In My Youth

So many mistakes I’ve made in the past
Too many to say, time goes fast
The mistakes are me, it’s what you remember
Not my face or my voice, just my last blender
How I embarrassed myself, time and again
To make you all laugh, what a fool I was then.
Yes how you laughed, and giggled with glee
But was easily forgotten, just like me.

The girl with the name they never remember,
The lovely good bye in my leaver’s book, what a pretender
How you always knew I wouldn’t be missed in the end
Realisation I was never thought of as a friend
But as someone who was always there, getting in the way
Begging for attention, wishing you would ask me to stay
The truth hurts the most, knowing it was all a lie
It was never going to last, it was meant to die.

How do I pick myself up now?
Knowing the truth
The lack of likeability
In my youth
The experience will stay
Always in my mind
Determined to be paranoid
Always over kind
To win a friendship
Just to be saved
To get over that time
I felt so betrayed

At the end of the day nothing can change
Minds are made up, and things just went strange
The rumours that spread, no longer do I care
Because at least I’m living my life out there
I’ll do what I want, no matter what you think
And I don’t care if I get boozed up on one drink
My life will be fun, my life will all anew
Since the day you made me forget about you!