Night of The Darkest Moment

I wake up from the darkest dream to ever have. Millions of thoughts going though my head and it hurts as if the Devil itself was screaming in my ears, covering my ears so hard, my head felt like exploding. The thought to live a life that was full if fear and worries is no life to live. What I long for is a sleep that will last forever and never wake up in a harsh world like this. My body longs for a cure that only God can do but as if right now, it seems like God himself wants me to waste away with Satan So far, Satan is the only friend I have right now along with darkness. As I sit in my cold bed, I hug my knees, just alone and the tears burn as it goes down my cheek. I wish that there would be a better way or a second chance so that life wouldn’t be so harsh and God isn’t bitching at me in this moment. The pain in my gut starts to spread to my chest then to my neck, no sooner will it go to my head and I will scream in pain. I cry myself asleep, before I know it, the pain goes away but I realize that I’m in a world that is worse than my pain. I see that my loved ones are being tortured in front of me over and over again and that I scream as the pain in my heart starts to scream along with me. I wanted to wake up from this madness. I wanted to get away as far as I can but no matter how far I run, I can still hear their screams and I still see the terror in their eyes that my eyes start to burn. Their eyes bleed like my heart and their screams are as loud as mine. I close my eyes tight. I wake up from the darkest dream to ever have. I didn’t understand why this was happening to me. Right at that moment, I didn’t mind dying. I wish that the so-called "Great Man" above can pull out his hand to me and so I can reach out to him. I wanted to grasp on hard and go with him. But that is just a wish. With out God on my side I will die alone, still in pain. Just hoping that one-day the sun will shine on my face and the wind will blow on my back once again.