Jamie's Story: Epologue Redone

Jamie's Story is my story. What you read happend about 3 and a half years ago. I wanted badly to work things out with my first love, but it just wasn't meant to be. After about 7 months of seperation my now ex husband got the divorce papers. By then he had found someone new and wanted to make her his wife. They married a month after we were divorced, about a month and a week after our 3 year anniversary.

If your wondering if he ever tried to work things out with me, he did once. But his version of working things out was for us to be apart, not talking, or having any physical contact except maybe a hug, which he didn't return easily.

If he would see me now, he would see a whole differant person. Not that I look that much differant, but that I have changed greatly on the inside. I'm not temid anymore. If I have an oppinion, I voice it. If something is wrong, I try not to hide it. I've become more independant and I don't need someone to make me happy. I'm not afraid to have fights, sometimes I start them lol But, most of all I'm not afraid to be myself anymore.

How he treated me was wrong and I should have stopped it before it came down to what it did. I do wish that I would have done alot of things differantly, but I know now that we just were not made to be together.

Good things came out of all the bad things that happend. I met my soul-mate through my ex husband. Billy was a friend of his and we hung out together a couple times. I saw Billy on LoveHappens.com a little over a year and a half ago. I wrote him a note there and then awhile later he found me on myspace and to make a long story short, we've been together ever since. =) He loves me for who I am and he doesn't judge me for what I've done in the past. He stands by me through my mood swings and he's always there when I just need someone to talk to. He's everything I've ever wanted and so much more. I just wish I would have met him sooner and through differant cercumstances.

I've also gotten help with alot of things. I no longer cut, I won over that battle a couple years ago. I'm taking medicine and seeing a psychiatrist and a caseworker to deal with my depression and other things. I just want to tell people that there is no shame in getting help. It may be hard sometimes, but it's so nice to have people who care about you, people who will listen, people who will help anyway that they can.

Btw my ex husband's name is not Jason lol I'm leaving his real name out and also the name of his bestfriend. He told my mom that the reason he left was because he couldn't take my mood swings. I found out that I have bi-polar and borderline personality disorder. If I would have gotten help sooner we would have found out together.

He's told people that I'm crazy, and I'm not going to say that I don't have a lil crazy in me.. because don't we all?

I hope you got something out of my story. Whatever it may be. I can't say it was easy sharing it, but I'm glad that I did.

Just remember that none of us are perfect. But I beleive that the trials and heartaches that we go through can help us later on so we can share our story to help others.

What's your story?