Trapped In a 14 Year Old (intro)

    My friends, lets say, they were a little too immature for me, but I acted that way to fit in. They knew I was different, but they never said anything though. I knew I was different. It didn't matter how hard I tried to fit in, it just didn't work. It got to the point where I was just sitting around like a poser child, trying to fit in with the scenes. That only resulted in counceling, recomended by my teachers and mom.

    I had friends. Lots of friends. They had minor problems that they enhansted with bullshit to make them seem like a big deal. I didn't want them. I used my dark sarcasum to scare away people, but as soon as they heard that I was really a nice person, they came right back to bug me. I once punched a junior right between the eyes because he wouldn't quit asking me out. And I'm not really a violent person. That caused unneccassery attention.

    I wasn't so much a complainer, more of a listener. I just didn't like to listen to people who would bawl over stupid drama. I keep most of my emotions locked up. No one really needed to see them... They were more of a time waster, then something to actually take the time to express.

    I didn't believe in love. I just saw disguisting play between a man and a woman. That is what starts the drama that annoys the shit out of me. I mean if the chick didn't want to get preganant, then she shouldn't have had sex. And the daddy should have never brought it up or agreed to do it. I'm all for abortion though. I say if it legal, do it. Which is wrong, but I keep my beliefs to my self.

    I looked at high school like it was a small obstical in my path. Just very boring, and pointless to those who don't wanna be there. My friends said they wouldn't have a problem with it, but as soon as orientation started, they were crying for their mommies. I was about to strangle someone before they would shut up.

    I always looked at myself as worthless as a door-mat, like everyone else. I always thought I was immature, but when the counceler said I had the mind of a more mature person, I thought to myself, I'm a 17 year old trapped in this 14 year old girl's body.