The Words Behind A False Tongue

I don't care anymore
Wait a minute
I am lying to myself once again
These words are behind a false tongue
My invisibly is blinding my eyes
I am misplacing myself in a lost island
There are nothing in there
Love is not here
Just hatred
My heart throbs hurtfully
The pains
It is spreading over my body
The word is crying out loud to anybody
Who can see me when I am unseen like a ghost
My throat squeezes down to the heart
My voice is barely unspeaking
The beat of my heart is vibrating step by step
Why do I care?
Why cannot I stop loving him?
Why am I hurting myself?
Why cannot I move on?
All the questions are keeping to voice heavily in my mind
These words cannot escape away out of my thoughts
My tears of invisible are shedding out of my eyes
You are so wrong
None of my tears are coming out
Even though I just feel like I am crying in the tears
None of the pains can immediately go away
The darkness is always flooding back

May 9, 2008