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Losing A Best Friend
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 Created on 6-30-07
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The last time I seen my cousin I was 13. I still remember that beautiful smile of hers. It was her, my aunt, and me riding to Rite-Aid. She cut off a car and scared my aunt, then she looked back and let out a giggle. I couldn't help but to laugh. That was the last day I saw her smile; the last day I heard her giggle.
The day I learned the news about her accident I didn't know how to respond. My mom was the one to inform me. I had no words I didn't even know what to think. My mom woke me up and told me that April was still alive but it wasn't looking too good and she had lost the baby immediately after the wreck. Come to find out the baby was floating in a pool of blood in her stomach because the womb had busted open.
For two days April clung to her life before we learned that she was brain dead. I still didn't cry.. I still couldn't believe what I was hearing. How could my best friend die? Why would God take away the only person who understood me? WHY?! I became angry..frustrated..and utterly alone.
I never cried at her funeral. She was swollen from the wreck and baby Jeremy was lying in her arms in the casket. He looked so peaceful. He looked like her when she was a baby and he had Jeremy's (his dad's) dark, black hair. I remember wishing that I could've held him. Everybody around me was crying. So many people crying..but not me. What was wrong with me?!
Everybody was taking turns approaching the casket. When it was my turn I wanted to scream and curse the heavens above. Why did it have to be her? She was just getting her life together! She was so excited about the baby. "I almost have my baby's room finished," I remembered her telling me the last day I seen her. Two weeks before the baby was due, and then this happened. WHY?! I was despret for an answer.
It had been two months and I still hadn't cried over my cousin's death. Not until the day I listened to an old song that April and I use to listen to; Hero by Mariah Carey. I repeated it over and over recalling past memories with her until I just exploded with tears. I tried to hide it but my eyes were too blood-shot. My mother came in and seen me and she hugged me telling me it was going to be okay. I asked her why this had to happen. She didn't know what to tell me. She just cried with me.
It's been 5 years now since she's passed away. I think about her everyday. I still cry over her death sometimes late at night when remembering the past and I still get angry occasionally when things go bad and she's not there anymore for me to talk to. She was the ONLY person that I could trust. I've wrote poems trying to express my pain but it's no use. No words can describe my pain. Nor is there a cure. I've lost my best friend; my sister; my cousin. Everyday I'm reminded of her. I'll hear a song on the radio and I tell myself, "April would have loved this song," and I'll imagine her and me dancing and goofing off like old times. I look at my daughter and I cry because my cousin never got to see her and I never got to watch Jeremy grow up. I get upset when I think about her not being able to meet my boyfriend to say whether she approves of him or not because I always wanted to impress her. I wanted her to be my bride's maid. She was my role model; the strongest person I knew. She was my hero and now she is gone forever...
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Please Login to post comments| On June 30th 2007 wolfsheba Said : | |
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sad....sorry
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| On June 30th 2007 MyTigga Said : | |
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baby, this is so sad...i'm sorry this had to happen to you....i love you |
