I'm crushing on Ricky.

This is probably the most scorching pain I have ever felt.

Ricky is a guy that sits behind me in my Maths class and a few seats away from me in my History class. When I met him, which was just under 7 months ago, I thought nothing of him. But lately, I have made shocking discoveries- That i'm falling for this guy; For reasons that I simply can not understand. Right now, I am really confused as to why this is happening to me. And as he is in the same sex group as I am, I simply can not, and probably will never, tell him how I feel towards him. That would be completely .. And utterly .. Out of the matter. Maybe you would be able to do it, but see here, I am not you. I am just another guy, but this guy has very low self esteem and sometimes self harms himself.

I have no idea what his sexual orientation is, but even if he was gay or bisexual, I doubt that he would like me. The percentage of that is very, very low- almost 0. So yeah .. That's all I thought I should say. Well, actually, this was a way of getting my feelings to a better height. By telling someone. But I guess it's not working.

Ergh, this is seriously playing tricks on my mind. Now, to answer the question I asked earlier. -- I like his gorgeously vivid eyes, I like his cute voice, I like his heart-stopping laugh, I like, well, everything about him. But it's a great shame that he'll never know. Heck, I even daydream about him. About stupid things, really. Sometimes, I wonder, and even picture, what it'd be like to kiss him.