Beauty Is Thin 16

I almost thought that I had a chance at escaping from Jody remembering, I should've known better of course. She came up to me within the first hour of skating and pulled me aside. Donald was sitting at a table doing some paper work, occasionally chatting with workers at the rink, so it was the perfect chance to talk to him about Richard.

“So...Did you decide you want to talk with Donald?” She asked, I could see the hope in her eyes that I would. I couldn't possibly say no to her...

I sighed, then looked at her, “Yeah, I guess so...”

“Do you want me to go with you?”

“Preferably.” I smiled back.


Two years ago, lying in bed with tears falling down my face as usual, I made a decision. I was going to devote my life to one thing. And no matter what happened. I would always choose that thing over anything else. That “thing” was my devotion to Jody. I had lost friends from the change in my attitude, but through out all of this, I told my self it was for her. I can't recall the day, but one day...I stopped acting. I no longer had to pretend to be dark, because I was. It wasn't a choice, something in me had changed. My complete view on life changed. Everything had this...gray-like cover.

I've thought before, about if I had to the choice to go back...I often think this way when I see groups of friends together, laughing and acting ridiculous. For a quick second I wanted to join them so badly...But the thoughts of that night came back into my mind. It was more than just my promise to be devoted though, it was that I was different then them. I had almost an inability to be happy like them. We saw the world differently, and I just didn't fit into this fake life they held.



“So what should I say to Donald then?” I asked Jody, breaking out from my thoughts of the past as we skated along side towards the table he was at.

“Well, just tell him the stuff Richard has done.” She offered, trying to be as helpful as possible.

For about 3 seconds, thoughts flooded my mind of the 26 times I had asked Richard to leave me alone, only to have him end up talking to me usually five days later. I was prepared.

We skated to the table and sat down in silence, across from Donald. He looked up from his papers, curiosity in his eyes.

“Hey, can I talk to you about Richard?” I asked as silently as possible, so I was positive no one around would hear.

He waited a few seconds before responding, “Go ahead.” He finally replied, setting down all the papers and glancing back and forth between Jody and me.
 
He waited for me to say something, but I froze up, a sudden panic coming over me for some strange reason. Jody was quick to my rescue though.
“She's continued to ask Richard to leave her alone, yet he keeps ignoring these requests and has been making inappropriate comments to her.” Jody explained to him.

“Can you name these comments made?” Donald asked, looking at me this time.

“Well...He said he had this dream about me where we were making out, he told me he wanted to grab my ass, he said he had imagined me as a hooker, he told me Hailey (a 6 year old little girl who was a regular at the rink) would be really hot when she got older, he's told me he liked my friend...Yeah...” I finished, unable to think of any more at the time.

“Didn't he also say that you two could keep a secret relationship?” Jody asked, glancing towards me.

“Oh yeah, he did.” I remembered the conversation with him saying this perfectly. I was also thankful Jody had offered the help in the conversation.

“He's also made plenty of other remarks, and has-” My mind was cut off from what Jody was saying, I stared between them talking. I remembered all the times Richard and I had talked. They were over now...This really was for the best. It's what I wanted. Jody had helped me so much...

“Well I'll defiantly talk to him today then if he comes in.” Donald explained.

Panic shot through me again remembering that today was his birthday, why the hell did they have to talk today... I glanced at Jody as he said this, to see her glancing back. She obviously knew my worries, she nodded her head though in an encouraging way.

“Well again, thank you for telling me about this.” Donald said, leaving me and Jody to skate away.

“Sorry I added in so much stuff, but I wanted to get the point across to him.” Jody added in once we were by ourselves again.

“Oh no problem! Really, I had no idea what to say so that really helped. Thanks so much for all of this Jody. At least things will finally be over for good now...”

But how wrong was I...Things were far from over...