just b4 I start.. I wanna make sure that I make this clear.. DO NOT SMAP, WRITE HURTFUL STUFF, OR BE MEAN IN THIS CHAT BECAUSE IT ISN'T FUNNY..(rate up, please and thank you) ok now im gonna start... ... ... ... I should be one of the happest people in the world.. so what happend?? I've got boyfriend who I love so much.. I've got tonnes of friends.. and bsties.. and I used to love my life, but every since the chrissy hollies everything has been going wrong for me.. my frndz bf died, my dad nearly died in a car crash.. my frndz little bro died at the age of 11.. I get into fights with my parents and I used to get along perfect with them.. so ever since then I have wonderd why? why don't I feel happy... why don't I like my life... why arnt I greatful to be alive.. why do I cry all the time..