I Don't Really Understand

Too Many Voices in my head. Trying to find my words to vent out. Let me explain about my best friend. I don’t really understand her at all. Losing her. Working out on our friendship. Fixing our friendship. I don’t really want out friendship to fade. Seeing her. She is walking to her friends. Talking loudly. Laughing loudly. Smiling widely. Talking to their friends. Is she a real friend? I don’t really understand why. Why do she rarely come to me? I used to listen her problems, and her heart. Missing her laughing, hugs, and smiles. I don’t really get it. I know her favorite stuffs, sports and some of her friends. She acts like one of most popular girl in school. I don’t really understand why. What is a real friend? I don’t really understand why she never come to me. I know she met many new faces. I am trying to understand. Going to find out why. Going to ask her. I will get my words out of my heart. My eyes are filling the tears. My cheeks are turning into pink. My smiles are fading. I don’t really understand why. My patience is still growing from small to big. Soon, my patience will fade. I will just get my words out of my heart in front of her. I just can’t take it anymore. What is going on with her? I am telling you that she has three faces with three different personalities. Seeing her. I don’t really understand why she is acting so different. Missing her old, sweet behavior. Why did she change her personality? Why do she rarely come to me? I just want to see her old, sweet behavior again, but she ain’t changing it. Going to walk to her, and facing her. Telling her how I feel, and hating her mean attitude. If she doesn’t want me to be her best friend, and then I will leave her forever. This is my very last warning. I will warning her for the last time. If she do want me to be her best friend, and then I will get my words out of my heart. Not a cold, stone heart, but a warm, soft heart. I am going to tell her. I promise you. She will open her eyes widely. She will understand how I feel. I am tired of being lonely, again. I am tired of being left alone.