I won't say I miss him, even though I do. I miss how he used to play with me in the snow and how it used to feel with the metal ring hanging from his lip. I don't want to miss him. I don't want to MISS him. I do want to trust him. I do know he is a trustworthy guy. He has never ever lied to me, like I have to him. He was always there for me. I always believed it when he said he loved me. but now I am not so sure. How can I trust him now? Away at college while I am still here. Alone. But I guess this is how it should feel when you and your one true love are five years apart in age. Distant and different. He IS older then me, but should that change how he feels about me. I guess I have felt this way before, maybe Danielle is right maybe the only reason he "LOVES ME" is because I am easy sex. Maybe.