maybe I could keep on

I feel every step forward puts me two steps back,no time to react just slaped and shoved then attatacked,tacked to the wall with pain that I inflict on myself when I crack,

I try to end the bull shit,take a gun with a bullet to my skull and pull it,but no shot how could this be I put in a full clip,a nusence,the nuse slips,I fall and it felt like the rope was to my throte but it went right through it,

I sit in this tub face under the water to stop the sin,but somehow my lungs still feel the oxegen,not again,whats happinin a knife slit to the wrist but it slips from my grip,it seems this paranormal even seems to occur once more and it makes me flip,

need truth whats the use,self abuse but still it seems the agony comes from you,this insentive to let me live,the hints it seems to give,still your words I seem to fogive

I guess it was just ment to be,it wasn't intended that I leave,I sign of releif,sit back and just breath,the increase of happy thoughts seems to come over me,I was just about to say so long,but I guess it was just ment for me to go on