Fate

"Baby, I love you..so much..! I beg you, please keep strong!"

My Boyfriend, he is slowy.. fading away, into the bright lights of heaven. My boyfriend has developed cancer. He doesn't smoke or do drugs or anything. Why is this happening to him? I am in the hospital right now, with tears...rolling down my cheeks. I bet my eyes are all red by now. From all that crying and sobbing of course.

My Boyfriend looked up at me..with weak eyes. He felt my cheek, and wiped away some of my tears. He whispered, "I love you too, and it's okay."

This is the worst day of my life. The doctors couldn't save him because the cancer he had, was different. That's what the doctors told me. Different.

My Boyfriend handed me this note. He kissed me one last time. And I kissed him back too. He closed his eyes... And his hand now, was lifeless... The one hand I have held when I was walking along the beach with him, was lifeless now.. He let go.

"No..please don't go away. God, please let him stay. Please.. I love him.." I was crying even more now. I burried my head on his stomach, while holding his hand.

I looked at the monitor and it was a flatline..

He has passed away. I cried, and cried. The doctor and nurses came in and said that it was time to go. I didn't want to, so I stayed in place. They had to call security to drag me away. I looked like a mad woman, because I was kicking and screaming wanting to go back to my Boyfriend.

I called to my best gal and told her while crying so much, "He passed away.. Kate. Jesse. I love him so much. I miss him so much right now. I want him with me..."

"What???! Goodness sakes, are you serious? Omgosh, Lirissa i'm so sorry.. Babee come over to my house. I'll comfort you."

"Kate. I'm just... not able to work myself right now. But i'll go over.. I really need somebody to comfort me, and your the perfect person to."

"Okay. See you in a few minutes. Drive safely!" Kate hung up, and I just held my cell to my chest holding it tightly. I got into my car and drove over to Kate's house. I forgot all about the note he gave me.

I rung her doorbell, it was probably 2:30am in the morning. She opened it up, and saw me. She gave this shocked face to me. Hugged me after. I hugged her back.

We went in and she made some hot chocolate for me. It was Christmas Eve. My Boyfriend died of CHRISTMAS EVE.

Kate lives by herself, she doesn't know any of her family members. I asked her why, but she doesn't tell me. And me? I ran away from home. My life was horrible with my parents. Until I met Jesse(BoyFriend). He took care of me. Jesse was..rich? His parents are always out from working. So he let me stay at his place. His parents didn't mind. Infact they liked me very much! I only knew Jesse for a year and a half. 18 months you can say. We were so happy together, until this day. Christmas Eve. He just passed away. Without a reason. Well there was a reason. Cancer, but what cancer. The doctors didn't know, Jesse didn't know. And guess what? NOBODY KNEW!

It's horrible! Somebody you love very much. Just dies with cancer. But you don't know what cancer it is. And they can't be saved.

I remembered I had the note that Jesse gave me. I read it. It read, "Baby, I would like you to listen to this song. I found that is really intertesing. Go on youtube and look up, "All 4 One - Not Ready For Goodbye." Pass it onto others. I hope you like it. Because I do very much. And it's dedeicated to you. I love you. Goodbye.."

I just cried.. and I quickly rushed upto Kate's room and looked up that song. While I was listening to it, I just cried and cried. I miss him so much right now. The song became my favourite song of all. I listened to it everyday. And cried to it everyday. I just love you Jesse. I wish you have never went away. It's not your fault. But it's Fate.