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The ride home was silent. Bell knew he kept glancing her way, but she refused to look his way. He started to speak, but said nothing. Bell's eyes still dripped, her heart leaked with pain. Jason stared straight ahead to afraid to try to comfort her. He wanted to lean over and hug her, kiss her, touch her, but he had hurt her. What the fuck was his problem?

''Bell....'' he started. She turned away and stared into the high afternoon sun. ''Are you mad?'' he asked quietly. Bell quickly looked his way, her eyes red and her face flooded with frustration and anger. ''No Jason....!'' She yelled. ''I feel fucking great knowing that you don't love me.'' She strated crying again. Jason could feel himself breaking down inside, he wasn't going to last. He needed his razor.

''Bell please. I just didn't want to do it not knowing...'' ''Please don't remind me.'' she interrupted. ''So what now?'' he asked after a split second of silence. Bell shrugged. ''Take me home Jason.'' she said flatly.

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Bell struggled to undo her seat belt. She slammed the door and stormed to her front door without so much as a goodbye. Jason drove off, the sound of screeching tires filled the air. Bell ran up to her room, ignoring her mother and father. ''Bell, what's wrong....'' She slammed her door before they could finish.

She fell across the bed, and let her tears flow full charge into her sheets. Why had she fallen for him? Why had she lead herself to believe he could be her everything? She had never felt so low down and out of shape. It hurt to breathe, it hurt to think, it hurt to just live. ''Why?'' she asked herself over and over again between choking sobs.

She jumped up and closed her curtains. She didn't want the sun shining in her room, mocking her gloomy mood with it's radiant glows. She shut off her lights and sat heartbroken in the darkness. The dark engulfed her, it surrounded her. ''Why live, why care, why love?'' she thought.

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The buzzing of the alarm clock woke Bell from her sleep. She rolled over to check the time. ''Shit.'' she thought. ''6:30 a.m. and a fucking school day.'' She rolled out of bed, surprised at how dark her room was. The curtains were still closer and the light still switch off. She reached over and pulled the curtains open, allowing the sun's morning glow to filter into her murky room.

She wearily trugded to the bathroom and ran the hot water. It seared her skin, but she didn't care about the pain that burned fiercly through her body. She wrapped a towel around her and starred at her pale face in the mirror. Her eyes were scarlet and inflamed from crying. She watched herself shiver in the 7 by 7 mirror. ''Today is not going to be a very good day.'' she said.

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After 3 failed attempts to ditch school Bell finally found herself standing at her locker alone with 20 minutes to spare before school started. She pretended to be highly interested in something in her locker, which was pretty much empty except for a few folders and a couple books.

Her hair was a mess, aparantly she forgot to comb it before she left. So now not only was she feeling bad, she looked bad. ''Hi lil lady.'' came a deep, raspy, angry voice. Bell spun on her hills. Brad stood behind her a grimacing smile on his face. Bell felt her self shiver. She looked around, nobody was in the halls yet. ''Stay away from me.'' she cried weakly. Brad looked confused. ''I just wanted to tell you I had a great time the other day.'' he said.

Bell stared at him bewildered. Had he not remembered trying to rape her? ''What?'' Bell asked. ''I said I was just wanting to tell you I had a great time. I might have drunk to much though. Is that why you didn't ride back with me?'' he asked. Bell nodded. Brad laughed. ''Sorry, I usually don't drink so much, but the beer was free and so tempting. I really don't even remember to much of the night. I just remember waking up in a puddle of vomit with ahorrible headache.'' He laughed amusingly, though Bell thought nothing was funny.

''Well I guess I'll see you around.'' he said finally. Bell shuttered uncomfortabley as his hand touched her shoulder. ''Say hi to Jason for me.'' he said. A smile crossed his lips. It sent chills runing through Bell's blood. Had he really forgotten that night?...or was he playing her all over again?