miserably free

I look in the mirror

Wondering what I've done wrong

Why I'm feeling so weak

When I used to be so strong

All the pain inside my soul

Is hurting within my doubt

The suffering from last night

Is all I think about

I was kicked, shoved,

pushed to the side

Tears streaming down my face

More than I can hide

I try to face my fears

But they keep coming back

Threatening me in every way

My life, it attacks

I don't know what to say

I don't know what to do

Every move I make

Is a mistake to you

My friends at school ask me

If I'm okay

I tell them that I'm fine

Cause its all I can say

The secrets I keep

Are now harder to hide

I want to let it out

To have someone by my side

I want to let them know

That I'm beatin' every night

How my parents mistreat me

That I'm living a fright

How my life is miserable

In every way it can be

I need someone to help

I'm begging please

I wanna run away

I want to set free

To be in a place

Where people understand me

My mom is too drunk

To even care

That my dad yells at me

And pulls me by the hair

He curses at me

Tells me that I was a mistake

I scream for help

Cause it's all I can take

He covers my mouth

Then shoves me to the wall

Pushes me towards the stairs

Hoping I'll fall

I do, and it hurts

It hurts really bad

I'm wondering what

Has made my dad so mad

But now I look in the mirror

Tears streaming down my face

It seems better to die

Since I'm such a disgrace

I hold up a knife

And aim straight towards my chest

Hoping that in Heaven

I'll have a nice rest

My dad bangs at the door

Yells for me to come out

But I can't make a sound

Can't let a word out

Blood covers my hands

As I fall to the floor

My dad yells louder,

"Open the door!"

I close my eyes

And let the last tear fall

Before my life ends

Before I lose it all

My body goes numb

And my eyes snap shut

It really happened

I gave my life up

"Come out here baby!"

My dad, once again, says

But he can't molest me anymore

He can't continue the game that he plays

The door finally slams open

My dad steps inside

Wondering what happened

And how I died

Blood all over the floor

His eyes wide open

He stutters for help

His words, misspoken

Everything he did

And everything he said

Left me lying on the floor

FREE and dead.