My Story - Finding God

This is a part of my story. My past, and my present. The first fourteen years of my life were struggle and pain. Slowly over time I will put more detailed parts up that describe what has happened to me. From my first cut to my first love. It all ties together, and is what makes me, me. The people who know me now know what's left of me. Saying that makes it sound like I'm broken, and not fully here, which is true, but all in all I'm more here now than from when I was whole. So people get to love what's left of me... Now onto the little part of me that you get to know now... This is the part of my story where I found God. The part that's most important... well to me. remember this is just a small part with very few details.

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The past couple of years have been a great struggle for me. Things seemed to keep getting worse and worse. Thanks to my losing hope I fell further and further away from God.

It took a couple of things to help me fall back on track. god brought some people into my life that impacted me a lot. That was the start of it, Impact was another big thing. The people speaking there opened my eyes to what I was doing wrong.

It wasn't long after that when God had to send a wake up call to me. I was enjoying my new happiness and forgetting to thank God for what he was giving me. So he pulled away some of the people he gave me, and I saw my errors again.

When I thought things were going to get bad again I started reading through a devo book and I read this story that brought me to the verse, "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God said, 'Never will I leave you; Never will I forsake you.'" Hebrews 13:5. It made me see that I needed to rely on God more than physical beings because eventually physical people fade.

After that I made sure that I read devos and parts from the bible daily. There was a lot I learned from doing that too. A couple weeks later a close family member of mine passed away. It was kind of ironic because just the day before I had prayed about a lot of people, and this family member was one of them. He had been suffering for some time and it was a really big test for me. I was angry with God because I never had the chance to say goodbye, but I was also relieved that he was done suffering.

The question came to mine at this time was very serious. It was very important in my walk to Christ. The question was, "Is God really real, and if so why must I go through all these hardships?" Even though i was thinking about that question I read my daily devo like I had been doing, and I'm very glad I did. Ironically the devo related to my situation about Satan putting a question into our mind if God was truly good.

It was then that I realized that I truly had found God. He was giving me all these signs that he was there and showing me the rights of my wrongs. It was then that I finally accepted God into my heart and found my wonderful awesome savior.

Over the years people have been trying to help me see all this, but I just kind of brushed it off. It took a while, but God finally reached me, and I'm glad he did because now I don't need to rely on things around me to be happy. I can rely on God, My Father, and Savior. The one who finally reached me.