God works in mysterious way

Today, like everyday, I was in the shower and I was thinking really, really hard about my life, and how I had strayed from God.

 So in the middle of thinking I break down and I started to cry, not just cry tears, but I cried out to God! I told him I felt, well, bad about my sins, and the wonderful thing about is, that earlier all this day Ive  felt like I waas nothing, I didn't matter, not even to God. But as soon as I told everything, I was willing to sacrifice, including me, I feel so pure and clean, like he just wiped me of everything I had ever done!

 It just feels so great to be back in his Holy presence!

My theory is, I was doing wrong things, I cut, I lie, I cheat(not on ppl) and I was back in the habit of taking the Lords name in vain, so I had been dating this girl, and it just didn't feel right, I just wanted to stop but didn't know how.  This morning we broke up. And I want to keep it that way. So I was telling myself to vent my feelings in an E-mail, that would go nowhere, or a blog that would probably never be posted, so I would feel better.

Well, I never did so finally I just, opened myself to God, and it doesn't hurt to think about her, and it doesn't hurt to look at my scars, or say God's name, because I intend to only say his name unless I'm talking to him, I may not hear him, but he's talking to me!

I hope that if you feel this way to, just open yourself to him, he makes you whole again, he changes your life!