Beauty Is Thin 7

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I've thrown up 4 times now. Unfortunately, every time the effect afterwards dies down. The first time I threw up, I felt amazing afterwards!!! The second time wasn't as amazing, but still eased my mind. I didn't expect this to happen...I thought I would always have the amazing after effect. Just shows my ignorance I suppose...

Friday night though I tried to commit suicide (my 3^rd attempt at it). I had all my letters printed out. There were 23 total. They were for my friends, enemies, and relatives. The letters explained why I had committed suicide. My good bye to them. All the things I appreciated that they did. And what I wanted them to have of mine. There were 4, to my very closest friends, that were unfinished though. They were pages long but I couldn't find how to thank them enough.

I would've got away with the attempt too, if it hadn't have been for the call I had gotten from a friend. I have no idea how she knew something was wrong, but she kept asking how my day went. After the call I simply couldn't do it. I had sighed and settled down on my bathroom floor, tears rolling down my cheeks.

There were four main reasons I couldn't commit suicide. Jody, Mel, Shyla, and Jess. My closest friends. When ever I had the razor pressed to my skin their faces came floating around my head. Making it impossible to complete the task.

But starting today, things are going to change! I've been so happy, and I've been working out non-stop. I almost threw up but convinced myself not to. I hope tomorrow goes as well...

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So? What do you think? Happy I came out with one so quick? ;)

This one's really short, but next one will be better ^___^

So...Comments? ;) <3