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Tragedy
Tragedy
 Created on 3-19-07
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I was a 15 year old sophomore at E.C. Glass High School. Being a honors student in advanced classes. I had a great school life but a bad home life. When I was in school I was a different person. I was outgoing and always spoke what was on my mind. At home I would lock myself in my room away from everyone. I blared my music to drown out the yelling. I spent as much time as possible away from home. I was usually with my best friend, Sarah. She was someone I could just go to and talk. Well one day she introduced me to her friend Beau. He was a tall, skinny boy, He had long, black hair. Beau always wore the same converses and a different band tee everyday. We became friends in no time. Every night we talked on the internet. Each night out conversations became deeper. We began talking about our pasts. Soon we realized how much we had in common and this brought us closer. I had only known him for a few months but it seemed like I had known him for a really long time. Times started to get tough for both of us. We were both having relationship problems. The girl Beau liked screwed him over and my bf and I were about to break up. It got even harder when a girl named Lily can up and told me a rumor that Beau was saying things about me. And stupid me believed her. I became so furious with Beau. I couldn’t believe he did such a thing. Our conversations on the internet slowly ended. We didn’t talk for a week. Then I got a phone call from Sarah on January 15,2007. She told me Beau was dead. That he had shoot himself. I didn’t believe her at first. Then it hit me. I started crying hysterically. It got so bad I couldnt breath. Sarah had to calm me down. So I got off the phone with Sarah and told my dad what happened. His reaction was, "Oh shit!" He called my mom while I waited for Sarah to come get me. My mom had been out of town that day at my uncles which made things kind of worse. Sarah and I went to Lilys house. I was still in shock. I sat there thinking,"This cant be real." I finally broke out in tears and kept saying," I never said sorry for being mad at him because of the rumor." I blamed the whole thing on myself. If only I hadn’t gotten mad at him and we would have been talking and everything would of been ok. I didn’t go to school that week. The funeral was that weekend. I was unable to attend it. It was just to hard for me. The next week we had exams. I had a hard time concentrating and I ended up failing a few of them. School became so hard for me. I began failing classes and just not caring anymore. Just sitting in class was hard for me. It felt like everything around me had disappeared. All I could do was think of Beau. I got so stressed out over my grades. The stress got so bad it started to become a health problem for me. They started sending me to counselors the day I flipped out on my dad. I didn’t like the counselors. They all asked the same thing and didn’t know how I felt. I didn’t like talking to people I don’t know. I had trust issues. They put me on homebound and once I’ve finished the first six weeks I will be home schooled. I have now learned who my true friends are. Some people who said they cared about Beau really didn’t. I still kind of blame myself for the death of Beau. But I am now trying to pull my life back together .If it wasn’t for Sarah or for my boyfriend Michael I don’t think I would be here today. Beau will always be remembered in my heart. I loved him very much and I miss him so much.
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Please Login to post comments| On March 21st 2007 SfjKdsYutE Said : | |
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for awhile I did think I caused his death. But Beau had a really hard life. His childhood wasnt the greatest. What I think caused it was the girl he liked screwin him over and then the fight between me and him. It just got to be too much for him. |
| On March 21st 2007 starblaze88 Said : | |
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this is a sad story did you cause his death do you think? i dont think you did he was probably depressed before you met him you might've been his last hope and i think the fight might've triggered it but you werent the cause
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