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dhA TAlE 0F A hARlEM GiRl PT. 10
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A FEW WEEKS LATER…
Since grandma died, and all D did was spend his time in the streets, I spent most of my time at Laura’s house because I hated being alone all the time.
My birthday was right around the corner and I was excited, but depressed all at the same time… it was mostly because of Grandma. And only if you saw my mother for the funeral. It was sad. But sho was by my side the whole time.
D still didn’t know about me and Sho, and I still didn’t know what the deal was with they beef, but I didn’t care if it interfered with me and Sho’s relationship, because I love him. It seems like things with me and Sho get deeper and deeper by the day. He had me going crazy, and I was sure I had him just as insane as he had me.
One day, Laura and me was sitting in her living room. John and Sho was in the room smoking and chilling, and me and Laura left them in their li’l smoking section. We went in the front room, and watched movies and shit, while they smoked and shit.
“Laura, do y’all have food in this joint???” I asked.
“Yeah, why?”
“Because, I’m like, starving, son.”
“Girl, your big ass… No homo,” she said.
“What you mean?” I asked.
“I mean if you keep eating like you have been doing lately, you gon’ get bigger…”
“So you think I’m fat???? What kind of friend tell they friend they fat???”
“A honest one,” she said. “You not fat Cee. But, girl you getting there…”
“I don’t know… I think I’m depressed. With my mama, my grandma, Greg.. And I’m worried most of all about D running these streets all night and all day…” I said.
“You need to snap out that shit, because you gon’ eat your fucking self into a coma…” she teased…
“Just let me eat!!!” I yelled.
“Go ‘head, raid the fridge…”
I went in the kitchen and looked for something to eat…
“Man, I’m hungry now, son,” I heard John say as him and Sho came from the room.
I peeked at Sho in the living room through the open kitchen.
“Hey, come here you…” Sho commanded.
“YOU? Who is YOU?” I asked as I slowly walked towards him.
“You, that’s who…”
He grabbed me into his arms and gave me a long kiss…
“What you was doing in that kitchen?” he asked.
“Trying to find me something to eat…”
“Yeah, you need to keep that ass fat for me.”
“Stop playing, where y’all was about to go?” I asked.
“Get something to eat.”
“I want to eat, too. Go get some Chinese Take-Out,” I suggested.
“Man, I can’t eat Chinese food, dawg, Chinese food gon’ gimme the flying shits man….” John complained….
“Well, that’s what you want eat Cee?” Sho asked me.
“Yeah,” I replied, politely.
“Oh well man. What my love says, goes…”
“You a li’l pussy man…” John teased.
“C’mon, and lets go get my girl food, she hungry…”
“Laura, you want something to eat?” John asked.
“Yeah, but not no fucking Chinese… get me a hamburger or something John.”
“Aiight…”
“Cee, you sure you want Chinese?” Sho asked.
“Sho, I am starving, just go get my food!” I yelled.
“I’m sorry, bay… damn.”
He slapped me on the ass.
“Oooh, let me tap it,” John played.
Sho gave John a look.
“Nigga, I ought to blow your fucking head off, don’t play with her, son. Let’s go…”
“Sho chill out, hear,” Laura said as they walked out the door.
“Why you told him to chill out?” I asked Laura as I sat down next to her while we watched the movie “Paid in Full”.
“Cause, that nigga must be serious behind his Cee, anytime he tryna blow MY brother head off…”
“He was just playing, Laura,” I pointed out.
“I know, Cee… I just be fucking with him, too…”
“I know, but, they need to hurry up with the food though…” I said.
“What you talking about, they just left…!” she said.
“I know, but I’m soooo hungry Laura. Like really hungry….”
“Oh girl, Sho must’ve… oh- oh…”
“What? Oh-oh What?” I asked.
“Don’t tell me y’all planted a li’l seed already,” she teased.
“What you mean??? how you rocking?” I said.
“Girl…. They said that…”
“What they said?”
“Oh nothing, nothing. I just think maybe, just maybe, you got a li’l flower growing in that garden, if you catch my drift…”
“No, that’s impossible. Don’t you think it’s too soon for me to be getting pregnant Laura???” I asked.
“Bitch, it happen, if you is, you is, if you not, you not…”
“Thank you, Laura. We both just came to that logic understanding that I was hoping for…” I said. “We’ll see though, time will tell.”
“Yeah, believe that. Time will tell… But let me ask you something.”
“What???”
“When the last time you had your period?”
I had to stop and think for a minute.
“I don’t remember…”
“Girl, girl, girl…” she murmured.
“What Laura, what you feel like?” I asked.
“Well. Just be careful, Cee, because I been there before, yea dig, and it ain’t nothing fun, I tell you…”
“Well, if I do get pregnant for Sho, I don’t got anything to worry about, I know he gon’ be there for me..”
“Why y’all don’t be using condoms?” she asked.
“What nigga you know that like to use condoms?”
“Well I use them…”
“That’s because you use the boys you fuck, too.”
“Why not?” she said. “they can’t do shit for me. They probably think of me as a friend with benefits just how I think of them…”
“Well, condoms are important, but, I trust Sho… and I love him. So… I don’t really think about all that, because me and Sho, we more than what we use to be…”
“What he doing for you on your birthday?” she asked.
“Oh, girl… I don’t even think I told Sho yet…”
“So simple minded…” she teased.
“I am not simple minded,” I confronted. “And where all this coming from anyway? Just because I said I was hungry, you gotta make assumptions of me being pregnant and shit! Girl, go ‘head!”
“You ain’t from New Orleans, li’l girl. Stop tryna slang like us!”
“Y’all want be like the NYC soooo bad, so what you mean?”
“Well stop biting our style!” she said.
“No, dear, I ain’t gon’ fuss with you! I’m a New Yorker to the fullest, okay, you li’l down south, southern bell, li’l girl!”
“Shut up, if you know how you sound with that ghetto ass accent…”
“Ghetto???? OH No!!! You didn’t…”
“Alright Cee, let it go, let it go…”
“Okay, I’ma let you slide…” I teased.
“Alright, alright, we good…”
“But I’m not pregnant though.” I added.
“No one said you were, I did throw In a maybe, and now you putting yourself out there.” she said…
“Because! Now since YOU bought it up, you gon have me stressing on that…”
“Don’t stress on it, then, you good…”
“But like, me and Sho do does our thing non-stop… but if you just knew how it felt with him Laura. I can’t resist this dude! The way he touch me and the way he hold me, the way he kiss me… he make me feel soooo good. Like one time, he even a-”
“Uh-Uh, I’m good. I heard what I had to hear…” she interrupted.
“Any other time, you would wanna know…”
“Bitch, I don’t want know about Sho eatin’ you out…”
I looked at Laura.
She was hardly paying attention to me because she was all into the movie.
“Oh, girl, look at Cam’ Ron fine ass!” she exclaimed.
“Girl, and how many times did you see this movie.”
“A lot, but I like Cam, so don’t fuck with him, dear…”
“Cam my cousin,” I lied.
“Bitch, sit down…” she snapped.
“Girl, Cam’ Ron always dip through Harlem and shit. He be all over New York. Him. The whole dip set… all that.”
“Cam ain’t still dip set huh?” she asked.
“Girl. Cam MADE dip set, what you talking about?”
“Well fuck you from New York. And how you think you know? You might be wrong.”
“Maybe so… but, no, I don‘t think he dipset no more.”
“But I like Juelz Santana, too!”
“I know!” I agreed. “He so hot! I saw him in person soooo many times, and he is on fire!”
“I know a boy that I use to go to school with in Philly, that look just like him!”
“Dang girl, how many places did you live since Katrina?” I asked.
“I lived in Baton Rouge, Atlanta, Houston, Philly, Maryland, and now I’m here. I don’t know if we ever moving back to New Orleans, but man, I miss that Melph!”
“Girl, you live and die for New Orleans…”
“Don’t you live and die for Harlem???”
“Oh yes indeed, I do…” I said.
“Well then sweetie, keep in mind that your li’l hubby is from that N.O. aiight?” she said.
“Girl, I know where MY Sho is from…”
“Girl you cuts up like a knife…” she teased.
“Laura, don’t ever say that another day in your life…”
She laughed.
“I’m fo’real though… You love Sho, huh???”
“Soooo much…”
“ So you gon’ tell Sho?” she asked.
“Tell me what?”
Just after she said that, him and John walked in the front door with our food.
“It’s about time!” I yelled.
“Girl, what you talking about. We ain’t been gone thirty minutes…” Sho said.
“But I’m hungry….”
Sho sat next to me on the couch and gave me my food from the take-out bag…
Soon as he put it in my hands, I opened my plate and started eating like a dog.
“Dang, girl, slow down love, I don’t want you to choke…” Sho teased.
I looked up at him with food dropping from my full mouth.
“Hmmm?” I mumbled, unable to talk with my mouth full.
Sho looked at me and burst into laughter…
“Girl, why you eating like that? You starving?”
“Yes, I’m is…” I exaggerated.
“Girl, you the most beautiful thing…” he complimented. “Even when you eating like a pig….”
I looked at Sho and smiled.
“Look, you got fried rice all on your chin,” Laura pointed.
Sho gently wiped it off.
Then he kissed me on the lips.
“Did you buy me a soda?” I asked.
“No…” he answered.
“WHY!” I yelled.
“Damn, bay. You- you didn’t ask me to buy you one…”
I smacked my teeth at him.
“You getting like that over food, your li’l hungry ass,” John teased.
“We got cold drinks,” Laura added.
“Go get me one,” I commanded.
She gave me a look.
“You pregnant!” she whispered in my ear as she walked pass me.
“Just go get my soda!” I snapped.
“Damn, so what’s up with you….” Sho asked.
“Nothing.” I said.
“Why you snapped on me over a cold drink?”
“I’m sorry, I’m just hungry, and… you know I get kind of cranky when I’m hungry.”
“Don’t do that to me, love… you hurted my li’l feelings…”
“I’m sorry, you know I love you Calvin…”
I reached over and kissed him again…
“I love you…” he corrected.
“No, I love you…”
“Damn, Sho son, Cee, you got that nigga going soft, huh?” John said.
“Mind your business…”
“Here Cee…”
Laura came back in the living room and gave me a soda.
“It’s hot-”
Before she could even say what she was about to say, I popped the soda opened and downed it… drinking it in less than a minute. Then I let out a loud ass burp.
Laura, Sho, and John looked at me.
“Excuse you,” Laura confined.
“Ex-cuse m-me.” I said softly…
“Cee, I told you,” Laura said out loud this time.
“Told you what?” Sho asked.
“Nothing, we was just playing around when y’all had left…”
“Sho, you ready now?” John asked.
“Ready for what?”
“We gotta go dip through Fred. Doug Projects right quick, you know we got that thing to do…” he reminded.
“Oh, yeah, I’m coming son, I got you…”
“What you gotta go do?” I asked.
“I gotta go handle some business, you okay with that, huh????” he asked.
“Yeah, I’m good.”
“Long as I’m getting this paper, you ain’t gotta worry about nothing…”
“Okay. You still gon’ be down here, or you going back to Harlem?”
“I’m going back to Harlem later tonight, I got to handle business down there, too. But you know where you could find me at, aiight?”
“Yeah….”
He kissed me on the cheek and got up and left.
“Love you, bay…” he said.
“I love you, too.”
I blew a kiss at him as him and John walked out the door.
“So when you gon’ tell Sho???”
“Tell Sho What?” I played along.
“I don’t care what you say, bitch, I think you pregnant…”
“Laura, no I’m not!”
“Well anyways, what you plan on doing for your birthday?” she asked.
“Well, I just want go out and shit…”
“Who, you and Sho?”
“No,” I said. “Me, you and everybody like we always do. Even Chantal. I could squash shit with her. Long as she don’t take my kindness for weakness.”
“So. What you want do today? It is so boring, and I don’t want be inside all day.” Laura said…
“Well let’s go chill on the court after I eat…”
“Good, I’ma call Kelley and Nadia. Kelley don’t like to come outside no more, so I’m a make her ass come out…”
“You is too silly,” I teased.
“So, go ahead, finish your li’l food, and then let’s roll…”
So after I ate my food, me and Laura left and went to the court where we met Nadia, accompanied by Kelley and some other chick whom I didn’t know….
“Hey, y’all,” we greeted.
“Hey, Cee, hey Laura…” Nadia greeted.
Kelley waved.
“What’s wrong with you?” I asked. “Girl, look at you, you big as a house!”
“I know girl. Being pregnant ain’t no joke,” she said.
“So how far you is now?” I asked.
“About…. 8 weeks.”
“And you really getting big.”
“Girl, watch when I start hitting them months, I’ma be humungous!”
We all let out a laughter.
“Oh, and hey…” I said to the girl I didn’t know.
“Hey,” she replied.
“My name Cee, what’s your name?”
“Samantha.”
“Oh, hey Samantha, who you here with?”
“Oh, you know Arana?” she asked.
“Yeah, that’s my motherfucking son! Why?”
“That’s my brother,” she chuckled. “I’m from New Orleans and I’m up here to see him and my mama for a li’l while.”
“How old you is?” I questioned.
“Twenty-three…” she answered.
I gasped.
“You look like you could be sixteen or seventeen! You look young!”
“I am young! How old you is?”
“Fourteen, going on fifteen on the… Fifteenth of June.”
“And you look like you could be my age! Girlllll, you look like a grown woman… You in good shape though….” she complimented.
“Thank you…. I ain’t know that Arana was from New Orleans for real though,” I admitted…
“Girl, where you thought he was from?” she asked.
“I don’t know, I thought he was from New York.”
“No, we from New Orleans, baby,” she said.
“You know a boy named Sho?” I asked.
“No? Why?”
“Oh, because he from New Orleans. He stay up here.”
“Oh…”
“What part of New Orleans you from?” Laura asked Samantha.
“I’m from the Magnolia.”
“Oh, you is!!!” Laura exclaimed. “I’m from New Orleans too. I’m from the Melph.”
“Oh, you must be from New Orleans, because you the only person that sound normal to me…” she said…
“You know a dude name Yay… he from the Nolia.”
“Yeah, I use to fuck with him….” Samantha said.
“Oh, that’s my cousin.”
“Girl, you lying… I talked to Yay the other day. We still cool. He stay tryna get back with me, but, I ain’t tryna go through all that with him no more, girl. Your cousin a dog. But you said you from the Melph? And you know Yay?”
“Yeah,” Laura answered.
“You know John???” Samantha asked.
“He used to always be with Yay? And he used to fuck with a girl name Danisha?”
“Yeah….”
“That’s my brother.” Laura said.
“Oh, girl. It’s a small ass world. Yay ever be coming up here?” the girl asked.
“No, he scared he might have to catch a plane with his dumb ass….”
“Oh… girl. I’ma be up here for the rest of the summer like a fucking kid. Y’all got some good clubs up here?” she asked.
“Yeah,” I answered. “We got Club 40/40. That’s Jay-Z club, but it’s like all high status and shit. Anyways, we got Club Sample, and we got Big Major… and Club 180.”
“Club 180? Somebody said that was a gay club,” Laura said.
“Girl No! Club 180 is the club where one of the security guards like me…”
“Oh, well I want go out, because, I ain’t the type to stay inside all day.”
“Oh, well I ain’t going out till my birthday,” I said. “But go with Laura and them, they lives for all that…”
“I like y’all. Y’all cool.” Samantha said.
“But anyways, what you gon’ do Cee?” Laura said going back to the ‘I think you pregnant’ discussion…
“Laura, I told you. I am NOT!” I snapped.
“Not what?” Nadia asked.
“She think I’m pregnant Nira…”
“Oh, girl. For Sho? It’s that serious???”
“Yep, very,” Laura added.
“Sho, that’s who you asked me about?” Samantha asked.
I nodded my head…
“Oh, that’s your dude, huh?”
“Yep!” I said.
“Oh… how old he is???”
“Twenty-one…”
“Girl! You is too young for him! You pluck trades that much older than you, alright girl, I ain’t mad at ya…”
“Any ways, Kelley, when you have the baby?” Nadia asked.
“December or January…” she said. “But. Um, back to you Ms. Celicia, I know you bet not be pregnant girl! I’m telling you, it ain’t no joke girl….”
“Listen to Laura if you want, but I’m not pregnant, y’all…” I assured.
“Okay, so Kelley. When you first thought you was pregnant, what sign occurred the most?” Laura asked like she was a fucking doctor.
“Eating. I was eating a lot…”
“Girl, you shoulda saw this hoe, how she was eating at my house… and she be hungry a lot now too, so don’t tell me it ain’t no possibility.”
“You,” Samantha agreed. “I got a li’l girl, and when I was pregnant with her, all I did was eat… that be one of the main signs of pregnancy, for ANYBODY. You start eating a lot. But how long you been like that?” she asked.
“Since my grandma died a few weeks ago.”
“Awe, I’m sorry to hear that… well maybe you might just be depressed or something then…”
“That’s what I be tryna tell, HER!” I said referring to Laura.
“So. I still think you pregnant.”
“No, I am not…..”
“Okay, we will see, like I said earlier…”
“Good, Laura, good…”
All that night, everybody chilled at the court. We got to know more about Samantha and she was cool peeps. We all planned to show her around New York a little more, and we planned to go have a big night out for my birthday, too. My birthday was near, and I wanted to have fun, but I didn’t really want a big party and all that type shit. It was Laura’s idea to throw me a party, and she said she would bribe Sho as much as she can to throw me a party. All I want to do, is go out, and have fun, and that’s about it, but since Laura bought it up, now everybody wants me to have a fucking party!!! I will think about it, though. I haven’t had a party since I was like four years old. [and we all know what that means….]
When everyone started leaving the court, me and Laura left and headed back to her house…
“Say Cee, you going home tonight, huh?” Laura asked.
“Yeah, Sho going back to the Bronx, so I might go home.”
“Oh. You talked to D today?”
“No, I haven’t. I ain’t seen my mama in a minute either. You know how I always be bumping into her and shit… I don’t even see her like that no more. She tripping yo, like for real…”
“You gotta give her time Cee, and if your mama want to get clean, she will, and she gon do what she want, so just, face it.”
“I already know she gon’ do what she want… fuck it, I don’t even care no more,” I said.
But that was a lie. I did care for my mama. That’s why I hated her for being the way she is… she lost herself in the streets, and that shit hurted me. If I didn’t care, I’d be like fuck it, but I do care, and that’s for real.
“Say, son, what time it is?” Laura asked.
I pulled out my cell and saw that it was almost curfew, (we’ve been outside all day), and I had a text message from Sho.
“I got a message from Sho….” I said outloud.
“That’s nice, but… what time is it???”
“Oh, it’s almost curfew. Sho want me to come see him while he in St. Nick because he’s about to get ready to go…”
“Well, make sure you tell him you want a party, hear?” she reminded.
“I’ll think about it…”
“Girl, you need to do that. You know Sho gon’ go head first to make that happen girl…”
“I said I’ma think about it…”
“Okay, but you know if you just tell Sho what you want, he gon give It to you.”
“I know,” I bragged.
“Girl, stop it!” she said.
“You the one who said it… and at least we both know it’s true…”
“That’s what’s up…” she said.
When we got to Laura’s front door, we both went our separate ways.
“Okay Laura, I’ll call you when I get home tonight,” I promised.
“If you go home tonight, knowing y’all, you might go straight to the Bronx with Sho.”
“Soooo what’s your point. Either I do or I don’t…”
“Okay bitch. Just call me.”
“Alright….”
Laura went inside, and I rushed down the hall to Sho’s aunt’s house.
I knocked on the front door, and a lady with her hair neatly in a bun with spiral curls at the front of her hair, answered the door.
She looked as if she was in her late thirties, so I assumed it was Sho’s aunt.
“Hello…” I greeted when she opened the door.
She looked me up and down.
“Well how you doin’,” she responded.
“Um, is Sho- I mean Calvin- here?”
“Yeah, he here… so you must be Cee? Celicia, his girlfriend?” she asked.
“Yes,” I answered pridefully.
“Oh,” she retorted. “He told me you were only 14. But do you know he twenty one?”
“Yes,” I answered.
“He really like you though. You a fine li’l girl. You real pretty. But you is too young. I can’t say nothing though, because Sho is a grown man, and he do what he want, but, I think you a good catch. I might like you…”
“Uh, Thank you…”
“Well, I’m his auntie Shannon, and he up in there in that room, on that damn phone, you can go head…”
“Thank ya,” I said again.
I walked in the house and went to the room where Sho was located.
He was on the bed stretched out on his phone, with one of his hands in his boxers.
“Yeah man, I need to get down there to New Orleans man, it sound like y’all tearing it down, down there man…” I heard him say. “Oh, yeah? Then I really gotta find away. But man, I can’t leave, because, I got my girl up here…. Yeah she from New York… and she something serious homey….”
I heard Sho say that and I smiled as I slowly crept in the room.
“Hey Calvin,” I whispered as I walked over to the bed and sat next to him on the bed.
“Oh, what’s up, love.” he said. “Say, woah. I’ma have to hit you back, aiight son? Aiight, bye…”
He hang up his phone with whoever he was talking to.
“So what’s good with you love. What you did today?” he asked.
“Nothing. Me and Laura just came from the court, and I got your text message so I came to come see you.”
“Oh….”
He sat up on the bed…
“Say, what you and Laura was talking about earlier today???” he questioned.
“Nothing,” I lied. “Just girl talk…”
“Oh, that better be all y’all was talking about.”
“What?”
“You heard me…. Now come here, sit that ass right c’here,” he commanded.
I lifted off the bed and propped down gently on his lap.
I could feel his hardness through his pants the moment I sat down.
“Ugh, Sho…” I teased.
“You know you like that shit, girl….”
“I do…”
He stretched across the bed and pulled me on top of him, and we started kissing.
“Girl, your kisses soooo sweet… I can’t let your lips go…”
He started kissing me rougher than I was kissing him, and then he turned me on my back.
He sucked on my neck and caressed my body…
“Um, Sho,” I spoke up, trying to think of something to make him stop.
I was getting too turned on, and we know what would’ve happened next.
“What’s up?” he asked.
“Did I tell you about my birthday?”
“Your birthday? No? when it is???”
“Oh, um… it’s next week…”
“Damn bay. You should’ve told me that ahead of time.” he said. “What you wanna do for your birthday?” he asked.
“I just really wanted to go out, but Laura and everybody say they think I should have a party…”
“That’s good, I’ll give you a party-”
“-No! I don’t really want one, it’s just that…. They thought I should…”
“Oh,” he said. “Well why you don’t want no party?”
‘I don’t know. The last time I had a party, that was the day my daddy was arrested, and ever since, it just was an awkward memory…”
“Well you know what, you go out with your friends the day before your birthday, and on the day of your birthday, it’s just gon’ be me and you, okay?” he said.
I shook my head and smiled at him innocently.
“Okay…” I replied.
I climbed off of him, and we both sat up on the bed.
“Well, I gotta get back to the Bronx. Hey, you met my auntie, huh?” he asked.
“Yeah… she real… nice,” I said, hesitantly.
Sho let out the most gorgeous chuckle.
“Yeah, she is,” he said, sarcastically. “No, but for real though, she real, ain’t she?”
“Yeah, she had me a li’l shook at first when she opened the door,” I admitted.
Me and Sho laughed.
“I told her everything about you.” he said. “From our age difference, down to the way I feel about you… and my auntie cool with it. She disapproved somewhat, saying shit like I’m wrong, and you too young. And she right, but she respect every decision I make, yea dig?” he explained…
I nodded my head…
“She’s like a mother to you ain’t she?” I asked.
“She much more than that to me. I love that lady… and I love you. That’s why I want you and my auntie to be cool, because I love my auntie with my life. And you… I love you like my pistol,” he quoted, using a line from a Cassidy song.
“I love you too……Calvin.”
He kissed me.
“Well, c’mon, and let me bring you home, so I can go, aiight.”
“Yeah,” I said.
Sho walked over to the bedroom closet, and grabbed something from there.
I didn’t see what it was because he tucked it under his shirt, so I assumed it was a gun.
Afterwards, we got up and left.
“SAY! I’m gone teedie!” Sho called to his aunt in the kitchen.
“Alright baby! Be careful!”
“Alright…”
Then we left…
On the ride to my house, me and Sho didn’t talk much about anything, he just kept asking me shit about my birthday.
“So why don’t you just have the party Cee, love, you know I’d pay for it.”
“I know, I just don’t really want one.”
“Aiight, well I gotta see what we gon’ do for your birthday then. Let’s see… I gotta take you shopping-”
“No you don’t!” I interrupted.
“But I’m gonna… I gotta get you a gift, love, get you geared up and shit… all that!”
“Sho, you are crazy…”
“I like it better when you call me Calvin,” he said.
“What? Why?” I asked.
“I don’t know, maybe it’s just the way you say it… I love the way you say it…”
“No, you probably just being nasty!” I accused.
“Yeah, that, but no. it’s something about how you say it.”
“What?”
“I don’t know, I just love you, and I guess I love everything about you,” he said.
“Okay, Calvin,” I said.
“Hey, you wanna come with me to the Bronx tonight instead of going home. I promise I won’t try nothing with you this time,” he vowed.
“Yeah, I’ll come but I gotta go get me some clothes…”
“No, I think you already got clothes and shit at my house.”
“Well, if I don’t have any, that means that we just could take an extra trip to the mall.”
“Oh yeah?”
“Uh-huh…” I said.
He reached over and kissed me on the lips.
“So, you don’t mind if I gotta make a quick stop somewhere right quick, before I go to the house huh?” he asked.
“No, I don’t, long as you tell me where we going…”
“I Can’t. that’s why I only asked if you’ll be okay with it. But don’t worry, you know I got you, love…” he said.
“Well where are we going Sho?” I asked again.
“Don’t worry about that, love, it’s aiight, just know that I got you…”
“Calvin, you gon’ take me straight home if you don’t tell me where we going at, where are you taking me???”
Ignoring the hell out of me, Sho pulled off and hit the interstate to the Bronx.
Man. I just want Sho to THINK he getting some, and I’m just gon’ play the fuck outta him!!!
I was pissed off that he wouldn’t tell me where he was going, because I started to get nervous, and when I get nervous, please believe, you don’t want none of this, cause I got mad as hell when somebody ticked me off by making me nervous, and that’s what Sho was doing…
We rode in his car in silence with the radio playing a Li’l Wayne song.
“Up in the studio me and my drink, please go, let me be and let me do my thing….”
I never heard that song before, but it was the shit!!!
“Sho, what’s that?” I asked.
“What?”
“That song…”
“Oh, so you got a question about Li’l Wayne, and you wanna talk to a nigga now?” he teased. “But it’s good love… that’s Li’l Wayne and Short Dawg, “Me And My Drink”.”
“Oh, I like it…”
“Yeah… I think that first verse remind me of you. You got service road curves and high way eyes. The road to your soul, led by the road signs…”
I looked at him and smiled.
Me and Sho could never be mad at each other about anything, no matter how big or how small…
When we got in the Bronx, we didn’t go straight to Sho’s house. Instead, Sho pulled up to this old raggedy, abandoned building, surrounded by niggas. Since it was at least almost midnight, and these dudes were outside, I assumed that all of them was dope dealers. I looked at Sho and he looked back at me, knowing I was about to interrogate his ass…
“Sho, what are we doing here?” I asked.
“Just be quiet, aiight?” he said. “And you gon’ be good.”
Then this dude dressed in black came up to my side of the car, scaring the piss out of me.
“Yo!” he called through the window to Sho.
I nearly jumped out my drawers.
“What’s Up?” Sho said.
“You Sho?” the guy asked.
“Yeah….”
“Oh, you looking for Low, he in the back, through the alleyway.” the boy directed.
“Wait…” Sho said.
He went in his waist and handed me the pistol that was tucked in his pants.
“What-”
“Be quiet…. Aiight, you know how to use it?” he asked.
I shook my head.
“Aiight. If I ain’t back in ten minutes, call Rob and them, they already know what the deal is, aiight… and don’t be scared. Don’t talk to none of these niggas either, because I might have to die tonight if they get stupid with you,” he said.
“Alright…”
He kissed me again, then he started up the car.
“Get in the driver’s seat.” he instructed once he got out.
I did as he told me.
Once Sho grabbed another pistol under the passenger’s seat of his car, I watched as he disappeared in the alleyway…
Now I was really scared.
Soon as Sho left, all the boys outside started eyeballing me and shit, and I could hear them whispering to each other, “damn, she a fine bitch,” and that made me much more nervous. But not as nervous as when this dude came up to the car, and actually started talking to me…
“Hey!” he greeted in a manner, trying to startle me.
I glanced over at him, but I didn’t make eye contact.
“Hey,” I responded flatly.
“So what’s your name?” he asked.
I glanced at him again.
“Tammy,” I lied.
“Tammy,” he repeated. “You don’t look like a Tammy to me. You look more like a Candy, or Diamond, or Peaches.”
I looked at him.
“Do I look like a stripper to you or something?” I yelled.
“Naah. Not at all, I just thought you were a prostitute.”
I gave him a look, and pretended as if I would reach for the pistol in my lap at any moment…
“Excuse you?” I said.
“No, shortie, I just wanted to get you to actually look at me,” he admitted.
And when I looked at him, he was actually quite handsome.
He had gorgeous brown eyes, with beautiful eyelashes, and his eyebrows were like two little caterpillars. His complexion was like a honey light brown, and his fade was so neat, that it looked like he was coming fresh out the barber.
“I’m sorry, but I don’t think I should be talking to you.” I said.
“Why?” he asked. “Is he your boyfriend?”
“Yes, he is my boyfriend…”
“Damn. He got a good catch.” he said.
I looked at him and smiled.
“Wow, you’re pretty,” he complimented.
“Are you flirting with me?” I asked.
“Uh…No… No I’m not.” he lied.
“Well it definitely sounds like you are…”
“Well, my name Travis. But they call me Gunner.”
“Okay…”
“And, what’s your name? Your real name?” he asked again.
“Tammy is my name. honestly,” I sounded so truthful, I could’ve won an Oscar.
“Okay, Tammy, it was nice talking to you.”
The boy dropped a piece of paper in the car, then walked off.
I picked the paper up off of the passenger’s seat then looked at it. It was his number.
When he wasn’t looking, I ripped it into pieces.
He was a real handsome dude, and if I woulda accepted his number, he woulda became my biggest temptation, but I couldn’t do that to Sho. No matter how cute this nigga was, I couldn’t do that to him. But damn was he fine.
Moments later, Sho came back with two cereal boxes, and three Wal-Mart bags.
And in my head I’m like, what the fuck… but then, noticing the environment and shit, I knew exactly what that shit was. It was drugs…
He put the shit in the trunk, then came to the drivers side of the car. I climbed back over to the passenger’s side. Sho hopped in the car and we pulled off….
“Did any of them niggas tell you anything when I was gone?” he asked.
At first I wasn’t sure about telling him, but then I figure what the hey.
“Yeah, one of them dudes was tryna flirt with me…”
He looked at me sternly.
“Oh really??? Well what the fuck did he say?”
“Nothing. It was just… stuff.”
“Oh. So what, you want me to turn around. Because I’ll turn this bitch around,” he threatened…
“No, Sho, and stop yelling at me like that, what’s your fucking problem?!”
“Nothing Cee… I just really don’t wanna have to hurt a nigga behind you, because I love you… so let’s just pretend that it ain’t happen, aiight?”
“Okay…”
Sho and me made one more stop and then we got something to eat from Wendy’s.
After that, we finally went home, to Sho’s house that is. I didn’t have to worry about D because either he wasn’t home either, or he would assume I was at Laura’s or something.
When we got inside, Sho put on a movie, and then we sat down and ate.
Soon as I unwrapped my burger, I took a bite sooo big, that it left me with a half- sandwich left…
“Damn, Cee… what you still smoking tree’s? what the hell got you eating like that love?”
Sho looked at me and laughed.
“I’m just hungry.” I said.
“Love, love , love… You giving me ideas.” he said.
“Ideas like what?” I asked.
“Like…..” he paused. “Never mind.”
“No, what?” I asked.
“Nothing, we wouldn’t want that anyway, you much too young to have that happen.”
“What Sho?”
“Getting pregnant and shit…” he finally said.
“No… I’m not. I had my period every month since we got intimate. So I know I’m not pregnant.” I lied.
I missed my period two months straight since me and Sho been doing it.
“That’s aiight, just finish eating.”
I continued to eat and then once I was finished, I was ready for bed.
I went and took a bath, and then I got in the bed in one of Sho’s t-shirts (no bra, and so much cologne that smelled so good it drove me crazy), and a pair of his boxers (no panties…). After I took my quick li’l shower, Sho went and took one, leaving me in the room alone for almost an hour…
When he finally got out, he got right in the bed, and started kissing me on the neck and shit, but I pushed him away.
“Remember what you said if I agreed to come over here?” I reminded.
“What, I can’t even kiss you?” he asked.
“No, because you go further than just a kiss…”
“Well, can I at least have my dessert since I can’t fuck?”
“What????”
He lied me on my back and climbed on top of me, and then he pulled his boxers off of me. I looked down at him as he licked my naval.
“What is you doing?”
But I knew what he was doing…
He looked up at me as he kissed me on the stomach. Then he ate me.
“You taste so sweet…” he whispered to me.
“Go back down.”
“What?” he said.
He came back up and looked me in the eyes.
“Go back down…”
He kissed me on the neck…
“You like that?” he asked.
I shook my head.
“Go back down…” I begged.
He looked at me and smiled, then he went back down.
“I love you, girl. I don’t know what I’d do if I lose this pussy…” he said.
I looked down at him and laughed.
He looked up at me and smiled.
“I love you, too Sho,” I managed to say without sounding like an orgasm.
But it wasn’t my fault that it felt so good…
Sho went at it on me for a while, and it felt sooo good; even though I knew that I climaxed more than a few times…
“Dang…” Sho whispered in my ear once he finally stopped. “if only you could see the expressions you make…” he said. “That shit turn me on…”
I couldn’t say nothing, because I was drenched, and tired; ready to go to sleep.
“I love you Sho,” I said before I dosed off.
“I love you, too…”
The next day when I woke up, Sho was already woke, and fully dressed.
“What you doing up Sho?” I asked.
“Girl, look at that clock…” he said.
I looked over at the clock on the night stand and it was 11:30 in the a.m.
“Why you let me sleep so late?”
“You looked tired. And I wanted to watch you while you slept.” he teased.
“You psycho…”
I through a pillow at him, then lied down, trying to go back to sleep.
“Get up, love. I can’t be letting you sleep like that. You need your beauty rest, but get up right now….”
“I’m not ready to get up yet,” I whined.
“Come on, get up, aiight. You want something to eat?”
“Yeah,” I answered in a heartbeat.
“Aiight, go take a shower, and I’ma go find you something to eat.”
“Sho…. I don’t want no fast food.”
He looked at me and laughed.
“Well what you gonna eat?” he asked. “I can’t cook, you can’t cook. Unless you wanna go out and eat again…”
“Yeah, but. Let’s just go to Applebee’s or something,” I suggested.
“Alright, well get up, and go clean yourself up and shit, then we can do that.” he agreed.
I jumped out the bed like a child and ran to the bathroom.
“Wait, Sho! I thought you said I had clothes over here!” I yelled from the bathroom.
“You do!” he said.
I came form the bathroom.
“Where?” I asked.
He pointed at his bed and a pile of my clothes were there.
I looked at him.
“What, you thought I was lying when I said you had clothes over here?”
“Yeah, I did. Maybe you would want me to walk around naked or something all day.” I said…
“Oh, don’t tease me like that… go head and take a shower…”
I did as he said, and took a good li’l shower, then we left.
We went to Applebee’s like I wanted.
“So, what you want?” he asked me looking at the menu. “This shit cheap, that’s good.”
“Yeah, I want this… shrimp patties and fries, with onion rings, instead of coleslaw, and I want dessert, too!”
“Damn, Cee, you gotta get food to eat first,” he said.
“My bad…” I said.
“That’s alright, you get what you want. It ain’t no problem, and you already know that, love…” he said.
“Are y’all ready to order?” the waitress asked.
“Yeah, um, let me get the steak, with the mashed potatoes, and peas,” Sho ordered.
“How would you like your steak?”
“Oh, I want it well done,” Sho said.
“And me, let me get the shrimps with the fries. It originally comes with coleslaw, but instead of coleslaw, may I have onion rings?” I said.
“Okay, is that it?”
“Yes, for now,” I said.
“Okay then… you need more to drink?” the waitress asked me.
“Oh, yes, sprite please…”
She took my cup with her, and then went to place our orders.
“So, what you gon’ get for dessert?” Sho asked.
“I don’t know… probably this, look at that cake and ice cream. Chocolate fudge cake with rich homemade vanilla ice cream. Dang, I want that!” I said.
“Aiight, chill out, girl. Dang.” he teased.
“Sorry for being greedy.”
“Naah, don’t apologize for that, just be you, that’s all I want you to do with me.” he said.
“I know… So, what you gon get for dessert? That cheesecake stuff look good, too.”
“I already know what I’ma get for dessert…”
“What?” I asked.
“You,” he said.
I looked at him and smiled….
“Oh, don’t think it’s a joke girl, you know…”
“Anyway… before you start talking about all that, I need to ask you something.”
“Go ahead.” he said.
“What’s up with you and my brother?” I asked.
“Look, I ain’t got nothing against your brother. And whatever you heard about us beefing, that shit was a big misunderstanding. I don’t even know dude. I didn’t know him till I found out he was your brother. Now how he expect that I want beef with him, I don’t know. But I ain’t got shit against him, and that’s my word,” he explained.
“Well, I still don’t know what he gon’ think about us Sho…”
“What? Wait, how old is your brother?” he asked.
“Eighteen.”
“And I’m what, twenty one. What the fuck can he possibly do bout me?”
“Calvin, don’t do that. Stop all that. You tryna sound like a peace maker, when it really sound like you tryna start shit on the slick side. Don’t do that, Sho.”
“I’m being honest, Celicia. That’s all I’m doing,” he said.
“Well, they need to hurry up with my food, because I’m starving…”
I took a sip of my soda.
Sho stared at me as I drank it down.
“What?” I asked.
“Nothing…” he said. “I’m just thinking about some stuff… You know that if you ever get pregnant for me, you’ll be having my first child?” he said.
“I’m glad to hear that, but, what made you tell me that outta the blue like this?” I asked.
“Because, I want you to get pregnant for me. You have my child, I’ma marry you, and we gon’ be together forever…”
“Sho you crazy.” I said.
“I’m serious,” he applied.
“Yeah, I believe you too…”
Just then, the waitress arrived with our food.
“Here you go,” she said.
As soon as she placed my food in front of me, I stuffed an onion ring in my mouth and burned all my fucking tongue.
“Oh, it’s hot!” I exclaimed.
“Oh, are you okay?” the waitress asked.
“Yes, but, can I have a refill please?” I said.
I took my straw out of my cup, then handed the cup to her.
“What were you drinking, ma’am?”
“Sprite….”
“Okay.”
She walked off.
“Girl. What’s up with that?” Sho asked.
“With what?” I asked still tryna eat the hot ass food.
“Nothing, man…”
“No tell me.” I begged.
“You starting to act it, that’s all I’m saying.”
“Starting to act what?”
“Never mind, love.”
I ignored the fact that Sho didn’t tell me, but I knew he probably thought I was pregnant, too… Maybe I am, but, I know that I just can’t be.
After we ate at Applebee’s, Sho bought me home. D was not there and it was no longer a surprise to me. He’s never home, like I said before. But since he wasn’t there, I most certainly wasn’t gon’ be inside by myself.
I called Laura to see what she was doing.
“Hello?” she answered.
“Hey Laura, what you doing?”
“Nothing, I’m at the court, chilling with Nadia and Samantha and Kelley.”
“All y’all at the basketball court?” I asked.
“Yeah…” she said.
“Oh, well um, I’ma come around there then.”
You want us to come meet you?”
“Yes, please…”
“Alright, bye…”
CLiCK!
Once I hang up with her, I decided to change clothes, then I left.
Halfway up the block before I reached the basketball court, I met Laura and everybody halfway there…. It was her, Nadia, Samantha, and Kelley.
I was kind of surprised to see Kelley because ever since she was pregnant, she just never came outside. Laura really, literally forced her to come outside now.
“Hey y’all,” I greeted.
“Hey Cee, where you been?” Laura asked.
“By Sho…. That’s it…”
“Well did you even tell dude about the party?”
“No Laura because thanks to you, I got a lot more to worry about than a fucking party…”
“Like what?” she asked.
“I’ll tell you later when we go to your house….”
“Why you can’t tell me now?”
“Because there’s ears… no offense to any of y’all though…” I said.
But I was specifically talking about Samantha because anything I had to share with Laura, I’d share with Kelley and Nadia.
“Well I don’t know what to say right now Cee, so maybe we could talk about this later…” she said…
When we got to the basketball court, all of us just sat on a bench and chilled.
Me I didn’t say much because I wasn’t feeling too good, and I just had a constant urge to eat, with a feeling in my stomach that seemed like it was forcing me to puke.
“Cee, what’s wrong?” Nadia finally asked.
“Nothing, it’s just that… my stomach hurt…”
“Hmmm…” Laura mumbled, staring at me from the corner of her eye.
“Laura, just let it go… I’m not pregnant…”
“0h, so that’s what’s wrong, you still stressing because you think you pregnant…” Nadia said….
“Look, it’s not my fault! Laura’s the one who kept SAYING the shit!!!!” I accused.
“Oh, so its my fault????” she yelled.
“Yeah, you wishing bad luck on me!!!”
“Baby, I ain’t got no dick. I ain’t the one who knocked you up okay, I only assumed you was, nigga ain’t wishing no bad luck on you! You act like you is, so I was only saying!!!”
“Well say no more! Please say no more!”
“You know what Cee, you coming to my house tonight, and we gon’ see… we gon go to the store and buy a pregnancy test, and you gon take it…” Laura instructed.
“I’m not pregnant, but, I’ll do it to make sure…”
Then in the middle of our conversation, Rob and Brandon came up to us and approached me…..
“What’s up, y’all…. Hey Celicia. Hey, you saw Sho today?” Rob asked.
“I was with him… but I don’t know where he at now. He around though…”
“Well I wanted to ask him if he wanted to hit the club tonight. You know they got a party at Club Sample tonight???” he asked.
“No, I didn’t know…”
“Y’all wanna go?”
“Fucking Right!” Laura said.
“I’m going…” Nadia said.
“I’ma pass,” said Kelley.
“I’m not sure yet…” I responded last.
“0h well chances are that if you don’t go, then Sho might end up not going neither….”
“Well, Laura, come walk me home real quick, I really don’t feel good right now. It feel like, like I gotta throw up like…” I said.
“Yeah, we can go if you want… you want stop at the store too?” she asked.
“Yeah, we could do that…” I said.
“Alright y’all, I’ma see y’all later…”
We both got up and left…
On our way to the store, Sho was walking up the street heading to the court where we were leaving…
“Hey bay, where you finna go?” he asked pulling my arm.
“I’m finna go with Laura to the store, and then we going to her house…” I said.
“Oh, you coming back out?”
“I don’t know…. And Rob was looking for you too, Sho…”
“Alright love. I’ma come see you later, okay?”
“Alright..”
He kissed me on the forehead then we both walked off.
“So Laura…this situation that I’m in…. what if I am pregnant? How am I gonna tell D???? D don’t know about Sho and me! And he definitely don’t know I’m having sex, so imagine when he does find out I’m pregnant- if I’m pregnant…”
“Well these tests we finna get, there not always accurate, but, we gon’ see…”
Laura and I went in the store and bought the pregnancy test.
Then we went to her house…
“Do you wanna take it now?” she asked when we got there.
“No, I’m hungry…”
“Well you know my mama back home now, but she at work. She made some pork and beans if you want some of that…”
“Yeah! Fix me some please….” I begged.
“Alright, lord…and you can fix your own anyway!!!”
“Just fix it for me, please?”
“Okay…”
While she was in the kitchen fixing my food, I picked up the box that the pregnancy test was in and read it. I read the directions and it just fucked my whole head up… I read it again, just to make sure that I read it correctly…
“Laura?” I said. “I gotta pee on this thing?”
“Yeah, what you think you gotta do to it, stick it underneath your tongue?”
“Stop playing with me!” I yelled.
“I’m sayin’ though! That’s enough food for you?” she asked showing me my plate.
“Yeah that’s enough…”
She got me a soda out of the refrigerator and gave it to me with my food.
“Didn’t you just eat at Applebee’s?” she asked. “And you hungry again…”
“So what… you the one who claim that I’m pregnant, ain’t eating a symptom?”
“I guess I don’t know… but after you eat, we gon’ take the test… well you gon’ take the test…”
“I’m scared though…” I admitted.
Because what if I am pregnant? How am I suppose to explain myself?
What will D say? What will he do? What will I do?
Because I know I can’t take care of a baby.
And my brother’s hardly home anymore.
I don’t have no family to turn to. All I really had was Sho.
Mama’s lost in the streets, and my daddy’s still in jail…
“Laura… would you tell D for me? If I am pregnant?” I asked.
“Why you can’t tell him…?”
“Because Laura, how I’ma explain myself. You know Sho and him was suppose to be beefin’, and I’m too young anyways… but what I’ma say? And D hardly around anymore, so what can he do?”
“Cee, we don’t know for a fact that you really pregnant…” she said.
“I could be…”
“How you know?” she asked.
“Because… I missed my period two months straight, since me and Sho been even doing it…” I admitted…
“Dang… Well he need to be the first you tell.”
“But the age difference Laura, that’s gon’ really eat D up…. I’m fifteen… and Sho twenty one…. Do the math, Melph…”
Thinking of all the shit going on in my head made me lose my appetite, and I was just ready to get down to business…
“I’m not even much hungry no more, I’m ready Laura, gimme the test tube thing…”
She handed me the box and I went in the bathroom…
We had to wait a few minutes before the thing actually revealed what the results was. But the results wasn’t pretty. It had me sitting on the couch with my head down in shame and tears in my eyes…
“Laura…. Noooooo, it can’t be right Laura…. It can’t be right.” I whined.
“They not always accurate, Cee, don’t worry about it… it’s gonna be okay…”
“No Laura…. I can’t be pregnant. You don’t understand….”
“I do understand, Cee. I been there, and I know what it’s like…”
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Please Login to post comments| On July 21st 2008 PorshaS Said : | |
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| On July 18th 2008 coreyswifey88 Said : | |
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| On July 8th 2008 crankdatshit94 Said : | |
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