Why can't I tell you?

First day I met you, I thought you were super cute! Everyone waws teasing me about you. It wasn't really a big of a deal until I got to know you. You're the sweetest guy I know, i love how you make me smile for no reason. I love how you make everything better. I got to know who you are and I thought you were really a sweet nice guy. After 7 months, I fell for you. How am I suppose to tell you this when you're a really close friend of mine? Everyone keeps telling me that you feel the same way, but I don't know....

I never imagined me falling for you. I mean, well, to tell the truth this is my first time to be falling in love! It sucks because sometimes you're hurting me but I can't tell you. I can't tell you because you don't know how I feel and it wouldn't make sense to you anyway.

I hate how you make me feel like the "girl on the side" where you only come to me for help...or when you're bored. I mean, I know that you see how i feel but you're just not saying anything. EVERYBODY knows. It's hard, hard for me to pretend that I'm okay when you don't even bother to call. And when you do call, you talk to me like.....like you feel the same way. That's why I'm so confused. One day your acting like you like me, the next day I don't even hear from you at all.

If only I could tell you how I feel.

But WHY CAN'T I TELL YOU? WHY?