or regret what has happened.”

Never having been in a situation like this Ashley didn’t know whether to just hang up for how she felt she been treated or except the apology she felt coming on. “sure I will meet you, where?”

Agreeing to meet at a park where there was little activity and able to speak more freely, and not having to worry if someone over heard them.

Ancy and starring at her watch with the big hand leaning towards the six Julie sat on one of the park benches facing a pond. Ashley would be here soon and she would tell her that… Her thoughts being interrupted with the sound of leaves crunching Julie looked up and saw Ashleys form come from the shadows.

A weary smile on Julies face, that wasn’t a good sign Ashley thought to herself. Ignoring the butterflies in her stomach, Ashley approached the bench and took a seat looking Julie square in the eyes and pleaded for some sort of explanation. Julie opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out, her throat closing up and the words falling far from her lips she sat there tongue tied.

“Julie, I know I may be young, and its frowned upon students and teachers being involved but I wouldn’t say or do anything to jeopardize your career. Hell, I don’t know what I am trying to say really, I just know that how I feel is miserable, but being with you that one time is the happiest I have been in a very long time, and Julie I know you feel it too. I can see it in your eyes. I know one day is nothing to go on or why I am so adamant to start some sort of relationship with you. I’m not asking you to sacrifice anything, I just ask that we get to know one another. And if we can’t I guess I will just have to live with that, I just want you to be happy. And I also want to thank you for opening my eyes to the person I really am. Thank you.” Ashley placed a hand over Julie's. Looking down at their joined hands, Ashley couldn’t help but notice just how right their hands fit together.

Raising her head, Julie met Ashley’s gaze. “Drive with me, lets just drive get out of town, look at the stars.” Julie whispered. Grabbing her hand and pulling Ashley to her feet. Walking towards the SUV Ashley wondered why she was agreeing to leave with her, especially after the way she made her feel, she felt a little rejected, than again she was in a very sensitive state. She didn’t know how being a lesbian worked. Just coming to the conclusion she really did want to try and live this particular lifestyle. Lifestyle? What makes this a lifestyle, this isn’t a lifestyle she thought, this is who I am. Not something I am choosing to do, this is the base of my soul. Smiling she gave Julie a little squeeze of reassurance. Approaching the car, Julie unlocked the passenger side door and let Ashley slide into the seat. Settling herself into the car, she started up the engine and headed for the outskirts of Dallas. Driving in silence for a long moment, Ashley turned to Julie as if she were to say something, but nothing came to mind. Reaching over the arm rest Ashley placed her hand on Julies lap, feeling her muscles tense beneath her fingers she started to removed her hand. Before she was able to pull her hand away, Julie grabbed her wrist restraining her from the action, placing her hand higher on her thigh. Startled by the forward message Julie was sending, Ashley straightened her spine and looked forward. The sudden sound of jeans being unzipped Ashley whipped her head around to see Julie had unbuttoned her jeans. Eyes starting to widen and her mouth agape, she just stared, she wanted to do something, she wanted to act on this but was to frighten. Just than did Julie grab her left hand and brought her hand to the front of her jeans, urging her fingers in the elastic of her panties, prying Julies legs apart, she settled one of her legs against the car vent. The car still in motion Ashley looked towards the road, it was a straight way for miles, what the hell, she’d go for it. Sliding her fingers into Julies panties, and finding her swollen clit. A moan escaping Julies lips, had Ashley shivering her body responding to the mere sound of the woman before her. Stimulating her clit with circular motions, lowering down her slit, til she reached the hot core of her centre. Lost in the delirium of everything, the car blazing down the road, the sweet smell of sex lingering in the air. Yet Julie seemed relaxed, very in control. Never taking her eyes off the road. She leaned over and nibbled on Ashleys ear “make me cum baby” Julie moaned.

Guiding her finger up and down in and out of her pussy, paying her clit just enough attention. Ashley turned herself in the seat so that she was able to better access Julies neck with gentle kisses as she teased her wet slick pussy. “I want you to cum on my finger inside of you”

Moaning Julie arched her back as Ashleys finger slide deep inside her, rocking her hips back and forth, as Ashley pumped her finger deeper inside of her. The muscles inside of her pussy started to clench and the warm heavy stream of cum started to seep onto ashleys finger.

Once satisfied, Ashley removed her finger from the woman’s now swollen pussy bringing her finger to her own mouth and tasting the proof of her goal.

“I wanna taste” Julie said. Expecting Ashley to place her finger in her mouth, she was surprised when Ashley brought her finger to her own lips and glossed her cum over her lips like lip balm before she leaned over the console and kissed Julie passionately. Tasting her own cum made Julie want to pull the SUV over and fuck the hell out of this girl. It was just amazing how badly she wanted this woman. She has had woman before, but never like this, never so intensely where she felt she were about to explode if she didn’t possess her now. Pulling off onto a small country road, two miles down the road Julie slowed onto the shoulder of the road before she cut the headlights. Stopping the car, she opened her door, walked around the front of the car to the other side, opening Ashley’s door standing there Julie reached for Ashley’s thighs swinging them around so they were dandling over the side. Urging Ashleys jeans and panties off pulling them down her legs to her ankles exposing her.

Bewildered by what was happening here, right here on the side of the road, but so aroused she just allowed Julie to do as she pleased. Watching as Julie kneeled between Ashley’s spread legs, lifting her thighs just a little and brought her tongue to the tip of Ashley’s clit. Ashley allowed her head to fall back. Oh my god this feels amazing Ashley thought. “finger fuck me while you lick my pussy, baby, I like it” obliging to the request, Ashley allowed the pleasure to sweep her over the edge. Her body rocking as she cried as release.

“mmmmmmm, that was nice” Ashley said hoarsely with her eyes still dark with passion. Leaning forward to graze Julie's cheek, gentle kisses following along the side of her jaw towards her lips. Ashley really was starting to grow fond of Julie, it was obvious. Ashley just didn’t want to be the typical lesbian wanting to jump into the first relationship with the first person that came her way. No she wouldn’t be a stereo-type. She would allow things to happen naturally, no forcing something that may or may not be there.

THERE IS MORE TO THIS STORY BUT I DONT WANT IT ALL OUT THERE!!!!