Abusers Infidelity

Today has become a week.
This week now a month.
Time is an enemy.
Knowing what you've done.
I'm sinking fast and cannot speak.
A jaded girl who renders weak.
I'm drunk with ill found fate.
I think I'd rather bleed.
I listen to you lie and say,
"I'm all you ever need."
I let myself get caught off guard.
As you sit and load your gun.
I'm counting all the chambers.
I wish would kill me one by one.
Do you know what
It's like to love?
Cause I've loved once.
You a thousand times.
My psyche exists no longer.
Yes, my heart is now my mind.