abused at 16 part 3

as i sat there against the wall quietly i waited for her to leave...

finally i heard her yell

"im leaving u stupid bitch" and slammed the door.

at that moment i just wanted to die. just sit there and close my eyed and just die. i sometimes found my self praying... praying that maybe god could take me away save me from her. then i figured whats the use theres no way out. all i wanted to do was get high... and everything would be better... at least i thought it would be. i couldnt call my dealer becuase it would take him to long to get here and by that time shed be back. and know i was high. i thought to my self maybe if i just took tylenol i wont be in so much pain. i went to my moms room and i couldnt find any anywhere. then on the table there they were... her sleeping pills... the doctor gave them to her after the surgerys cause she couldnt sleep. so i thought maybe if i take a bunch i will just go to sleep and not wake up and everything will be okay again.

after going to the kitchen and getting water i went to my room and slowly took each pill that was left. i just layed there looking at the ceiling...waiting... for something to happen. as i felt my eyes close i thought this is it im free.... then next thing i remember was my mom yelling....

"is she going to be okay tell me shes going to be okay!!!" she said in a worried tone not one i ever reconized

"mrs your going to have to wait in the waiting room" the lady said so calm like it was nothing.

i remember seeing the white hallway i never understood why hospitals had to be so white with out color. so many people died there and all they seen was white.... i was confused on what had happen i thought i would be free from this terrible life... suddenly i knew i was wrong..

"we have to pump her stomach before its too late." the doctor said rushing around.

at that moment i knew... i wasnt free, i wasnt dying... i was going back home with that monster soon...

and there was no way out of it this time.